Strength..

I loved myself through bits n pieces

Collected a tsunami of emotions in a tear-drop,

Shed it in a fraction of a second

And stood tall holding myself together, having within, a ray of hope.

(21st may, 21)

Self-love is more crucial.

Love will drift your mind to new places

Self-love will bring you to those places.

(Written on 2nd dec,2020)

Self-worth..

I used to fit

into the tiniest box

that only had a wrapping paper looking like love,

I take up my whole space now,

the good n bad,

the clean n nasty,

and see who can fill me up with love

like oxygen somehow.

(Written on 30th oct, 2020)

Fitness-Personal Best

I used to like to walk almost 3-4 hours daily, till 2021.. But now I feel that it consumes a lot of time and energy.

Now I just prefer walking for about 20-30 minutes..Usually I do cycling (stationary) for 15-30 minutes at the speed of 20-30 km/h, alongwith brisk walk and I feel good n energetic after that..

I paused the steps counter long ago, otherwise counting steps make me go crazy about beating my own previous best, then my mind doesn’t allow me to focus on other things that I need to do. So, I stay easy-going by not keeping any strict track about exercising now. Also, I give myself leeway for not even getting out of bed for a day or two after about 10-11 days, provided I don’t want to exercise at all on those days..

I am trying to make good habits without beating my ass over them and exercising routine is an important one of them..😀😛 I will share about the strength training routine some other day..

PS- I shared this to boast. Beat my records..🤪😂🤣 (Kidding 🤪)

Sleeping dead 😴

Sleeping dead is self-care,

Just forget the world exists,

Move into your dream n nightmare,

It repairs your wounds

It cleanses your mind

There are other ways as well

But it’s the most natural way to self-care.

(Original publishing date: 31st May,2021)

High..Am I??

The way I beat my own drum,

Makes me seem like I am high on rum.

THE BODY

The legs…which carry your body,The thighs…which support the legs,The waist…which balances the body,The spine…which holds the body,The stomach…which fuels the body,The genitals…which sanitize the body,Ribs and back…which wall the bodyThe chest…which houses the engine of the body – the heart,The hands…which swing and run errands for the body,The neck…which holds the head,The head…which houses eyes, […]

THE BODY

A must read.. Beautifully written message about Self-care.. 🤗💜

Their completely unreasonable behaviour making me feel helpless-Family Frustration.

Do you ever feel completely annoyed and helpless because of your own family?? What if anything if ever you ask them to do is take care of themselves properly?? If one of them is unwell, that one does not allow you, (I mean it, DOES NOT ALLOW YOU) to take care of them, although you know they are unwell because they appear to be so and they themselves tell you that.

They do not change their ways. They will do Completely unnecessary physical work like going to the park at the noon time when it’s quite dry n hot weather, although they may have been going through dehydration. They do not eat properly, nor take nutrition supplements, and say that it’s hard for them to eat as their stomach(digestive system) is not allowing them to eat anything, AND still do not seek medical help from any good doctor. They do not drink water properly. They do not take proper rest staying at home, NOPE, staying at home is a big issue for them, no matter how caring you become or how lovingly you tell them to take proper rest and nutrition.

It is stubborn AF behaviour. They do not consider your life at all. They do not even think once how much stress it gives you, probably to the point of severe depression after which you just become occupied mentally with their well-being only, and cannot do what you need to do about your own life, although they do the dramebaazi all the time that they love you. I don’t think that they love you at all, all they seek is they be considered an unsung hero who lost their life for you, loving you only immensely and never cared about their own health, despite the fact that it’s you who has always been concerned about their health and take care of yourself properly so that they do not have to go through any such mental pressure or depression.

Upon confrontation what they say is “do not care about me”. You think that it is possible that whom you love, you would not care about them or their health?? Can you think how much heaviness you feel mentally because of such ignorant and immature behaviour?? I cannot describe enough how much helpless you can feel in such a situation when they create a whole bunch of problems and mental anxiety and depression in you which would not have happened just in case they would take care of themselves like a Normal Person does because really, they do not even have any physical incurable ailment. It’s all because of their fucking reckless behaviour that they spoil their life and yours as well.

What if they have been specially warned to take care of themselves by an astrologer because their time is not right whole of the year and you are concerned and extra cautious for that as well??

Despite that, they will still give no fuck or change their habits or behaviour even a bit.

Why?? Most probably because they have nothing good to do in life rather than creating a mess out of completely controllable circumstances. Is it too much to ask someone to take care of their health properly or let you take care of it?? I don’t care if you agree to me or not, but it is a form of Mental Cruelty.

Family’s inept love.

I really don’t understand their love for me,

when all they do is

to keep my body confined inside the fours of wall,

and cannot take care of their health properly

When all I want them to do is

To take care of themselves, that’s all.

Adaptation.

Tired AF

I don’t care when I am ill

Mind on the go

Body needs to stay still

Urging to focus on the task

Resting feels like something to swallow the hardest pill.

(Originally Posted on 18th dec, 2020)