Dearest and The Best Papa,
I wish so badly that you were still here. You were such a great guide to me, A guide, friend and philosopher; and such a beautiful human being, so helpful, knowledgeable, intelligent, disciplinarian, understanding, selfless and humble and most of all, an examplary father. I cannot praise you enough. I tried to imbibe a lot of your traits, though unsuccessfully. You are still an epitome of strength to me and your absence will always feel like a big hollow in my heart and void in my soul. Surely, we are connected by soul but your humanly wisdom is what I miss a lot and most of all, your quite presence that always encouraged me to do better n better every single time I looked at you. You were my inspiration. Despite having so many hardships in life, you always had a smile on your face, depth in your eyes and hustle in your body and mind and not giving up in your spirit. I used to gain strength just after having a look at you, and if not that, you used to push me to do better and never give up. I know life was not fair to you. It never was till your last breath. Also, I want to apologize to you for not standing upto the mark.
I can never forget the day when I did not have the book during one of my last semester exams ‘law and medicine’, you did not let me know that you were out there in the markets of mumbai walking here and there for hours under the scorching heat, despite having cancer, not having eaten anything whole day, just to find that one book that was unavailable. That day I felt so helpless because I knew you’d do anything for me and I was never doing enough for you. I still feel helpless for that reason that I could never do anything good enough for you except studying, and I know that you also wanted me to do that but the responsibilities any child can take for his/her parents I could never take that. The time I could do that, you died; and that will always feel like a big incapacity on my part.
The thing you wanted the most for me, because I wanted that, I am quitting on that too. I guess, you will understand that too but I wish you were here to guide me better, I am sorry I am being selfish here but I really need you. I miss you so much that I cannot describe it in words. Sometimes I even feel like dying just to meet you. But I will try to be happy because I know you are always around and it makes you happy too, and it’s going to take long for us to meet in the same realm. Nobody can understand me better than you, I can say that without a doubt, we had silent agreements and logical disagreements. Many people say that I am just like you, I feel proud to listen to that but I am nothing near to you, some of your friends even called you a saint, I wish you could know (I think you heard them) and I cannot agree more.
In the end, I only want to say that I got blessed with a father like you and got cursed with your absence, but truly, you have been the best person I have even known. I wish I could tell you all this when you were alive but I know that you know what and how I feel about you and I wish we could spend this day together for several more years.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY.. ❤
-Your proud daughter.
My mobile notification just pinged me with an e-mail noyifying me that I have achieved 1000 followers mark on my website. To me, you all are a wonderful fellow writers community (rather than followers). Just two days ago I was thinking that I could never grow in blogging community. Negative thoughts had engulfed my mind. But thank goodness, I switched to a positive mindset and thought that I could enhance my writing and blogging skills. I am trying and will keep trying. I love to be and called a learner for life, and I hope that you all will stay connected and keep sharing your amazing writings.
When you turn a blind eye to negative and bad people and start connecting with the good ones, your life definitely starts getting better; no matter how small the change be, the change should be in a good direction.
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Stay happy and blessed, and keep giving a doze of your mind and heart through words. LOVE AND BLESSING 🙂❤
I don’t know why
But I want to live wild,
I have lived a structured life for way too long
It feels boring..
And wild doesn’t mean being emotionally too intense
As I tend to be sometimes,
Wild in the sense
To be happy, energetically glee,
To be free
To cherish life
And live it intentionally peacefully.
Do you ever look at you and start having a crush on yourself??