Even I don’t know how you’ll deal with me.. I am unfolding those parts of myself that even I didn’t know existed.. I am opening up so much.. It’s like I was always trying to nip in the bud that was meant to bloom.. And honestly, I am loving it.. It’s uneasy as I had never felt like this but this unknown side is feeling blissful.. You never know what may come next as even I don’t know what n how.. I was never like this but I am loving it.. Call it anything but I feel so real n free.. I hope that one day you don’t look back n see what you really missed n lost.. I love my own vibe so much, I wonder how you won’t..
Trying to create cues, signals, synchronicities etc. or trying to know or find them out on purpose by self (i.e. human intervention) or with the help of anyone else just puts you a few step away from the real connections and synchronicities. Some of us are too sensitive to vibes that we get when someone is trying to create signals n when universe is doing it for us. You may stay in your own mind and think that you can do so, but it never hits like the real vibe or signal in the gut like the one truly sent by the universe to us. Some empaths are really psychic and you have to make peace with it. Our psychic abilities may not work for a good amount of time due to brain fog or some unknown reasons, but when it does, we really know what’s happening and when we get to know the reality, it’s impossible to make us believe what is unreal or try to test what reality is. It just happens to us naturally. You may stay with your playing mind but it will play only you in the end. We are saved over and over again by the universe no matter how much human intervention is caused in our connection with the unknown.
It’s always better to let the universe talk to you naturally rather than trying to force things in knowing as well as making others know, you always get to know what you need to know at the right time. Do not confuse yourself.
Those who love sun
Don’t wish for the moon,
For the sun gives and gives only
The moon only shines bright
Reflecting the light given by the sun,
I love the real source of light, enlightenment and awakening,
Not that which only imitates
carrying only a fraction
Yet trying to reflect what’s not its own
Only grabbing attention.
(Originally posted on 14,october,2020.. I love all, the sun,the stars and the moon.)
You will mostly find me as the last person leaving a weak or toxic person or relationship. It is not because I am a co-dependent or needy, it’s because I am quite strong mentally to live on my own and much more accepting of other people’s weaknesses, specially when I begin to relate to somebody quite closely. It is out of pure or unconditional love, but slowly and gradually I begin to realize that the same person begins to take me as a fool, that I do not get to see what that person is doing. The truth is that I actually cannot see what wrong is happening because I have other better things to do than wasting my energy in Trying to Know the activities of the other person; believe it or not, I am too busy and uninterested in that kind of shit (stalking) but my intuition guides me when something wrong is happening and then I get the clues as well.
Moreover, they never think twice before leaving, but when I am in a good place and everybody leaves them, then they expect me to stay?? Because why not, a good hearted person can always be expected to stay and be taken for granted. And when such foolish people become sure of me staying, they tend to give that secure energy to others who would not assure them of even half of me but surely will give such a person a glimpse of the La La Land which does not exist or will never exist.
Sad enough, some people take the realest people for granted for something that would vanish at the slightest hint of hardship, even after getting the proof of the same as an experience.
I have seen your five hundred shades of fuckedupness,
But I am sure you have five thousand more,
I’d love to seize the opportunity to know,
Not just for the sake of knowing
But for removing anything about you
From my mind that’s obscure;
Believe me, I don’t want to take your burdens,
I have many of my own,
I just want to uncage you
From the bounds of your own mind,
I want to bury the seeds of love,
Water them with care
So that we can reap the eternal love that is sown.
That one tip tracing my every nerve
Pushing me closer to the heaven
Leaving a trail
Making a map,
Of his desire
Over my flushed skin
And ruling my mind
Leaving between us
Your furious tongue slithering though my neck,
From here to there,
Touching me at places
Was burning my desire like hell,
Peaking my arousal
Rushing the adrenaline through my veins
Making me feel lost
Under your sensual spell.
I cannot explain this enough
how much I hate to be defensive
And explain my actions
As well as inaction..
But keep it to yourself;
This is for whosoever
I came or will come into interaction;
I owe nobody any explanation
For what I do
Or feel the need to show it off,
Although I may do it in fraction,
But I do everything to my standards’ satisfaction,
I steer my life in my own way,
I know what I did, doing and will do,
I don’t need from anybody else a single direction.
Can you feel the vibes of souls??
Can you tell the difference between evil and angelic departed ones??
I can feel the difference.
I just cannot reach out to them (the good ones).
The bad ones are eerie AF and try to make you afraid with knocking and tapping the things around or it’s just sound created (I don’t know) whereas the good ones can make you smell the scent n music (such a good scent that you have never smelt, you will definitely know) while nothing as such(any frangrant or musical thing) is physically present, also they are calm and make you sleep as well and will never try to feel afraid, they have such a soothing effect on you.
If I talk about their visibility, they cannot be seen easily (of course), but just in case once in a lifetime you get to see both the types, which will happen only for a minute(tiny) fraction of a second, it’s more like the evil ones are rusty n bloody red in colour, have no facial features, you get creeped up instantly, they are so ugly, whereas you may see only a white hue cloud like entity when it’s a good soul. (Talking from experience)
If any of these kinds creep you up, then don’t think about them much as we attract what we think. It’s a real thing. I do not have hallucinations, it’s more like once or twice in a lifetime experience.