One’s silence to heal oneself should be digestible.
Holding the words between lips,
She said everything with eyes.
A lone wolf is my spirit’s drive,
Embracing my wilderness,
Claiming my authenticity,
Silent, calm and compost and scarcely seething angry,
Working all alone,
I am sure some day I will meet the one,
Honest, righteous and success hungry,
Whose frequency matches with my vibe,
I will meet the one from my own soul tribe.
(First published on 5th March, 2020)
Felt like saying a few words,
Only silence spoke.
Neither hopeful about something nor hopeless, you just have to make peace with what is. Situations might and will change in the future but you cannot take the present for granted. What exists now is real, everything else is your thought. Once you commit to improve your present, be positive, love yourself, love your life the way it is, everything good begins to get attracted to you. But it does not mean that only desirable events will happen, even negative and bad experiences will add to your life. Being positive does not mean that you can have or attract nothing negative in life once you choose to be positive, it just means that whatever will happen you will accept and handle it. You don’t feel lost when you live in reality. You know anything and everything takes efforts and yet the results are neither guaranteed nor parmanent, you can just have a plan in your mind and work towards it. Yin and yang is the law of nature, i.e. two contradicting forces always co-exist, thus any situation has both the sides to it, it all depends on your psyche how you see it particularly and that’s where your mindset comes into play. Moreover, there is always an invisible side to everything, that’s the force that keeps every kind of energy moving; although you may take something as positive or negative but that kinetic force is the one that keeps on changing the dynamics between any two sides of anything, be it separating those forces or uniting them. Your mind is definitely the most powerful thing and can control that dynamic or prove to be that third force but sometimes you really have to bring that energy to stillness, and stop thinking about it too much because if you won’t stop trying to control your future, then your future will begin to control your mind in the present. So, try to observe stillness of mind. It helps a lot in chaos. Stillness of mind does not mean making it numb, being unable to think through things straight, it actually means thinking straight about what is, and not about what can be and what should be. Some people specifically meditate for it, but according to me, it’s all about your level of understanding and perception. It also enhances your level of self-control and vice-versa.
(-17th Jan, 2020)
Some of us don’t tell what’s wrong with you because, first of all, you are too old for somebody else to be telling you that; secondly, we know you are not going to change or if you do, that will be quite temporary, so, we really don’t like to waste our words on you.
You will move a mile
And think that you ran hundred
When you don’t have a yardstick to measure what you are doing.
People read and study a lot
Not for no reason,
It helps in knowing how much you know
How much you need to imbibe and learn
What you need to eliminate from your mind,
You can think that you have created something exceptional
Until you know that it’s already available, tested and dead;
Reading, studying and learning is so important
It eliminates the IGNORANCE dread.
(Getting the already existing knowledge, it’s opposition to test its veracity and the results that came out and the conclusions drawn is so important. People generally think a lot on their own and then feel that they know a lot, like they have found something exceptional, they keep those ideas with them for years, struggle to make them a reality, only to end up in knowing that the same ideas were carried out in the past and failed miserably. It’s not bad to carry on with the same or similar ideas again as there is still possibility of their success due to changed circumstances but thinking that they surely will end up in success, specially when the independent variables are uncontrollable, those ideas prove to be just utopian views. That’s why knowledge of what worked in the past and what did not is really very important, be it regarding any field or realm.)
Karma said, “I take your intentions and actions, together as well as separately. I take my time. I notice you doing everything, thinking everything. I am neither negative, nor positive. Some people relate my name to a punishment. But I am much better than that. While I have given the worst punishments, I have also given great rewards; I give you what you deserve. You may forget what you do but I will make you realize what you did when the time will be right. Nobody praying for anything to go for or against anyone else in the name of Karma is going to get their desires fulfilled just because they prayed that way, infact I will consider their prayers as their intentions and will put the same kind of vibe in their life, so that they can understand what they did. The person prayed about will get only what they put efforts or thoughts for. I make everyone realize everything and it’s upto them to take the lesson or not. When they learn something from me and let go of the desire to fight against it, I move to other lessons. The thinkers, the doers, in every sense, have to get back what they give to the universe. Even when you die, your soul will get everything back in the future lives. Choose to live wisely. There is no escape from me. Generally, I am neutral, don’t be afraid of me, be afraid of yourself and your deeds, or do everything good and right for yourself and others to love me and yourself.”
