Honestly, I am more disappointed with myself rather than disappointed with him for taking him as having good intentions at last, despite knowing the reality of his character for years.
Some dynamics stay the same,
Don’t blame the events,
When energy can be nothing but the same,
Forgiveness is a good virtue
Not for those having no sense of accountability
Or who just like to slip away
without any apology
They are toxic
No matter if you wanted to keep them close
Or if you did let them stay away.
It’s good to be co-operative,
But not that much that you turn your back towards your enemies or haters as an invitation to them to stab you,
Even if it’s just a filthy talk,
You never know who hates you and for what reasons,
thus once you notice any red flag,
I hope you don’t try to turn it into a white flag of peace,
Or try to be a dove in front of a hawk.
I know how jealous you are subliminally of the way my mind works,
It’s not the first time I have noticed it,
It’s since the time we started talking,
You always try to attack my
Intellect, intelligence and level of introspection,
Dude, what problem do you have??
Why so fucking jealous??
I have tried to ignore this ‘N’ number of times by now,
But you seem to never stop.
Your opinions about me depend on your mood,
When you observe me doing anything according to your liking
You judge me and articulate good stuff about me to others,
When things go against you
I am a dull person, unremarkable, bookish massiah and even bully..
Why the fuck don’t you get treated
About your own fakeness, manipulation, narcissism and stupidity??
I used to take you as a blessing years ago,
But you are a bloody curse on my life,
You show yourself as a helper, guide and well-wisher,
But it all depends on your own emotions, what you want to show others, and what you want to take from me,
By being a fake influencer in my life,
Just to control me.
Right from the beginning your motto has been
“I can handle you.”
“I know everything about you.”
Nope,
You still know nothing about me,
And it’s impossible for somebody like you to handle me.
Even if you try to fake help me,
Know that I don’t need it from you and never will do,
Because whenever you do something, it ends up in my disadvantage,
I try not to hate you but you bring me to this point every single time,
Why don’t you get lost completely from my life??
I so want it
And I so mean it.
The misery you feel in your own mind,
Subliminally you want to see it in my life,
So that you can be that fake sympathetic massiah who took me from the filth and raised me into something I could not have imagined.
Dude, stop that crap.
I am and will always be incharge of my life.
Take that you cannot manipulate me,
Though you have manipulated a lot around me,
Not anymore.
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