Do I describe or do I demean?

The reason why I call some things like exercising BASIC? It is called so because it is basic. I used to exercise a lot daily apart from doing other PRODUCTIVE things and earning money and studying. The screenshot above from the last year is just for the example. I used to do a lot of strength training as well like tricep extentions 100 reps with 2 kg dumbell with each arm, 500 tummy twists, 20 planks, 30 squats, 200 arms rotations etc. each in one set every day, apart from cycling 2-3 hours or walking for at least 10,000 steps.

I talk about things and categorise according to My Level of doing things. So, if any insecure person thinks that I do it to demean, it’s that person’s problem and manipulation to show other people that I am the toxic one whereas hiding that person’s own toxicity n manipulation. When I want to DEMEAN AS A REACTION or keep one in one’s place, I do it very openly, exposing myself to open criticism and innuendos of a psychopath narc n flying monkeys.

So keep in mind that what I say is about me n if a psychopath wants to copy and/or compare to provoke me, the reaction will be there. Not always though, because I usually consider such dummies DEAD. The narc who provokes me secretly, do it so to get those reactions or wants to be compared all the time and FAILS in being the better one, then goes on to get some SYMPATHY from others. It’s like either GODLY or POOR VICTIM.

I describe myself authentically be it in anger, love, or any other emotion. I am not fond of being FAKE n HYPOCRITE, nor I can keep such people around nor people who associate with a FAKE n HYPOCRITE.

Righteous anger.

When my goodness is not acknowledged

Rather toxicity is made to look like it won

My anger explodes in ways

I am not very proud of

And which can make an onlooker shun.

😜

What would you do if you had no inhibitions??

DO THAT !!

May get imprisoned later on,

But

DO THAT !!

Quote- Unnecessary Causes.

Everything has a cause,

And we don’t need to find every single cause.

:)

“At the least, he doesn’t hate me” says a lot about your past experiences with psychopaths, the pain that you felt and the self-worth that you lowered due to them.

Know the real deal.

It’s good to be co-operative,

But not that much that you turn your back towards your enemies or haters as an invitation to them to stab you,

Even if it’s just a filthy talk,

You never know who hates you and for what reasons,

thus once you notice any red flag,

I hope you don’t try to turn it into a white flag of peace,

Or try to be a dove in front of a hawk.

Self-evaluate your reactions.

If anybody got offended by my last post, it only means that either they were finding pleasure and validation in my pain, which by any means is toxic, or they are over-analysing what I write. In both the cases, they need to find their mental balance and stop being overly reactionary.

The above-mentioned post.

PS- I am not giving any explanation about my behaviour here as I do not owe it to anyone for what I write. I am just trying to reflect on people’s reactivity so that they can heal on their own by self-evaluation.

Lightened off..

Not knowing

what’s on going

I know life wants me to keep enjoying

Every feeling

Every impulse I gain

Not wanting me to numb down

Needing me to love everything

Like, love, loss and pain

Stigmatic as I could be

About being so psychic

I know nothing like intuition now-a-days

Feeling free from that heavy load

I am stunned with the sensory relief

Though I am feeling everything

I am unburdened of intuitive grief.

Karmic lessons.

The truth is that Karma does not see how you try to sneak away as a little naughty kid, it holds you tight for the wrongs you did with an adult daviant mind. If you have ever knowingly took away something belonging to someone else, something with similar importance to you will be taken away from you. Never have a doubt about it. Karma is the ultimate truth. Your immaturity is not innocense. Being mature and trying one’s best not to hurt anyone or take advantage of others or take anything not earned with genuine efforts, be it something materistic as possessions or abstract as love, feelings or emotions, is not that difficult when you are internally a good person. When you have a deviant mind, though subconsciously, you will find it hard to do the right things and will do anything your lower conscious self urges you to do and when you will do it, you’d like to get away with it like nothing wrong happened, because you do not have a good sense of Accountability; but no matter how immature (or innocent as you’d like to call yourself) or ignorant you are, you always have to pay for your malicious intentions and actions (separately as well as combined). Also, Karma takes into account your actions as well as reactions. How you react to an action in a given circumstance in a particular context is how you will receive the reaction when you tend to act in similar circumstances and context. This goes for feelings and emotions as well. It’s like karma is that force that keeps you in a loop unless you decide to act or react differently. The change lies in you. If you don’t opt for vengeance when somebody hurts you, stay silent though hurt about it, somebody in the future will be that patient with you whereas the one who did hurt you will be hurt by somebody else. And in case, a hurt or action has taken away from someone that could last forever if you did not intervene, stay assured that something of that much value will be taken away from you too. You can be apologetic about it, that person might have forgiven you but the action exists and it reverts back to you no matter what. The same goes for creating confusion in anyone’s life, intentionally or unintentionally.