LIFE.

People usually think why I am mostly poker faced or smiling and not really smiling in my pics.

REASONS–

Hard, heart-breaking and hurtful events: Death of 8 family members from which 7 of them died one after another with a gap of one or two years continuously. Heartbreaks in between. So, obviously depression was my normal mental state full of feelings of helplessness, fear of loss of the next one and the related anxiety, in which I had bouts of non-depressive episodes(Yep! Opposite of usual).

Heartbreak: The one that happened long ago (2015) was mentally abusive to me, during and after which I felt like I did not even have enough self-respect. I didn’t come in any relationship after that. After that I fell in love with my so-called best friend, who also deceived me in many ways, and then got married last year about which I got to know in march this year (no,he didn’t inform me. He was still hiding it) So, welcome to depression again !!

Broken friendships: Almost all of my friendships got broken from 2018-2020. Mind games, groupism, gossips, joining hands with enemies. The behaviour which I used to observe, forgive and forget before this time period, became intolerable to me. After all, for how many years(even decades) people were going to take me as a fool just because I was too tolerant, good-hearted, forgiving and friendly?? Definitely, those were not friends. Someone had to end it all, so I did.

My studies and work: Believe it or not, when you are involved in legal, political and psychological fields, you see and read cases that kinda mentally suck you in (Nasty mentally disturbing stuff). It all, in a way, gets embedded on your soul and psyche and you can never really undo that all information. Not that I don’t love what I do. I love my work and research but it’s also true that only the toughest ones can see and go through all that and still have a stability of mind to think through it all rationally.

Although I try my best to stay normal and succeed too; yet somehow it (all the bad stuff) still shows on my face, and most of the times, one can see it in my eyes.

That’s why, most of my old pictures show some kind of depression or sadness on my face and in my eyes.

Not that I am not hurt now or never get hurt or depressed, but every single hurt or disappointment reminds me of my past.

(PS- I was not writing about any of those people and/or events lately, anywhere on social media. Some people have really changed for the better and I also have moved on from that past.)

Learning to fly…..

You may as well,
To save yourself from drowning in marshy waters,
Want to learn to fly.
💞

(Originally posted on 6th jan,2021)

Quotes and Thoughts.

Here are a few quotes and words that I wrote and live by. You may check out my page Your Choicest Lifestyle on instagram for more of such quotes. There are more than 350 original quotes on my page. For travel, lifestyle, food, selfies and original reels, do check my main profile page Preet.pi on instagram. I assure you, you won’t regret taking a look at both the accounts. Also, please check out the stories as well on my Preet.pi page.

THANK YOU FOR READING..❤

(4th july, 2021)

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Source matters.

Those who love sun

Don’t wish for the moon,

For the sun gives and gives only

The moon only shines bright

Reflecting the light given by the sun,

I love the real source of light, enlightenment and awakening,

Not that which only imitates

carrying only a fraction

Yet trying to reflect what’s not its own

Only grabbing attention.

(Originally posted on 14,october,2020.. I love all, the sun,the stars and the moon.)

Quote-Unquote.

YOU- “All work and no play makes jack a dull boy.”

JACK-

Don’t play with me.

Meh.. I’ll never be dull.

What the heck can I play here ! 🤨

(First published on 18th Dec, 2021)

Basic for good mental health. 💐

“Those who stay in their lane,

Stay sane.”

It’s that simple.

(First published 21st july, 2020)

To whomsoever it may concern.

I have had chewed the hardest pills last year only,

Keep your shit to yourself now.

(Date: 24th march, 2021)

Misplaced..

In the grim darkness,

They dig a bore-well and the water splinters,

you see a rainbow’s spectrum whine,

“What’s so wrong in the imagery”

The droplets asked..

“You are misplaced”

Answered the sky

“You are meant to reflect

a rainbow in the sunshine.”

Very proudly, the difference is certain.

I can say this with full confidence that there are more than 15 people who have grave enmity and envy towards me for no reason else than I am being myself and pick myself up from anything that they never could do for themselves, people whom I don’t even consider existent now and whom I helped the time(s) when nobody else did and to whom I was kind to when nobody else was. But here lies the difference between low-vibing fake ones and high-vibing someone.

(From 31st march,2021)

Prayers help..

It works. It really does !! Trust me on this one.. Do not pray for a particular person; it’s just a part of attachment, not even love. You may pray to get a particular person but you may just attract them in your life for a short span that way. But if you pray like this, you will know who you exactly feel for and who you are meant to be with. Don’t even ask for the signs. Signs may be deceptive as we all behave in quite similar fashion or may do so in a short while. Just pray for your own soul to know the reality. And do not fear before and after that about letting go of anything or anyone not meant for you. Accept by heart that you have learnt your lessons and you just want to know and feel only for the one who you are meant to be with forever. YOU WILL KNOW, REALLY !