Giving each his due
Making them taste their own medicine
Those forgotten offences reverted back
Feels good sometimes,
Releasing toxic people on a good note
Doesn’t work so well
They come back over n over again
To get the good treatment again
Giving them their due
The old forgotten words said to you by them
The old pending toxic energy given to you
Releasing back at them
Feels great sometimes,
Unearned toxicity from others
Released back at them
Removes indebtedness of it from the past times.
If you have asked yourself many a times, like me,
“Why am I alive??”
Your life has been a hell
But also
Your life is going to be a blessing for others,
Focus on your higher purpose,
You are not made to live for yourself only,
You will get a good answer to the WHY some day.
They fear change
I fear status quo,
Imagine anyone had a choice not to grow.
I was used to choosing my battles very wisely,
Till the time people began to take my silence, humility n modesty for me as a fool,
Now I feel like running all over those battles and those people
Ending them completely useless n worthless
Till I collect my cool.
Flustered by feelings
I kept searching for something to calm down my reelings,
But all in vain
They kept on peaking it to the highest range
Letting it never to end
It had no sealing
But then I found
What I was searching for
was within me
Always in me.
My sense of independence is my biggest fetter
I rebel where most people won’t
And cooperate where most people don’t
Because I want something different
Different from what they know n what they are used to
I want something unexplored
Where they will never let me go n do what I intend to do
So I stay away
Pushing everyone away
Because I want to breath, think, feel and do everything freely
As you can’t control air
And if you do it turns into a storm
I do the same
And break every chain to stay free
But my sense of freedom fetters me
It doesn’t let me come close to anyone
Bcz I don’t want to be controlled with their judgements
I just want to live n love freely.
They took the skin of those who shed it long ago,
They gulped the venom of those who spitted it on the ground,
They did not even have the filth of their own
Just emptiness
Mere void
That they could fill with every iota of rubbish they could collect
And when it became very sluggish for them to move with that burden
Their vertebrae made them dance on the tunes of those
Whose demons could drive them crazy with a loud pitch of a certain tune
They felt dizzy,
so much in haze
That they could not recognize who they were and are anymore
They kept on dancing to those tunes
Until they needed to shed that borrowed skin
And gulp that vemon they were so desperately trying to spit at somebody else,
Those were the snakes,
Unseen
Unheard
Unknown
Until they began break dancing and finally breaking their own fragile structures,
Ending up into nothing
Just vanishing from the sight
Like they never existed
And that was true
They never had any existence worthwhile,
Charmed by anything
And rotten by themselves,
This was their life
And only this was their destiny that could be true.
I used to think that maybe my love will be enough for ‘us’ two
But then you tore me down, my core on love so badly
and my belief that I am worthy of being loved
That now even if somebody will give me everything
And say a million times that he loves me
I’d still doubt if I am actually being loved
Or am I just a temporary thing.
I hope my silence speaks
Because my words are never enough.
Let’s do something that may leave me speechless,
And you wanting for more.
