If my tears ever mattered,
You wouldn’t have let me cry,
If my smile ever mattered,
you would be here,
If my happiness ever mattered,
You wouldn’t have acted ignorant,
If I ever mattered,
You wouldn’t have left.
(Written in 2018 published on 6th sept, 2020)
She stopped believing in miracles long ago,
Even if you will feel like one
She will pass by
Abruptly taking you as an illusion
In an attempt to escape
the possibility of her fears
mirrored by you.
When you pick yourself up
also remember to lose everyone who can bring you down,
You have seen good in people more than they deserved,
You have seen bad in life more than you deserved,
Maybe you have to learn how to make people meet at your own level
although doing it by being rudely stern,
Maybe the standards you have created about your own behaviour
is all they have to see and learn.
I don’t know twin flames and soulmates anymore,
I want a love in human form, raw and pure,
Souls gravitate towards each other for sure,
But what they are meant to teach remains obscure,
The time we reach a point of learning a lesson,
Our mind fills with a lot of abrasion,
Those abrasions can’t be undone but can be subdued,
Those lessons can be learnt even whilst the confidence you exude.
The problem is not the confidence here,
The problem is the lack of love,
be pardoned not any to spare,
when the jar of self-love is not filled,
How can in loving any other one be skilled.
Self soul searching is the root of being aware,
Anything comes after this in the life’s stair.
The one who never came,
Beseeched my soul.
With a few unasked questions,
He thought he never made a foul.
I needed freedom,
Freedom, with him, to be bound.
An unquenched thirst,
Whose elixir I haven’t found.
You left me like I didn’t matter!!
You miss me like I do??
Whatever is confusing me,
is only because of you !!
You made me love, you made me wonder,
You made me shiver, like you were a thunder..!
You loved, you kissed
and then, you left me and missed !!
I tried and cried,
I gulped all my ego and pride !
You made me yours and then left me on my own,
and now you think you don’t deserve any frown??
My feelings were only for you,
but they are no more;
because you treated me
like a yet another score !!
I couldn’t lose you,
but I lost..
That feeling that you gave me,
made me frost !!
Only thing now I feel I have lost is,
to know how to trust..
Still, I have faith in love
and that I must !!
I Think For All 