This is what happens when you don’t have a single book or any study material for a couple of your exams. 😢😭
PS- If you write a very good 15 marks answer about a political party (INC) in India which is not in rule or is not the favourite one of the examiner, you may get very bad marks in that paper. I genuinely felt so in that PPI (Political parties and electoral politics in India) paper because my paper was pretty well-written and the marks given were shocking to me to a good extent.
I tell you one thing about kindness and why I cannot forgive Intentional Faults in behaviour. Mistake done once is okay to me, I do not even pay much heed to it and ignore it like nothing happened, but, if the same thing is done twice, then it’s a choice, and when you have made a choice to be a defaulter/culprit, you cannot be forgiven because your intention is to commit that act which offends my boundaries- psychological, social or physical.
In law, the culprit deserves and is punished after the conviction is proved. Apologies become meaningless after that because the damage has been done to the victim and the situation cannot be reverted back to its original position. Motives do not matter in convictions, the act done and the intention to do that act are enough to prove the commitment of the crime.
Anyone may say that they did something wrong to me because of this/that. Here, I rarely consider the WHYs because the first time, I can go into the ‘why’ of something done to me because I really want to understand the psychological reason behind it, but the second time the ‘why’ becomes useless and the apologies become meaningless, and thus, forgiving becomes almost impossible, as the second time it is someone’s choice to offend me and/or my boundaries.
I am describing this because many people don’t get it why I am so unforgiving. I apply law, science, and psychology in every single thing. People usually don’t get where I come from.
Also, if I am kind, it does not mean that I am and I have allowed anyone to be informal in interactions with me. Kindness and informal behaviour are completely two different things. I am usually kind and formal. Being informal with anyone takes me a lot of time and interactions. This is how I am since my very childhood. You can stay assured that I have been informal with, at most, about 5-6 people (apart from my family members) in my entire life. Kindly respect that as it’s one of my boundaries i.e. not being informal with anyone without a conscious decision on the part of both the parties i.e. me and the other person.
These two virtues are very core of my personality that others usually find confusing and difficult to understand or deal with, and I hope that many things are clear now.