The moon bestowed so much beauty to your darkness,
that the sun got burned with jealousy.
I feel so lucky to know you,
I feel I am living only to write about you.
Your eyes make think of the sky,
Far reaching,
Beguiling,
Mesmerizing,
Endless beauty.
Just for once
say that you want me,
I promise,
I’ll leave my own body
if I will have to
For you.
Your love has no beginning,
My love has no end.
I am just fearful that
somebody might be praying
to be with you
more than me.
I am terrified with how much selfless I have become
after falling in love with you,
I am dying each moment
just to see you lively.
I don’t know what twin flame feels like,
but I have never felt before like it feels with you.
If you have planned to leave me,
Promise me
That you will be mine after our reincarnation into the next birth,
and every other birth,
as birds of same feather,
as wolves of the wild,
as shoots of the same roots,
as humans bearing the same child.
I know you were also into me,
maybe not as much as I was,
I know we felt a lot together,
maybe not for ever it was.
When I was in awe of you,
I was in reality in awe of me;
how could I find somebody so lovable,
by loving you I was loving me.
It’s strange that I have become so tolerant with you,
the things I would have thrown out of my life,
the kind of people I could never deal with,
you showed me the same kind of vibe,
I still could not let you go out of my life.
Love is not blind,
It’s our mind that plays the tricks,
seeing the devil playing its cards,
we begin playing with it.
I can’t fall weak,
I have the love
for both of us.
I wish we met a little younger,
maybe the stars would have broken in a different way
and we could end up together
in a beautiful way.
Those who say it’s easy to move on from somebody,
They definitely haven’t met you,
and they undoubtedly haven’t loved like I love you.
Her first and last wish must be to be with you,
Mine is to see you happy,
So unfortunate of me,
your happiness doesn’t reside with me.
If they can create a competition in love,
I hope you choose to lose,
for who would like to win
is not a true lover.
Let’s seek love like the ultimate truth,
once you get to know it
you’ll feel like even your existence is a lie;
Nothing is above and beyond true love.
The first time we met I was afraid
how important you could be to me,
I could see the potential
like something in you was calling to me,
something unknown,
something different,
The second time we met I was afraid no more,
I surrendered to it,
and ever since,
I haven’t found an escape.
No matter what you do to me,
You are somebody I can never call unworthy of love,
In you I see myself,
I can’t love myself enough,
But I can love me,
through you.
Till the end of time,
If I ever have to choose between my love and your happiness,
I will choose your happiness without a doubt.
I have loved before you also,
But never like this.
You call yourself weird,
I find you so easy to understand.
I distanced myself so that you could live better,
I felt like I was being your cage,
our friendship was fettering your spirit,
this distance will set you free
making you run far away from me,
with joy you will squeal,
and even with tears in my eyes
that will be the prettiest sight for me.
I will break into a zillion pieces to keep you whole,
If I can’t do that for thee,
then this love was never meant to be.
Passion never turned into obssession,
Feelings never became chains,
You never became a possession,
This relationship never got measured with gains.
You found out all about me
just to leave me.
Was I that bad or that good?
I wish that the stars break at least once for me,
For me to be one with you,
And this time I will choose that moment to continue forever.
You and I are imperfectly perfect together.
I know you love me
Not as much as I love you
But I know you love me too.
The time our lips met
I felt all of my older wounds healing
You were not only the balm to my wounded soul
You were much much more
You were that elixir that I was yearning for for years.
I did not give up on you,
I was seeing if you would.
You made me feel so free,
that I got bound with you
in that freedom.
And then karma said,
“That one, in the end, suffers,
Who try to separate true lovers.
That one, in the end, feels played,
Because of whom people felt betrayed.
That one, in the end, repents,
Who used others and didn’t consider their sentiments.
That one, in the end, loses,
Who gave a soul bruises.”
I asked Karma who those people are,
Karma said, “I will show,
I won’t tell you though,
In time you will know,
Who played you,
Who betrayed you,
Who was your true friend and who was your foe,
And just in case you won’t know,
I have your back as in life you go.”
I Think For All 