Even I don’t know how you’ll deal with me.. I am unfolding those parts of myself that even I didn’t know existed.. I am opening up so much.. It’s like I was always trying to nip in the bud that was meant to bloom.. And honestly, I am loving it.. It’s uneasy as I had never felt like this but this unknown side is feeling blissful.. You never know what may come next as even I don’t know what n how.. I was never like this but I am loving it.. Call it anything but I feel so real n free.. I hope that one day you don’t look back n see what you really missed n lost.. I love my own vibe so much, I wonder how you won’t..
Trying to create cues, signals, synchronicities etc. or trying to know or find them out on purpose by self (i.e. human intervention) or with the help of anyone else just puts you a few step away from the real connections and synchronicities. Some of us are too sensitive to vibes that we get when someone is trying to create signals n when universe is doing it for us. You may stay in your own mind and think that you can do so, but it never hits like the real vibe or signal in the gut like the one truly sent by the universe to us. Some empaths are really psychic and you have to make peace with it. Our psychic abilities may not work for a good amount of time due to brain fog or some unknown reasons, but when it does, we really know what’s happening and when we get to know the reality, it’s impossible to make us believe what is unreal or try to test what reality is. It just happens to us naturally. You may stay with your playing mind but it will play only you in the end. We are saved over and over again by the universe no matter how much human intervention is caused in our connection with the unknown.
It’s always better to let the universe talk to you naturally rather than trying to force things in knowing as well as making others know, you always get to know what you need to know at the right time. Do not confuse yourself.
You will mostly find me as the last person leaving a weak or toxic person or relationship. It is not because I am a co-dependent or needy, it’s because I am quite strong mentally to live on my own and much more accepting of other people’s weaknesses, specially when I begin to relate to somebody quite closely. It is out of pure or unconditional love, but slowly and gradually I begin to realize that the same person begins to take me as a fool, that I do not get to see what that person is doing. The truth is that I actually cannot see what wrong is happening because I have other better things to do than wasting my energy in Trying to Know the activities of the other person; believe it or not, I am too busy and uninterested in that kind of shit (stalking) but my intuition guides me when something wrong is happening and then I get the clues as well.
Moreover, they never think twice before leaving, but when I am in a good place and everybody leaves them, then they expect me to stay?? Because why not, a good hearted person can always be expected to stay and be taken for granted. And when such foolish people become sure of me staying, they tend to give that secure energy to others who would not assure them of even half of me but surely will give such a person a glimpse of the La La Land which does not exist or will never exist.
Sad enough, some people take the realest people for granted for something that would vanish at the slightest hint of hardship, even after getting the proof of the same as an experience.