Reminiscing my nature.

I can’t even explain how I think. Many live in and for experiences. I really don’t seek them. I don’t seek events to make memories about them. I don’t think that we are what we create or some experiences can create us (ok particularly me here). How I take experiences is purely the mental stimulators or catalysts for different thinking. As far as I remember nothing has changed me much. Those who know me now or at whatever period of time they might have known me may think that I have changed a lot. But that’s not true. They have only seen my behaviour for a short period of time n for a few events or so on but my basic nature has always been like this only.

I was always quiet in front of the outsiders (school, college, relatives functions, strangers etc.) and quiet in my own home maybe for eternity.. but.. whenever I wanted to socialise I was one hella fun person. I was always the one who organised family functions to the T (not the labour part, ok). I was always sporty whenever anyone came to the house (n got comfy in the family) to play a game or two. I made jokes whenever I observed something laugh-worthy in the surroundings. I was analysing situations, people’s behaviour and dynamics of different kinds right from my very childhood (like since the age of 6-7 years old). I always observed a lot. Like really.. I can very confidently say that I filter about 95-98% of things that I observe just because I find them quite useless including people who think that they can always sneak, tresspass, abuse n escape.. “Nope ! You didn’t. I did let you because you are not important at all.” If you think that I have become angrier, that too, is in my nature by birth, though the outlets have changed. I used to store it all or tended to flush off that energy by playing cricket for two hours daily in the evening (though with my brother n father only). It was really a good release of energy then. Now I feel like not storing any shit in my mind n release it all through words. If we talk about confidence. I always had a very good amount of self-confidence but I was always quiet about it because I was getting regular recognition about my capability through professors n results etc. Now I have to show it in other ways because of the wake of social media as in this era if you don’t verbalise or show your capabilities, then you are considered not to have them at all and those who are ept at showing off, become successful, though they might have half of your capabilities.

The point is.. I was always more or less similar..Not much has changed.. Neither my nature, nor my strength.. It’s just that those who have started to know different sides of me or my deeper layers, they think that I have changed a lot; they actually never knew me. Really.. Never..

Strangest thing about me: I do the things, I hate to do, the most. This one I still cannot understand why. Sooner or later, I end up doing things that I really hate.

Strongest point about me: I really, and by this I mean REALLY, I don’t give a fuck about who thinks what about me.

Weakest point about me: I won’t actualise something until I have done it to perfection, exactly the way I visualised it, and even after reaching that point I keep polishing it so that it can reach a point to my utmost satisfaction.

The best thing I find about my life: No matter how filthy situations, events or people I deal with, my bounce back game is strong AF, stronger than many, and I don’t mean it by the show off part, I mean it about things considered valuable.

(Originally posted on 28th Dec, 2020)

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Do not contain your power !

The worst thing you will do to yourself is to contain your power to soothe other people’s ego. Let them be petty. Let them be miserable. Let them be the complainant. Let them be foolish. Let them be toxic dramatic. Let them be the high-handed in their own world. You can kick their asses without even touching them, just by being yourself, and just by doing you with your whole energy speaking for you. You may think that those you love or loved will appreciate how much you shrink yourself to balm their insecurity and inferiority complexes, but they will not appreciate it. Some of them will say that they never asked you to do so. Some will blame you saying that you could choose different or better. The blame in the end goes to you. Some will say that you did not do enough for them, no matter how tough you were living for them, or they wanted different. How much can you shrink yourself for such thankless petty people?? Why would not you choose yourself rather than those ugly souls?? Hear me clear ! It’s okay to hurt people and be unkind to them if they expect you to contain yourself in a little box, frustrating yourself with all that energy wanting to expand yet trying to explode you in that little space. You do not deserve to explode when you are meant to expand, and trust me, you can expand beyond your own expectations, specially when people around you do not want you to see your worth.

I am freaking powerful and I love it.-Preet

(Published on 30th june,21)

A Burning Candle..

Remove darkness
Be a guiding force
Even if it makes a little difference
While you burn for someone whole
Even if no one is a witness. -Preet


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(Published on 14th May, 2021)

Some smart meanings..

-When you try to do Kamasutra but instead you need to do some kaam(work) according to her dictated sutra(scripture)- Lust turned into marriage

-Who else does HURRAY !! YE WALI BHI GYI, WO WALI BHI GYI.. ABB SHAYAD MERA EK-DEDH SAAL MEIN CHANCE LAGG JAYEGA..(THIS ONE GONE, THAT ONE GONE..PROBABLY I’LL HAVE A CHANCE WITH THEM NOW IN A YEAR OR AROUND)- Crushed Nuts

-BF should be BEST FRIEND, GF should be GREAT FRIEND..OKAY??- Best BF-GF

-As much as love, Covid was in the air, and 2020 made us all sick either way-2020 Diaries

-We all know that one person who can balance out the extremities very well while never being in the middle-Come On, You All Know Me 😉🤪

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(Written on 2nd March,2021)

PINK LOVES BLUES-Digital Art/Haiku

Pink loves blues,

Am I talking about emotion

or only hues??

