Experiencing Indirect Rumours and Gaslighting.

Rumours– We all are well aware of. But, I want to describe Indirect Rumours. When someone or some people try to make other people believe that something is/was said or done by you by adopting your behaviour style or communication style i.e. significantly becoming an imposter, yet not impersonating your identity as to name or photographs etc., they cause of Indirect Rumours.

The motive and intention is fraudulent. The imposter wants other people to think that all the psychopathic words and acts which that imposter does are being said and done by you. And if the people who are intended to be influenced into thinking that it’s you who is doing all the fraudulent and/or psychopathic deeds, get influenced thereby, against you, then the fraudulent imposter’s psychopathic acts keep on increasing as to scope of trying to affect your near and dear ones, over a long period of time, but with breaks in between, so that they may be indirectly rumoured into straining your character. It is done to affect those who know your style and behaviour and definitely are your known ones in any capacity like family, tertiary kins, former or current acquaintances, online links, etc.

The fraudster or imposter shows insane, aggressive and/or filthy behaviour through words most of the times, and the idea is to make your known ones believe the false information about you as true, which is given by that fraudulent imposter, indirectly throught social media. It doesn’t come under the category of libel and slander as your name is not taken or mentioned openly but your character is intended to seem like a pathological one.

You may think that it’s not a big deal, specially when it happens online. BUT let me beware you, it can be quite dangerous for you, as your relationships with other people may get strained, your character may be assassinated, and in case it’s only you who can figure out what wrong is going on, you may fall into acute stress and/or depression or may become psychologically dysfunctional in the long run AND The intention and aim of such psychopathic imposter is just that..

Personal Experience: This happens with me a lot often and the time I talk about it openly to expose that psychopath, the source from where this kind of psychopathic acts are done, is made to look and sound normal, so that the other people, who are known to me, may think that I over-react. This is an acute form of Gaslighting, which I am actually going through since last few years. It has taken criminal stance as well. Once I also reported it to the police but then took back the complaint for personal reasons. Now-a-days, I tend to ignore and block the sources from where the imposter tries to spread ‘indirect rumours’ about me, But, some day I will definitely take solid action. I can clearly point out at the sources from which this mental and social abuse is happening. So, it won’t take me or the police much to gather all the proofs.

It’s all fun and games until someone drags you to court and you are going downhill after that and end up in jail for years, lonely, going mad, with your own pathological filthy mind, being the biggest burden on yourself rather than a burden on innocent people.

Switched off intuition and confused myself..

I tried to switch off intuition

and now I am all perplexed,

I do feel the things in a certain way

trying to grasp the ‘why’s of everything,

Even while moving through the ruffled waters

I know where I am going

my intuition guides me my lane,

Now when I have switched it off I am feeling so low,

Feeling things, not vibes, in a confused way,

I don’t know what’s going where, like I am driving myself insane.

I think I turned against the nature,

Putting off something that makes the basic me,

That’s why the nature is punishing me,

The need is not to not feel things I am getting this now,

The need is to feel and be guided by my intuition and still be rational somehow.

(First published on 9th Jan, 2020)

(Not) A Secret..

A deep long kiss

From my love,

Back caress,

This is the only way sometimes

The cure for my anxiety n stress.

Their completely unreasonable behaviour making me feel helpless-Family Frustration.

Do you ever feel completely annoyed and helpless because of your own family?? What if anything if ever you ask them to do is take care of themselves properly?? If one of them is unwell, that one does not allow you, (I mean it, DOES NOT ALLOW YOU) to take care of them, although you know they are unwell because they appear to be so and they themselves tell you that.

They do not change their ways. They will do Completely unnecessary physical work like going to the park at the noon time when it’s quite dry n hot weather, although they may have been going through dehydration. They do not eat properly, nor take nutrition supplements, and say that it’s hard for them to eat as their stomach(digestive system) is not allowing them to eat anything, AND still do not seek medical help from any good doctor. They do not drink water properly. They do not take proper rest staying at home, NOPE, staying at home is a big issue for them, no matter how caring you become or how lovingly you tell them to take proper rest and nutrition.

It is stubborn AF behaviour. They do not consider your life at all. They do not even think once how much stress it gives you, probably to the point of severe depression after which you just become occupied mentally with their well-being only, and cannot do what you need to do about your own life, although they do the dramebaazi all the time that they love you. I don’t think that they love you at all, all they seek is they be considered an unsung hero who lost their life for you, loving you only immensely and never cared about their own health, despite the fact that it’s you who has always been concerned about their health and take care of yourself properly so that they do not have to go through any such mental pressure or depression.

