Pitiful existence.

It’s true that those whom you consider dead be trying to get attention from you the most, either by abusing you or trying to copy/compete with you. For example, someone whom I had known from many years was begging me for some attention by sending me obnoxious sexual images on instagram, despite being married. Another example being of my so-called best friend (during 2013-2018) who helped many people, who had enmity against me, to frustrate and/or compete with me, so that I could not live peacefully.

Of course, nothing about such people, whom I have already considered dead, matters to me when their character and vibe is dirtier than shit itself. But, sometimes I really sympathise with people who deal with such psychopaths and their partners who have to stay by their side just because those psychopaths tricked them with their manipulation.

I really think sometimes what a punishment it is to have an existence like that. WHAT A PITY !!

Examples of Manipulation by a Narcissist.

Examples when Narcissistic manipulation can be felt:

-The narc first discards you for loving them too much, and when you move or are trying to move on, they almost beg to enter your life again.

-You do either this or that, the narc has a problem with you both the times. For example, you are ambitious and work on your goals, the narc accuses you of being self-centered and not invested in the narc or the relationship whereas when you have no goals to chase for the time being, the narc considers you ‘not good enough’, ‘lazy’, etc. and triangulates you with other people who are ambitious to look down upon you.

-Narc is envious of you but ‘acts’ like a motivator when you cannot do well in life, but the time you start functioning normal, the narc’s jealousy starts coming to the fore.

-Narc doesn’t want you but also doesn’t want you to want someone else.

-Narc wants you but only till he gets another supply, then the blame of everything going wrong shifts on you, the wrong that actually is being done by the narc or is inherently present in the narc.

-The narc mostly wants you to improve ‘only in words’ and for only that amount of time you are enhancing his social image or self-image. The moment he knows you are doing it for yourself, all hell lets loose and lashing out begins out of the blue.

-Narc is your well-wisher only till the time you are acting or talking against someone or something he hates.

-Narc’s principles are for you, not for him to follow. For example, if you start liking someone else than the narc, you are disloyal and a piece of shit while you both were not committed, but if he starts liking someone else and you both were not committed, it’s his choice and liberty to do anything he wants to do. Another example, if you get angry at him or someone else, you are evil whereas if he gets angry at you or someone else, you or that person deserves it, no other explanation.

-Narc will support you with a hidden agenda. The agenda can be as simple and as complex as boosting one’s (his) ego that he is altruistic, although the support will not be there because you need it, but purely because it’s the narc’s need to feel meaningful in his own eyes, whereas any time you would have actually needed the narc, he would be absent or indifferent to your needs.

-Narc will always abuse you through means which other people cannot recognize and publically will always say that he never abused anyone. Either the narc doesn’t know what abuse actually means or he is just hiding it. Mostly the case is the latter because he is always the innocent and benevolent one in front of the people else than the target of abuse.

-Narc tries to intimidate his target, even though he fails at it, he tries over and over again, and when he knows that the target cannot be intimidated, he tries to be in the good books of the target itself because he wants the strong one to either be weak in front of him or be in his team.

-Narc wants to control someone, either physically, mentally or emotionally. Emotional control over a person is the best feeling for any narc because a narc is devoid of having healthy and rational emotions. Yep. Rational emotions exist. His emotions are most of the times born out of his evil mind and a lack of controlling or regulating his own thoughts and a failure in controlling others’ or his particular target’s emotions.

To a known narcissist.

How poor in karma one has to be

that you are eaten up by your own envy

trying to get me under your control

each time failing miserably

and then trying to be god

to someone n anyone who has the same ill-will against me

to make them stand in competition

despite knowing fully what it entails to you in the end

it’s nothing

yet your ego binge eats on my life

by being obnoxiously competitive burning with envy

still failing

staying in your incurable narcissistic misery.

Do Narcissists VENT?

I love it when narcissists Vent openly on social media, for a small fraction of time, it feels like tables have turned. The way the victims want to talk their heart out, wanting others to know what they are going through or have gone through, and still being unable to let it all out because the intensity of the abuse they feel is unmatched with any words or any expression of it, it finally feels, that the relentless banter or the self-expression or uncontrolled trail of arguments by the narcissists against the psychologists or against the people who want to enlighten others against narcissism and bullying, is the way of narcissists for venting it all out about what they have or had gone through.

But.. Let me clear this. It’s a HOAX. Narcissists never vent. They do not have that much emotional depth in them. They do not think straight about how others may or may not feel about them. Actually, narcissists have nothing to do with what effect they may have upon anyone because of their actions. They love to abuse secretly. All of their so-called venting out is just a form of manipulation, the manipulation for everyone to see how bad or evil is a psychologist who has been making innocent people aware of the nature of a narcissist, and the trial of manipulation of the psychologist himself/herself so that they may think that the narc is innocent. So, narcissists do not truly vent regarding the real implication of the word, they just make it look like venting to gather attention and divert others’ attention from the real venting of the victim(s).

Can you move with integrity against a narcissist??

Moving with integrity against a narcissist takes a toil on you, both mentally n physically.

When you are offended, that too without a fault of you or provocation, you feel like beating the shit out of the offender.

You know you have lost a lot, not for your own faults, but because of the same offender’s manipulation tactics.

And nobody can understand your anguish, only you can because you have had to bear the loss. The biggest loss being of your love, that you cannot bear.

And when you speak up about it, that psychopath would either take the turn next in offending you again or would try her best to be the loving n impressive person, which is actually the fake n temporary behaviour that is a trademark of narcissists, to behave very lovingly, politely and impressively after offending others or doing wrong to others in order to save oneself from the criticism or deserving hatred or other consequences. It actually happens because the narc has put her shit (mental filth) over the other person for the other to suffer mentally from it when the psycho knows that that other person will not take revenge.

The anger stays in the person offended which makes that person to talk negatively incessantly, depresses mentally and makes ill physically and when that happens, the narcissist rises again as the harmonious, loving and kind person to impress others who is a piece of shit from the core.

Kinda irony, kinda paradox.

Kinda feeling like not giving a single fuck,

Kinda feeling bad about both the guys (her bf n my love),

Betrayers think that loyal ones are fools

And by this thought, they prove themselves to be the biggest fools.

What serious psychopaths/narcs do?

1. Hide their real identity.

2. Instigate/provoke certain behavior in other person.

3. Try to confuse the other person.

4. Upon getting a reaction out of that other person due to that confusion created, call that person a psychopath.

5. Gossip about it to other people or make open accusations about the reactions.

If you fight well with the psychopath, you will be considered a psychopath; and if you get emotional, you will be sympathised with considering you weak mentally; and if you ignore, you will be instigated/provoked again after an interval of time and maybe in a different way.

Stay alert. If you won’t keep these things in your mind, it will be very easy for a psychopath or narcissist to manipulate you and/or people known to you. It’s very easy to be provoked but consider that the one who has hidden his identity is already a Coward, and who has gossipped or gathered others to discuss you or your reactions is Mentally Weak.

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