Free will..

Liberated from everything….

I know this journey is the hardest,

I want to fly

Or run away somewhere

And I just hope

That I can finally find you there.

(First published on 3rd Aug, 2020)

Conjunction of celestial myriads

Copyrights Reserved by Preet. Kindly do not use the picture without permission.

What’s your focus for 2022??

A fun way to start somewhere.. Which four words did you see first?? 🌞😍ðŸ’Ŧ

Photography- Greenery..

Focussing on this crisp green

One notices a monochrome,

Sitting besides the same freshness

One’s soul feels truly at home- Preet

(Originally posted on 4th july, 21)

Grateful for your presence.

This post is just to thank everyone here who stays patient with me. Sometimes, I cannot interact via comments because I feel shut down due to personal reasons n find it difficult to talk to anyone. Sometimes, you all have to deal with my negative posts involving anguish described in anger n rage. My family as well has to deal with my furious nature. Although, it has reduced drastically in comparison to the last year but still I feel that nobody else than me deserves to deal with those vibes. The darkness should stay with the person to whom it belongs and be released too in a healthy way. I find writing and painting as the mediums to release the negativity that engulfs me, from which I am unable to release it though Art as I can only paint good stuff. It’s only through writing that I can release my worst of dark emotions, and it’s really very important for me to release anger, otherwise I get sick physically as well (fever n low immunity). So, I just want to thank you all (including my family, whom I apologised for my behaviour) for being there in my lows as well, and not only in the times I write something good having some good vibes in it, full of love and beauty. 💜💖

Elderly sound advice..

I talked to my bua (paternal aunt) about it and she said,

If he wanted you that much, he would have said it clearly directly and not through other’s accounts, and if you wanted him that much, you would have met him.

That’s some serious mature advice. I am proud of her. Sad but still..that’s practical..

Whenever I really need some serious advice in which I need to be talked Out Of Emotions, I talk to her. I am still emotional, but thinking practically at the same time, and this time the credit goes to her only..

Some smart meanings..

-When you try to do Kamasutra but instead you need to do some kaam(work) according to her dictated sutra(scripture)- Lust turned into marriage

-Who else does HURRAY !! YE WALI BHI GYI, WO WALI BHI GYI.. ABB SHAYAD MERA EK-DEDH SAAL MEIN CHANCE LAGG JAYEGA..(THIS ONE GONE, THAT ONE GONE..PROBABLY I’LL HAVE A CHANCE WITH THEM NOW IN A YEAR OR AROUND)- Crushed Nuts

-BF should be BEST FRIEND, GF should be GREAT FRIEND..OKAY??- Best BF-GF

-As much as love, Covid was in the air, and 2020 made us all sick either way-2020 Diaries

-We all know that one person who can balance out the extremities very well while never being in the middle-Come On, You All Know Me 😉ðŸĪŠ

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(Written on 2nd March,2021)

I do differently..

They say “Date them all until one of them shows you he is serious”,

I say “Brozone them all until one of them shouts “I want to be your fucking husband !!”

*chaos versus clarity*

Crazy but it works 😜

An advice for Alpha females for marriage..

I want to give an advice to young women/girls who want to get married at some point in their life. Actually, there are many points that I want to discuss under this topic and you may also find many advices online as well as offline regarding marriage. But there is one point that I want to put some light on which is often ignored while considering a life partner.

If you are a woman who is ambitious, takes her own decisions, works her ass off, is a go-getter, and is a provider, in short, the one who has most of the qualities of an Alpha Female, you need to see the family structure of the man if you are interested in him for marriage or life partnership or relationship. I am saying this because I have seen this pattern a lot in society that when and if the females of the family in which a man has grown up, did not work in office, and were by nature-submissive, coy, and silent, that man is going to want the same from his life-partner sub-consciously. It doesn’t matter how much educated or modernised he became, the years (decades) of mental training he got from his family sub-consciously is not going to change even if he finds the otherwise for himself consciously. He would want you to be the same meek and coy woman. Your boundaries will be aggressive to him. Your desires and ambition will make him feel insecure and he would like to impose his dogmatic thinking upon you just like his family’s females were pressed upon and taught to abide by the thinking and orders of the men in his family. He cannot comprehend that you can Think and Do better than him. His insecurities will start acting up whenever you will point out at his flaws, even if done politely. He may even be envious of your work and power because he was conditioned in his psyche’s developmental stages that women are not the Alpha and are meant to be protected and guided only. He may point at your frankness as rudeness. For him, submissive silence is elegance and speaking your mind will be needed to be in a controlled manner according to his dictates.

There will be, most of the times, power struggle between you two because you are an Alpha female and he may feel powerless because of that, so he will try to over-power you to soothe his ill-conditioned mind, and then there might be fights, manipulation and even separation between you two.

What do you think-is it better not to engage with such a man or is it better to engage and then be forced to leave in the end?? Or you can be ultra-submissive just like his family’s females and give upon your own power and capabilities and ambition to soothe his fragile ego??

(PS: Don’t come here with your feminist or anti-feminist mentality regarding this post. It’s about a particular kind of a man. The propositions may be relative to patriarchy but I did not point out at that. This advice is solely for alpha females who also love with whole of their being, so, kindly, do not come with the contention that love is adjustment and all. Those are different topics. I intended to write exactly about a very small fraction of possibilities.)

Thank you for reading. 🙂

Happy Birthday, Bua. âĪ

Birthdays are meant to be celebrated,

A few end up being mourned as well.

Originally posted on 11th june, 2020. I had written about a birthday being mourned because my bua (eldest paternal aunt) had died last year in April and on this day it’s her birthday. She will always be missed both in a happy and sad state of mind. Such a paradoxical feeling a birthday can bring. 💖💔

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