Righteous anger.

When my goodness is not acknowledged

Rather toxicity is made to look like it won

My anger explodes in ways

I am not very proud of

And which can make an onlooker shun.

Convincing my mind- Speaking Up.

A lot of the times, I have to make my own mind convinced that those who have not studied Law, don’t get the Principle of Things as much as those who have studied it, and those who have not studied psychology really cannot understand the tactics of manipulation, realness and worn mask for Image Maintenance; And those who have studied both, really know the means and effects of PROVOCATION.

So yeah, people can Bitch about me behind my back, take the wrong side all the time or be toxic to me despite me suffering the dirty mind games of someone else, Still, in the end, I find contentment in that my Character is much much stronger than anyone’s fake image.

Anyone who has studied n has experience in both of these can straight up tell the difference.

And, coming onto social and peer pressure, I am an acer at standing alone and against the crowd who doesn’t get the principle of things.

If even after me suffering from mental turmoil and offended boundaries and being Provoked continuously, anyone is going to call me Toxic for reacting to the Shit a Bitch was throwing at me, those who Bitch behind my Back are also the same Toxic Bitches, they never know better and are only happy in their own Delusioned Little World of Fake Ass Shit !!

Nevermind ! I know how to handle such Bitches who first waste my time and energy and then ACT like the Goody-Good to gain validation and sympathy only, when I try to return their Trash Energy. ALAS ! returning that toxic shit is too Taxing on my mental n physical health. I am sure that such a Bitch has nothing important to do in her life, but My Every Single Minute Is Valuable as only I know what it entails to me.

(Original posting date: 20th april,2021)

Loud is mostly a reaction, real abuse and provocation is mostly secret, silent, and in the cues..

OFFENSIVE AND DRAINING NARCISSISTIC, INEFFICIENT AND TOXIC WOMAN.

I have Ideas, Stamina and Courage in Abundance,

But toxicity of a narcissistic crap drains me like nothing else and is intolerable.

(I had made the video of my digital artwork and had uploaded it on my youtube channel today morning, and one reels on instagram in the evening of a different artwork, THE IDEA which has been DIRECTLY COPIED by a Toxic Woman. You may think that I am complaining, and yes, I am, and it is because IDEAS ARE PRECIOUS. Ideas make patents and copyrights. MY IDEAS BEING STOLEN, that too, in ARTWORK, which is considered A Unique Area, is outrightly OFFENSIVE. That woman, Kritika, wants to Offend many of my Boundaries, that too, to annoy me and seem like a Better One Subliminally. But, ENCROACHING UPON MY IDEAS IS OUTRIGHTLY AN OFFENCE. I Could Use Filthy Words As Well But That Woman And Her Mind Is A PURE FILTH On Its Own, No Matter How Much She Fakes Her Behaviour, Her Disgusting Mentality Is Quite Obvious To Those Whose Boundaries She offends And To Those Who Can Observe Objectively.)

DIGITAL PAINTING VIDEO ON YOUTUBE

INSTAGRAM REELS LINK

These two are the proofs that I did it first and the ideas have been stolen somehow.

Who is toxic and victim player??

AND ON THE TOP OF IT, if you complain or expose them, they say that you have been playing the victim and are the toxic one because you have created a scene and have been talking shit.

Here, you are not ‘playing the victim‘, YOU ARE THE REAL VICTIM which a NARCISSIST WOULD NEVER ADMIT TO.

The SHIT you are talking about is actually THE SHIT THE NARCISSIST IS AND THE SHIT THE NARCISSIST DID TO YOU.

The TOXIC ONE is the NARCISSIST who did that toxic shit to you sneakily and you just talked about the TOXICITY. Talking about toxicity does not make anyone toxic.

Last but not the least, when you bring out about the toxicity of a narcissist to others, you are bound to be called the toxic one and the victim player and the negative, crazy one. But remember this thing, a narcissist will always be the last one to look crazy. It’s always the victim who looks crazy but actually it’s the narcissist who is doing everything crazy behind the scene. AND when you look crazy to everyone, the narcissist will behave like the victim telling everyone that you have always been toxic because now he knows that everyone has seen your crazy side and nobody has seen his toxic side, and thus it’s very easy for him to actually play the victim.

ILLUSTRATION: think about a criminal who did hurt or committed grievous hurt to someone and started calling the victim a criminal who is playing the victim just because the victim complained about the criminal and is angry and crying and exposing him in front of everyone.

Now, take that criminal in the civil settings and the hurt or grievous hurt as the psychological one. YES ! NARCISSISTS ARE PSYCHOLOGICAL CRIMINALS SOME OF WHOM ACTUALLY ARE ALSO THE REAL CRIMINALS WHO HAVEN’T GOTTEN CAUGHT YET.

Makes any sense??

Some people are really funny and stupid to me, and will be so to any normal person. They run towards someone who doesn’t give a fuck to them to make someone jealous who already never gives a fuck to them.

Law of attraction in summation.

You attract your own energy, nothing from the outside. If you do not know your worth, you attract people who consider you worthless. If you do not want something to work for you, you won’t get it. If you have some traits in your subconscious mind for a partner, every other kind of person will be repelled/removed from your life sooner or later. If you want to change yourself, you have to visualize that change in you. If you want to become something, you have to believe it in your whole being. That’s all law of attraction is. You attract your energy, your thoughts, your vibes, your aura to you.
Now, a few of you may think “I am a healer. Usually toxic people get attracted to me. I don’t think this is how law of attraction works. I never wanted that.”
My answer is your innate nature is that of a healer and toxic people need spiritual healing and your mind subconsciously desires somebody to heal, so, toxic people get attracted to you unknowingly. But you can save yourself by creating boundaries n by directing your energy to be more specific to heal yourself first or the innocent victims of toxic abusers or nobody at all particularly and by only teaching people how to heal themselves.

A price to pay to make believe.

“Being bruised by the nectar of love-

Is it possible??”

“I will make everything possible for you.”

That was their love. He could do anything for her, even hurt her, if she could not believe in that possibility. He wanted to make believe.

Filthy fake freaks.

Those who love to see you on your lowest

If you are not with them

And at your best

Only if you are with them

Are a few of the worst creatures born on earth,

They fake goodness when a third person is observing or is involved

Otherwise it’s just filth from them being shed upon you that you can sense,

And it continues every time you reject them for their fakeness.

Stay in your LA LA LAND..

You will mostly find me as the last person leaving a weak or toxic person or relationship. It is not because I am a co-dependent or needy, it’s because I am quite strong mentally to live on my own and much more accepting of other people’s weaknesses, specially when I begin to relate to somebody quite closely. It is out of pure or unconditional love, but slowly and gradually I begin to realize that the same person begins to take me as a fool, that I do not get to see what that person is doing. The truth is that I actually cannot see what wrong is happening because I have other better things to do than wasting my energy in Trying to Know the activities of the other person; believe it or not, I am too busy and uninterested in that kind of shit (stalking) but my intuition guides me when something wrong is happening and then I get the clues as well.

Moreover, they never think twice before leaving, but when I am in a good place and everybody leaves them, then they expect me to stay?? Because why not, a good hearted person can always be expected to stay and be taken for granted. And when such foolish people become sure of me staying, they tend to give that secure energy to others who would not assure them of even half of me but surely will give such a person a glimpse of the La La Land which does not exist or will never exist.

Sad enough, some people take the realest people for granted for something that would vanish at the slightest hint of hardship, even after getting the proof of the same as an experience.