Upon confrontation what they say is “do not care about me”. You think that it is possible that whom you love, you would not care about them or their health?? Can you think how much heaviness you feel mentally because of such ignorant and immature behaviour?? I cannot describe enough how much helpless you can feel in such a situation when they create a whole bunch of problems and mental anxiety and depression in you which would not have happened just in case they would take care of themselves like a Normal Person does because really, they do not even have any physical incurable ailment. It’s all because of their fucking reckless behaviour that they spoil their life and yours as well.

What if they have been specially warned to take care of themselves by an astrologer because their time is not right whole of the year and you are concerned and extra cautious for that as well??

Despite that, they will still give no fuck or change their habits or behaviour even a bit.

Why?? Most probably because they have nothing good to do in life rather than creating a mess out of completely controllable circumstances. Is it too much to ask someone to take care of their health properly or let you take care of it?? I don’t care if you agree to me or not, but it is a form of Mental Cruelty.

Know the real deal.

It’s good to be co-operative,

But not that much that you turn your back towards your enemies or haters as an invitation to them to stab you,

Even if it’s just a filthy talk,

You never know who hates you and for what reasons,

thus once you notice any red flag,

I hope you don’t try to turn it into a white flag of peace,

Or try to be a dove in front of a hawk.

Self-evaluate your reactions.

If anybody got offended by my last post, it only means that either they were finding pleasure and validation in my pain, which by any means is toxic, or they are over-analysing what I write. In both the cases, they need to find their mental balance and stop being overly reactionary.

The above-mentioned post.

PS- I am not giving any explanation about my behaviour here as I do not owe it to anyone for what I write. I am just trying to reflect on people’s reactivity so that they can heal on their own by self-evaluation.

Life of majority.

Life feels strange.

Really strange…

I have not found it any other way;

Where you succumb to the daily hassles

Waking up every morning

Not knowing why you did so,

You become a magnet to robotic tasks,

Doing every single thing,

That you are supposed to do,

Be it expected by society or you.

You think that who do nothing

Are just useless n meaningless,

But do you realize that those same people

Are just doing what they want

And are not being played like you in a worldly mess?

Life is an opportunity for a few

Whose death they feel is nearing

What you do daily?

Just wasting it doing stuff

others find endearing?

You just waste it

Thinking that you have got eternity here

Living a meaningless life

Leaving everything you want to do

While in a wrong direction streering.

Internal conflict.

A part of me feels guilty for being this much privileged,

A part of me really grateful for the same,

A part of me wants to be of immense service to others,

A part of me too emotional

In search of love fulfilment,

digging all the parts’ grave.

Misuse of concepts to others’ disadvantage.

Education and reading is crucial for one’s growth, there is no doubt in that. But what is more important in taking education is one’s intellect, level of understanding, and sensibility. If these three virtues are not developed enough, education or knowledge is bound to be misused.

For example, somebody told me a couple of days ago, “where the focus goes, energy flows” while keeping me under the veil of his identity. The statement was sounding really out of context and used cunningly to misguide, because WHERE THE INFORMATION RESIDES(i.e. from where the stimuli is released), THE FOCUS GOES THERE if that information is near to somebody in time and space. The FOCUS in such a proximity, that too, imposed proximity, is bound to go there first of all, and it happens because of the Fight or Flight mode activated instantly when a person feels something wrong is happening. So, it is immaterial where the focus is going when one is being given wrong cues to specifically drive one’s focus in that direction by using the language to which one is well acquainted and which is bound to drive the focus to a particular person. NOT SO WELL ARTICULATED THAT CONCEPT, MY DEAR, NOT SO WELL ARTICULATED. I find it very bad on somebody’s part when he/she uses any quote or concept to his/her advantage and to other’s disadvantage without even understanding that concept in its details or as a whole. People should go more in depth of concept and if they won’t, others will use those concepts against them.

Only reading the concepts and memorising them is not sufficient, if one is going to use them wrongly to confuse other people, GRASPING the True Meaning of Concepts is more important and only when one understands that meaning, one can apply it practically.

THE BLISS

Hither and thither

Placing anything anywhere

Sprinkling sparkles on the ashes of what’s ruined

They think that they have achieved a blissful state

‘The bliss of ignorance.’

Digging deeper into what is unknown

Bolting the door shut to external screams

The peace that was always within me

I have found that bliss

‘The bliss of peace.’

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