Experience against a psychopath.

If a psychopath has a crush on me, I am not the problem at all.

Psychopaths do have unattainable goals be it any person; it aggrandizes their fragile ego in case they succeed in getting that person and to get that high/reach that peak, they keep chasing that person hiding the agenda from everyone and even using their own so-called friends without even letting them know and those poor fellows innocently do everything on the whims of that psychopath.

I have strong intuition. Most of the times, as I have judged anyone, it has proved to be true with time and sometimes it has begun being obvious to others as well. So, definitely, my mind works really well, it’s only an envious psychopath who tries to twist things about n around me so that others find me as the problematic one.

Stance with a third party in my so-called relationships.

Some women (the other party in case of a guy) be always thinking that they be winning in getting him, being completely oblivious to the fact that how relieving it has always been to me to get rid of such a nasty burden from my life. I have never competed with any such woman. I never compete in and for relationships. “The guy who is a psychopath, makes you feel once in a while like he gave himself (as a Trophy) to you, in a competition created by him, so that he can take advantage of you and the reason here is that he knows how weak you are mentally and how much you need validation even from a piece of shit like him. Thus, he keeps you tied to his little finger, pushing you n pulling your emotional strings, whenever he desires as he knows how weak you are who can dance to a tunes of his stupidity, over-cleverness n psychopathy. I may be exasperated for the fact that he be still hovering in my life directly or indirectly to influence my mind, either trying to connect back to me or just to get some attention (if not positive, then negative) or to spoil my life in any way so that he can win in his self-created one-sided competition. That exasperation which is actually due to the reason that he doesn’t get out of my life is portrayed to you that I want him but he is coming back to you, to make you look like the winner all the while thinking that you are a bloody foolish woman who is dancing to his whims n caprices or he may make you feel like his Queen/wife/love only for a short time (a very short time) until he gets another woman target or gets one back from the past who left him.”

Something constant.

I don’t need reasons to be happy, I need reasons to be sad or depressed and I never go on looking for those reasons. That’s why I avoid most people. I am a happy, productive and entertaining person basically but outside energy always (and I really mean ALWAYS) become a block or a shadow over my positive n optimistic personality, and then I cannot get rid of it for weeks or months. I have traumas that I still haven’t talked about to a single person on earth (literally nobody even if a few of you know many of my secrets, still there are some things I never tell anyone; neither family, or bestest of friends in the past or even a therapist) but I know really well how to give it my all to my future rather than sulking in the past. Attachments happen but I can easily get rid of it, basically being a detached person. Failures happen but I usually have 2-3 more plans after that. My life flows generally as I expect it to. But outside energy always happens to be a block or a shadow over my positives. If I keep any person away, he/she has directly or indirectly added blocks in my life. Why would anyone think that I’d like to invite the same kind of energy in my life again??? I really am not interested in Jumping in the mud or letting people throw it at me and then waste my time n energy in cleaning myself of it whereas the best option always is to look at it, ignore and avoid it and move forward. I don’t know how other people’s mind work, but if they don’t get this basic thing, then it’s completely their problem. I want to keep somebody close who can be equally positive, clear-minded and productive, provided I have not seen the otherwise in them in the past, although everybody can change into the former kind but probability is uncertain to me, and I avoid uncertainty now. I don’t want somebody to give me anything or to add anything to my life, be it happiness or love or anything materialistic. I just want AN EQUAL who knows how to take care of himself, can be happy on his own, manage well his possessions, be productive most of the time, love by heart n soul, has got rid of his past traumas or wounds and related defence mechanisms (although more or less those defences always stay there but it can be dealt with sensibly) and is very clear about what he wants from me, from himself, his career n life in general, so that we can thrive together rather than any of us being a burden on the other. PURE PARTNERSHIP, NEITHER OWNERSHIP NOR PARENT-CHILD DYNAMIC.