Hawking on reactions??

I swear, evil and toxic people are always on super-alert mode, hawking on those few seconds when you talk about their toxicity. It feeds their evil soul that they succeeded in affecting you but their shallow and incapable mind fails to understand that addressing toxicity does not mean being affected by their toxic shit.

Do you ever see psychiatrists going mad because they diagnose psychopathy? No, right?

Who is actually getting affected here?? Definitely, those evil and toxic ones, as their energy depends on you talking about their toxic behaviour. Their attention-seeking nature gives you the most attention, although you might not be giving any shit 99.9999999% of the times, still those same toxic people think that you are attentive to them, because again, they are mentally incapable of grasping the gist of behaviour. They are too self-absorbed to even think that you give almost no shit else than addressing and describing their psychopathy once in a while (about once in 4-5 months).

WHAT KIND OF LOSERS??

(Originally posted on 29th november, 2021)

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What would you do if you had no inhibitions??

DO THAT !!

May get imprisoned later on,

But

DO THAT !!

(18th March,21)

Smelling something?

Some people think that I have stopped reacting to shit.

My stance: I know where a piece of shit is. I know it will keep stinking. I know it cannot be made into anything else. Why would I go at that place to attend to it when I know that it’s in the nature of shit to stay filthy and dirty and to stink? Why would I like to sicken myself? I really don’t go there where I know I will end up puking out and sick.

Another thing: There is a saying- Don’t blame a clown for them behaving like a clown. Blame yourself for going to the circus.

Agreed. I completely agree to this. But, there have been numerous instances when one or the other clown entered my room (hypothetically, meaning violated my boundaries) and behaved that way only to annoy or frustrate me out of his/her stupidity/insecurity/envy. What do you think anyone would do in that situation? I would definitely do anything to throw that clown out of my place or if that one still won’t stop, I would slap/beat/kill that one (hypothetically, meaning reacting).

Do I describe or do I demean?

The reason why I call some things like exercising BASIC? It is called so because it is basic. I used to exercise a lot daily apart from doing other PRODUCTIVE things and earning money and studying. The screenshot above from the last year is just for the example. I used to do a lot of strength training as well like tricep extentions 100 reps with 2 kg dumbell with each arm, 500 tummy twists, 20 planks, 30 squats, 200 arms rotations etc. each in one set every day, apart from cycling 2-3 hours or walking for at least 10,000 steps.

I talk about things and categorise according to My Level of doing things. So, if any insecure person thinks that I do it to demean, it’s that person’s problem and manipulation to show other people that I am the toxic one whereas hiding that person’s own toxicity n manipulation. When I want to DEMEAN AS A REACTION or keep one in one’s place, I do it very openly, exposing myself to open criticism and innuendos of a psychopath narc n flying monkeys.

So keep in mind that what I say is about me n if a psychopath wants to copy and/or compare to provoke me, the reaction will be there. Not always though, because I usually consider such dummies DEAD. The narc who provokes me secretly, do it so to get those reactions or wants to be compared all the time and FAILS in being the better one, then goes on to get some SYMPATHY from others. It’s like either GODLY or POOR VICTIM.

I describe myself authentically be it in anger, love, or any other emotion. I am not fond of being FAKE n HYPOCRITE, nor I can keep such people around nor people who associate with a FAKE n HYPOCRITE.

Righteous anger.

When my goodness is not acknowledged

Rather toxicity is made to look like it won

My anger explodes in ways

I am not very proud of

And which can make an onlooker shun.

Quote- Unnecessary Causes.

Everything has a cause,

And we don’t need to find every single cause.

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“At the least, he doesn’t hate me” says a lot about your past experiences with psychopaths, the pain that you felt and the self-worth that you lowered due to them.

Know the real deal.

It’s good to be co-operative,

But not that much that you turn your back towards your enemies or haters as an invitation to them to stab you,

Even if it’s just a filthy talk,

You never know who hates you and for what reasons,

thus once you notice any red flag,

I hope you don’t try to turn it into a white flag of peace,

Or try to be a dove in front of a hawk.

Self-evaluate your reactions.

If anybody got offended by my last post, it only means that either they were finding pleasure and validation in my pain, which by any means is toxic, or they are over-analysing what I write. In both the cases, they need to find their mental balance and stop being overly reactionary.

The above-mentioned post.

PS- I am not giving any explanation about my behaviour here as I do not owe it to anyone for what I write. I am just trying to reflect on people’s reactivity so that they can heal on their own by self-evaluation.

Lightened off..

Not knowing

what’s on going

I know life wants me to keep enjoying

Every feeling

Every impulse I gain

Not wanting me to numb down

Needing me to love everything

Like, love, loss and pain

Stigmatic as I could be

About being so psychic

I know nothing like intuition now-a-days

Feeling free from that heavy load

I am stunned with the sensory relief

Though I am feeling everything

I am unburdened of intuitive grief.

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