FREE AS FUCK !!

I can only tell how much free I feel now

Free to speak up my mind

Free to act my heart out

Free to love anyone I want to

Free to choose what to make my life about,

Shackled I felt

For a really long time

To soothe someone’s ego

To soothe one’s mind,

Out of respect I did it so wrong

That I cared about one’s selfishness

made my freedom in those shackles grind.

Eating Raw.

That succulent bite will not let you think twice,

Nastily letting your demons unwind,

Whether to savour the moment

Or to choose something healthy for your mind.

Who is to be blamed??

One of my biggest regrets would be to become too damn tough and difficult on the one whom I loved for decades and giving more than enough chances to someone even half of which he never deserved. But it’s all good. I did it for the happiness of both of them. I could not Choose Me at the right time. I chose unconditional love for both. I could not choose somebody who could give me everything on my demand, though I knew he was ready, he was so ready. I thought he was happy with somebody else; probably he was, and still is; I don’t know much.

Now I am unsure if I should say FUCK YOU to the undeservingly loved one or to my overly principled self.

Zapped words.

I hope my silence speaks

Because my words are never enough.

Bound in liberation.

A sigh of relief left my lips

When your lips suckled on my neck

Was it a moment of liberation

Or was it a moment of being bound

I kept on thinking

But found the answer in feelings.

Contradiction.

The higher the ego,

The more it is difficult to love truly.

Self-love.

“Why don’t I get love the way I want it” I asked,

“Because you love yourself more than anyone can” he replied,

And I found a compliment in that that stabbed right in my heart.

Only if you could listen to my heart,

It still beats your name.

You are the only key to my ever locked heart.

I mean this n that. ❤

Let’s do something that may leave me speechless,

And you wanting for more.

THE ONE.

Betwixt the surprises and surmises,

He will be the one who will stand strong with me,

Always and forever,

No matter how life throws dices.