FREE AS FUCK !!

I can only tell how much free I feel now

Free to speak up my mind

Free to act my heart out

Free to love anyone I want to

Free to choose what to make my life about,

Shackled I felt

For a really long time

To soothe someone’s ego

To soothe one’s mind,

Out of respect I did it so wrong

That I cared about one’s selfishness

made my freedom in those shackles grind.

Darkness and secrets.

Do you ever feel like having a very open conversation with someone from your past(5 yrs) about why you could not let them come close to you.. ? why did you hate them.. why can’t you ever trust them? what dark secrets you are hiding from everyone.. ? almost everyone..but you cannot tell.. because that one will blame you again for everything or maybe spill the beans to a group or two or maybe will loathe you whole of your life about those secrets secretly…..

And somehow those secrets make you hate yourself but they were the reason behind all that for you; because you were not in the mind to choose better behaviour for yourself that time??

I hope one day you get somebody to whom you can open up your heart and mind like that completely.

To strangers.

On a bad note, due to my experiences I already consider you stupid; you have to prove me that you are not.

Lesson.

Life is hard,

Don’t make it harder for others.

Basic for good mental health. 💐

“Those who stay in their lane,

Stay sane.”

It’s that simple.

Love.

Love never lies,

Love is not blind..

This is a blessing,

Only one of its kind.

Pioneer of my own life.

I cannot explain this enough

how much I hate to be defensive

And explain my actions

As well as inaction..

Assume whatever

But keep it to yourself;

This is for whosoever

I came or will come into interaction;

I repeat

I owe nobody any explanation

For what I do

Or feel the need to show it off,

Although I may do it in fraction,

But I do everything to my standards’ satisfaction,

I steer my life in my own way,

I know what I did, doing and will do,

I don’t need from anybody else a single direction.

No special grants for anyone-Burnt Bridges Forever.

Burnt bridges cannot be re-established.

If any past so-called friend or classmate wants to come back to me after joining hands with people I hated, seriously, know that I am not that stupid to let you in. If I had done that to you, you would have left longer before I did. You people are too sick for my mental health.

Carry on with your COMMUNITY PROGRAMMES OF GOSSIPPING though.

PS- This is for both guys’ and girls’ groups. And I hope no trial will be made by any such group.

Know the real deal.

It’s good to be co-operative,

But not that much that you turn your back towards your enemies or haters as an invitation to them to stab you,

Even if it’s just a filthy talk,

You never know who hates you and for what reasons,

thus once you notice any red flag,

I hope you don’t try to turn it into a white flag of peace,

Or try to be a dove in front of a hawk.

Self-evaluate your reactions.

If anybody got offended by my last post, it only means that either they were finding pleasure and validation in my pain, which by any means is toxic, or they are over-analysing what I write. In both the cases, they need to find their mental balance and stop being overly reactionary.

The above-mentioned post.

PS- I am not giving any explanation about my behaviour here as I do not owe it to anyone for what I write. I am just trying to reflect on people’s reactivity so that they can heal on their own by self-evaluation.