Lowkey I want a guy who will fuck up any person who would mess with me uselessly, in case I won’t, rather than stopping me or making me downplay myself.
When you are with the right one,
The flowers may not bloom fast,
The springs may not pour different,
The sun may not rise fast,
The moon may not look different,
But everything becomes easy.
(2nd feb, 22)
I act like a brat sometimes,
just so that
you can be angry with me
and unleash that force,
And melt me
with your heat….
(26th Sept, 2020)
Wake me up
Under the sunshine
By the beach
With a forever kiss.
One thing people don’t get is how much I have changed..and how much my needs around a partner have changed.
If I ever said that I don’t care about looks of my partner, it has changed now. Looks matter a lot to me now. AND anybody wearing a Turban is a big NO. Don’t get offended by this. I have literally nothing against Sikhism. Actually, all the males in my family used to wear a Turban, So I never get attracted to anyone like that. It’s something in-built. It’s a straight turn-off, no matter how good looking, smart and intelligent that guy may be, it will never attract me in the sense of a partner. Plus, I want equally good-looking or at least a smart looking and a fit guy. I am working on my fitness. I look good. I want the same, plain and simple. Attraction is the first thing we need in a long-term partnership, and I would deceive myself and the other person if I would waste time in making anyone comfortable in thinking that I am interested in them or if anyone would try to impose himself on me whom I don’t find attractive. Moreover, I have a particular face type and shape that attracts me a lot. It’s mostly a very masculine type. Sooo, the feminine behaving and long hair types should stay away.
If I ever said that money doesn’t matter, it does now ! I want someone who has more or less equal amount on money in person, and/or regarding family. About 1/3 or 1/4 money can fluctuate being up or down from either side. FYI, my family is already millionaire according to US currency and euros, both. A few DUMBFUCKS who don’t have enough money always think that I am trying to find a millionaire bcz I am gold-digger whereas those dumbfucks are actually the real gold-diggers and I was just looking who actually had more or less similar amount of money. It is required because I want to enjoy my kind of lifestyle with my partner, rather than attracting a gold-digger who doesn’t know how to manage his money or his family business, whatsoever, and would always keep an eye over my money. I don’t want to deplete my sources, I want equal investment from both the sides in everything.
If I ever said that degrees and education does not matter, it matters now. To take one degree, one has to spend years of their life and a hell load of brain power, which, who do not possess them cannot understand. Those dumbfucks actually make joke of the degrees and education just because they themselves could not get them, because these things require more brain and least DRAMA. Believe it or not, formal education really enhances a lot of knowledge and skills. I don’t want any half learned person to be with me to whom I will have to teach the very elementary things that they should have learnt in school or in first degree college. I will frustrate the hell out of me if I would do so. It shows in people’s behaviour how well educated they are. Also, it shows the most when you hold a one-to-one conversation with them how highly educated they are. Many fail at even one good conversation. I don’t want to be with someone with whom I cannot even talk on my areas of interest i.e. law, psychology, science, geography and/or political science (remember political science, Not Politics. There is a big difference between the two). He may be educated in any stream but should be well-educated and well-qualified, otherwise, there is a big NO.
Apart from that I want a good family of in-laws who are not backward that they think that my would-be husband would be having an upper hand over me. I want a family that would treat us both more or less equally. I get that initially every family is cautious with a new member’s arrival in their family and cannot trust completely and it takes a lot of adjustments to reach a place of equality with their son for their daughter-in-law. But, there is a big difference between making adjustments and their decisions being pressed upon me all the time. I love my freedom. Compromises can be made but I will not give upon my basic nature ever.
Other things-behaviour, trust, love, and loyalty, I have talked about them a lot of the times.
Yeah, last but not the least, I want someone well-mannered and that who does not taunt underhandedly through his good manners. That shit really gets on my nerves when someone tries to sound smart but really is not. Good manners and straight talk will always beget the same from my side and I won’t settle for less than that. Elegance looks good on me, and I want the same from my partner, and not much diversion from that in both of our behaviour.
SUBSTANCE: I WANT SOMEONE MORE OR LESS JUST LIKE ME.
I had the need to heal somebody, so I used to choose someone as a partner who needed immense healing; and now I get it that actually I needed that healing for myself.
So now, I can share any kind of emotion, good n bad, but I really don’t need another Healing Project.
I want a Partner. I want true Love. I want forever friendship and love, both in one person.
Whenever I be in my next relationship, I’m gonna see if my would-be life partner would be single for at least six months next before our meeting or not. I don’t want any weak ass that cannot live alone unlike me. It may sound like too much to many but the real strong ones are like that only-they may like a few here n there as a part of courtship but they never enter into relationship out of necessity i.e. just because they need somebody to be by their side; they never feel like settling until they get exactly the kind of person they want and are strong enough to live alone till they get that one. So, I’ll know that my partner truly would be wanting me and not settling with just out of his needs. Secondly, this kind of a person won’t run away to anyone whenever things between us will become tough; it will be only us managing our boundaries for each-other rathee than destroying each-other’s boundaries for fulfilling one or other’s needs or for letting any outsider break them.
Love never lies,
Love is not blind..
This is a blessing,
Only one of its kind.
It’s good to be co-operative,
But not that much that you turn your back towards your enemies or haters as an invitation to them to stab you,
Even if it’s just a filthy talk,
You never know who hates you and for what reasons,
thus once you notice any red flag,
I hope you don’t try to turn it into a white flag of peace,
Or try to be a dove in front of a hawk.
You have met with an accident. Your face has gotten disfigured, body paralyzed, you cannot speak (or cannot speak well), mentally you have become abnormal, you are losing money(for sure) now, you are unable to do any job or business. Who is going to stay with you now?? Ever thought about it??
When people ask me what I am looking for in a partner??
My answer is, this kind of Unshakeable commitment beyond any superficiality or impressiveness; because I know that I will stand by my partner in such a condition without any kind of physical,mental, or emotional cheating; but I highly doubt that anyone else can or will do that for me in the same condition.
And, those who could not stand by my side while I have been still working perfectly fine physically, mentally, socially and financially, should have elimininated any possibility of a re-union with me by now; but their egoism is so high that they think that they can revert back any time as they would please to (what the fuck??).
It does not mean that other things do not matter, they do, to live life happily and peacefully, and for growing together but this is something that cannot be compromised.