If you have asked yourself many a times, like me,
“Why am I alive??”
Your life has been a hell
But also
Your life is going to be a blessing for others,
Focus on your higher purpose,
You are not made to live for yourself only,
You will get a good answer to the WHY some day.
They fear change
I fear status quo,
Imagine anyone had a choice not to grow.
I was used to choosing my battles very wisely,
Till the time people began to take my silence, humility n modesty for me as a fool,
Now I feel like running all over those battles and those people
Ending them completely useless n worthless
Till I collect my cool.
Flustered by feelings
I kept searching for something to calm down my reelings,
But all in vain
They kept on peaking it to the highest range
Letting it never to end
It had no sealing
But then I found
What I was searching for
was within me
Always in me.
My sense of independence is my biggest fetter
I rebel where most people won’t
And cooperate where most people don’t
Because I want something different
Different from what they know n what they are used to
I want something unexplored
Where they will never let me go n do what I intend to do
So I stay away
Pushing everyone away
Because I want to breath, think, feel and do everything freely
As you can’t control air
And if you do it turns into a storm
I do the same
And break every chain to stay free
But my sense of freedom fetters me
It doesn’t let me come close to anyone
Bcz I don’t want to be controlled with their judgements
I just want to live n love freely.
I can only tell how much free I feel now
Free to speak up my mind
Free to act my heart out
Free to love anyone I want to
Free to choose what to make my life about,
Shackled I felt
For a really long time
To soothe someone’s ego
To soothe one’s mind,
Out of respect I did it so wrong
That I cared about one’s selfishness
made my freedom in those shackles grind.
I hope my silence speaks
Because my words are never enough.
If you cannot understand me,
Just know how difficult it is to be
For a flower to live with fire within
That is it,
This is me,
I know I have, to grow, a room;
And I know in my heart,
That the fiery one can be one with me
Like we are an inseparable whole,
But for the time being I need somebody
Who has the nature like water
That can only make me bloom.
