Depression alongwith aggravated OCD makes one feel hyper-alert while having no energy to be alert about anything. One has no desire to know anything anymore yet stays busy to correct something which one doesn’t even know what is wrong or the wrong which actually doesn’t exist.
Why would you count things, literally every single little thing as little as your breathing, to correct something that has nothing to do with it?? What would you correct that isn’t even wrong in the first place??
The anticipation of something to go wrong is the reason behind OCD; something that someone holds very dearly or important in one’s life, and if that thing has gone wrong multiple times in the past, then the person becomes extra cautious or obsessed or say moves into hyper-mode of anxiety about it. It’s frustrating and utterly exhausting, both mentally and physically.
Don’t tell me meditation n shit helps in this. It is a problem of rationalizing irrational thoughts and attaching irrational behaviour (compulsions) to those irrational thoughts by somehow rationalizing them after observing patterns between them.
Add depression to it; And you have enormous amount of inner conflict while you have no energy or desire to even do the bare minimum of daily life, and sometimes even breathing and staying awake feels like a burden to the mind.
Your Jealousy will take you nowhere
but 3 feet down
under the ground,
With the heaviness of misery
on your cursed weak spirit
heavier than ten thousand pound.
(You are up for the biggest downfalls of your entire life. Keep being a jealous bitch. 👍
PS- A BITCH is gender neutral. I may be calling a male a Bitch because he is a Bitch in reality.)
Kudos to those who try to empower others,
Try to uplift others when they get a hint of their downfall,
Try to spread love and positivity when they know they are only giving,
Try to stay calm even when others are not receptive of their goodness,
Try to rise even though they are not at a better place than many,
Try to connect to their spiritual side even when they are ruminating in darkness,
I am sure universe will reward those pure hearts with the same goodness and blessings in life,
That they try to give to others,
If not through the same people, then through other means,
Gates of blessings by the universe are innumerable,
Even if a few will close, they will be bestowed with many others.
(19th Aug, 2020)
Please click on the link given above if you want to follow my personal weight loss/fat loss journey from 114 kg to 57 kg. Thank you.. 🙂
Hi fellow bloggers,
Today I want to talk about my weight loss journey that happened in 2013. Directly coming to the point, I lost about 57 kg weight most of which was fat (yup, lost fat, not only water weight) and reduced weight from about 114 kg n some grams over that to exactly 57 kg. I would be lying if I say it was easy. And I gained about 10 kg in 2014 again due to depression n its resultant unhealthy eating habits. But reduced that weight again in about a month.
After that as well, I kept on gaining n losing weight of about 10-15 kg at different times. During the whole journey n every time I made a lot of research on what works n what doesn’t in terms of nutrition, exercise and hormonal balance-imbalance. By now, I can easily tell what causes fat/weight gain and it would remain until what time n how it can be shed.
I will share all of my experience and knowledge regarding the same on my other website www.yourchoicestlifestyle.com . Please follow that website if you are interested in knowing detail oriented plans and intricacies of weight loss n fitness. I assure you that you won’t be disapponted. I will be sharing the links of those blogs here om this website as well. Just in case you and/or any of your loved one needs to know about the experience of a really experienced person who experimented different things on herself for weight loss, share it with them. I will be sharing the upcoming related blogs on this website as well, but that would be occasional. So, please please follow that website n switch on the notifications or make the loved one who needs it, know about it.
Thank you by heart. 💜💖💫