Bloom

PC- Preet

To bloom like a flower,

it takes time.

[Pastels on paper. Don’t Judge. This is one of my kiddo drawings. (I mean as we drew in school)😛😜]

The digitally improvised version:

Copyrights reserved by Preet.

Perspective.

Photo by Pixabay on Pexels.com

Not the darkness in the sky,

I notice the silver lining..

Not tremble from the might of the thunder,

It’s sparking lightening rejuvenates me, I don’t lie..

Not the doom,

I feel it’s another way of love by nature..

Not the clouds,

I see the luscious blue velvet sheet spread over the sky.

(24th Nov, 2021)

Digital art-Evening sky

PC-Preet

Empathy

Empathy is not synonymous to love. When you see somebody vibing low, you will feel low. But it does not mean that it’s because of love. It’s just your nature. Stop soaking other people’s vibes.

Photography-Popping red

Note to self.

Don’t go back to your old ways,

Try to get out of that mud,

There is love and light for you to grow,

You are still an about to bloom bud,

Hands folded, head held high,

You have to forget your heart’s cry,

When something and someone is pure,

It is rewarded for sure,

Let the times be obscure,

You have to hear past the tumultous,

The sound of nature,

It bestows the real things the strength to endure;

Even if your heart is breaking into a billion pieces,

Just let the rivers of pain flow,

Because days and nights keep shifting,

But always after the darkness,

We feel the sunrise’s glow.

(First published on 17th Jan, 2020)

Astrological Personality

Western Astrology:

Virgo- Sunsign/Zodiac Sign.

Scorpio- Moon Sign.

Capricorn- Rising/Ascendant Sign.

Reminiscing my nature.

I can’t even explain how I think. Many live in and for experiences. I really don’t seek them. I don’t seek events to make memories about them. I don’t think that we are what we create or some experiences can create us (ok particularly me here). How I take experiences is purely the mental stimulators or catalysts for different thinking. As far as I remember nothing has changed me much. Those who know me now or at whatever period of time they might have known me may think that I have changed a lot. But that’s not true. They have only seen my behaviour for a short period of time n for a few events or so on but my basic nature has always been like this only.

I was always quiet in front of the outsiders (school, college, relatives functions, strangers etc.) and quiet in my own home maybe for eternity.. but.. whenever I wanted to socialise I was one hella fun person. I was always the one who organised family functions to the T (not the labour part, ok). I was always sporty whenever anyone came to the house (n got comfy in the family) to play a game or two. I made jokes whenever I observed something laugh-worthy in the surroundings. I was analysing situations, people’s behaviour and dynamics of different kinds right from my very childhood (like since the age of 6-7 years old). I always observed a lot. Like really.. I can very confidently say that I filter about 95-98% of things that I observe just because I find them quite useless including people who think that they can always sneak, tresspass, abuse n escape.. “Nope ! You didn’t. I did let you because you are not important at all.” If you think that I have become angrier, that too, is in my nature by birth, though the outlets have changed. I used to store it all or tended to flush off that energy by playing cricket for two hours daily in the evening (though with my brother n father only). It was really a good release of energy then. Now I feel like not storing any shit in my mind n release it all through words. If we talk about confidence. I always had a very good amount of self-confidence but I was always quiet about it because I was getting regular recognition about my capability through professors n results etc. Now I have to show it in other ways because of the wake of social media as in this era if you don’t verbalise or show your capabilities, then you are considered not to have them at all and those who are ept at showing off, become successful, though they might have half of your capabilities.

The point is.. I was always more or less similar..Not much has changed.. Neither my nature, nor my strength.. It’s just that those who have started to know different sides of me or my deeper layers, they think that I have changed a lot; they actually never knew me. Really.. Never..

Strangest thing about me: I do the things, I hate to do, the most. This one I still cannot understand why. Sooner or later, I end up doing things that I really hate.

Strongest point about me: I really, and by this I mean REALLY, I don’t give a fuck about who thinks what about me.

Weakest point about me: I won’t actualise something until I have done it to perfection, exactly the way I visualised it, and even after reaching that point I keep polishing it so that it can reach a point to my utmost satisfaction.

The best thing I find about my life: No matter how filthy situations, events or people I deal with, my bounce back game is strong AF, stronger than many, and I don’t mean it by the show off part, I mean it about things considered valuable.

(Originally posted on 28th Dec, 2020)

Moving right.

I am moving in a way lately, that even when you have enmity against me, you are going to support me.

Hard-work and Gratitude never go in vain.

THE PARADOX

You under-estimate my capacity of self-control, and that how much of it I need to hold. I am a person who is driven intensely emotionally and yet stays highly rational most of the times. Stay assured that I can cut someone to pieces cold-heartedly in anger if that one deserve it, yet I will control myself enough not to do it because it’s illegal. I can love someone to death intensely, yet I will consider that one non-existent if he deserves that kind of treatment. I am an extreme paradox with high self-control, and that’s what makes me feel so powerful and efficiently working that many people fail to understand.

(16th Aug, 2021)

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