(Note: This digital artwork and words are copyrighted work of the author. Please do not copy or download the same without explicit consent and don’t forget to mention my website in case you decide to share the post. Thank you. ❤)

Specific message for fellow bloggers..

Hello, my amazing fellow-bloggers..🤗❤

This is the specific note from me about being active on wordpress. Actually, I am suffering from vertigo from two days (onset on sunday noon and monday) and it’s still continuing and is quite frequent. My brain needs rest. I wanted to tell you all that I will be reading and giving feedback on your amazing blogs on the upcoming sunday. I may read and like your blogs in between, do blog myself or reshare the old ones but it’s taxing on my mind to comment as of now or reply to your beautiful comments on my blogs.

Don’t worry, I am fine otherwise. It’s just normal vertigo. I am having it for the first time, so, I am kinda enjoying it as well. When your head spins for no reason and you try to balance yourself. 🤣 This will go away soon when I’ll be taking proper rest and stay away from much of mental stimulation or stress as I have no other underlying cause for the same like High Blood Pressure or Infection or Low Haemoglobin etc. Maybe an envious evil eye on me wants me to suffer (kidding 🤪). I know I will be back soon whole-heartedly.

Till then, I hope you won’t take my less interaction as inattentiveness. I will still be reading and liking your posts in between but will completely interact on sunday wholeheartedly. I admire you all and your brilliant writings. ❤

Take care.. Stay safe.. Lots of Love 😇❤

1000 Fellow Bloggers Connected..

My mobile notification just pinged me with an e-mail noyifying me that I have achieved 1000 followers mark on my website. To me, you all are a wonderful fellow writers community (rather than followers). Just two days ago I was thinking that I could never grow in blogging community. Negative thoughts had engulfed my mind. But thank goodness, I switched to a positive mindset and thought that I could enhance my writing and blogging skills. I am trying and will keep trying. I love to be and called a learner for life, and I hope that you all will stay connected and keep sharing your amazing writings.

When you turn a blind eye to negative and bad people and start connecting with the good ones, your life definitely starts getting better; no matter how small the change be, the change should be in a good direction.

A BIG THANK YOU TO ALL OF YOU FOR BEING SO KIND AND POLITE TO ME AND FOR ALSO APPRECIATING MY WORK. THAT TRULY MEANS A LOT TO ME. 🙏❤

Stay happy and blessed, and keep giving a doze of your mind and heart through words. LOVE AND BLESSING 🙂❤

Digital-Art: Stone-heads..

Two stone strong heads,

Desiring hearts to melt,

Waiting for the other to take the first step

For what they felt.. -Preet

This is the digital painting I just created. Hope anyone can guess it must not have taken me much to get this idea. The point is, ideas are precious, be it in writing or creating art. The original the better.

Apart from this message, do tell me if you find any other perspective looking at this digital painting.

(Note: Please do not copy the words or download the picture without written consent of the author. All the copyrights are reserved by the author. Thank you. ❤)

An advice for Alpha females for marriage..

I want to give an advice to young women/girls who want to get married at some point in their life. Actually, there are many points that I want to discuss under this topic and you may also find many advices online as well as offline regarding marriage. But there is one point that I want to put some light on which is often ignored while considering a life partner.

If you are a woman who is ambitious, takes her own decisions, works her ass off, is a go-getter, and is a provider, in short, the one who has most of the qualities of an Alpha Female, you need to see the family structure of the man if you are interested in him for marriage or life partnership or relationship. I am saying this because I have seen this pattern a lot in society that when and if the females of the family in which a man has grown up, did not work in office, and were by nature-submissive, coy, and silent, that man is going to want the same from his life-partner sub-consciously. It doesn’t matter how much educated or modernised he became, the years (decades) of mental training he got from his family sub-consciously is not going to change even if he finds the otherwise for himself consciously. He would want you to be the same meek and coy woman. Your boundaries will be aggressive to him. Your desires and ambition will make him feel insecure and he would like to impose his dogmatic thinking upon you just like his family’s females were pressed upon and taught to abide by the thinking and orders of the men in his family. He cannot comprehend that you can Think and Do better than him. His insecurities will start acting up whenever you will point out at his flaws, even if done politely. He may even be envious of your work and power because he was conditioned in his psyche’s developmental stages that women are not the Alpha and are meant to be protected and guided only. He may point at your frankness as rudeness. For him, submissive silence is elegance and speaking your mind will be needed to be in a controlled manner according to his dictates.

There will be, most of the times, power struggle between you two because you are an Alpha female and he may feel powerless because of that, so he will try to over-power you to soothe his ill-conditioned mind, and then there might be fights, manipulation and even separation between you two.

What do you think-is it better not to engage with such a man or is it better to engage and then be forced to leave in the end?? Or you can be ultra-submissive just like his family’s females and give upon your own power and capabilities and ambition to soothe his fragile ego??

(PS: Don’t come here with your feminist or anti-feminist mentality regarding this post. It’s about a particular kind of a man. The propositions may be relative to patriarchy but I did not point out at that. This advice is solely for alpha females who also love with whole of their being, so, kindly, do not come with the contention that love is adjustment and all. Those are different topics. I intended to write exactly about a very small fraction of possibilities.)

Thank you for reading. 🙂