Quote-Vibes matter the most.

I am naturally high-vibing. It’s quite obvious to me who lowers that down at what time. I am being more and more cautious about that now.

(Original date: 31st March,2021)

Abstract digital art..

“Inexplicable roots of connection between two souls” -My Interpretation About This Painting.

I will be very glad to know how you are going to perceive it. This is one of my most abstract paintings which I just painted within seconds (maybe it took one minute) and didn’t even think for once what I was doing or what I was intending to do; so, there is some unconscious n subconscious meaning behind it.

(PS- I think it’s also having a bit of 3D effect, if I am not completely wrong.)

To whomsoever it may concern.

I have had chewed the hardest pills last year only,

Keep your shit to yourself now.

(Date: 24th march, 2021)

Irony..(Quotes)

1. People really want to be different by copying your style.

2. Everybody pretends to love black colour until it’s someone’s skin.

3. They take your help till you can, if you want the energy reciprocated, you are selfish.

4. People want to be adults until it’s time to take responsibilities of adults, then they want to be kids again.

5. People love to take pictures of people because they love them but they cannot put enough pressure on their mind to remember them without any picture.

6. They criticize you for criticizing them but they won’t notice or correct the wrong they did that was criticized.

(Note: These quotes have the copyrights reserved by the author. Please do not copy.)

Their completely unreasonable behaviour making me feel helpless-Family Frustration.

Do you ever feel completely annoyed and helpless because of your own family?? What if anything if ever you ask them to do is take care of themselves properly?? If one of them is unwell, that one does not allow you, (I mean it, DOES NOT ALLOW YOU) to take care of them, although you know they are unwell because they appear to be so and they themselves tell you that.

They do not change their ways. They will do Completely unnecessary physical work like going to the park at the noon time when it’s quite dry n hot weather, although they may have been going through dehydration. They do not eat properly, nor take nutrition supplements, and say that it’s hard for them to eat as their stomach(digestive system) is not allowing them to eat anything, AND still do not seek medical help from any good doctor. They do not drink water properly. They do not take proper rest staying at home, NOPE, staying at home is a big issue for them, no matter how caring you become or how lovingly you tell them to take proper rest and nutrition.

It is stubborn AF behaviour. They do not consider your life at all. They do not even think once how much stress it gives you, probably to the point of severe depression after which you just become occupied mentally with their well-being only, and cannot do what you need to do about your own life, although they do the dramebaazi all the time that they love you. I don’t think that they love you at all, all they seek is they be considered an unsung hero who lost their life for you, loving you only immensely and never cared about their own health, despite the fact that it’s you who has always been concerned about their health and take care of yourself properly so that they do not have to go through any such mental pressure or depression.

Upon confrontation what they say is “do not care about me”. You think that it is possible that whom you love, you would not care about them or their health?? Can you think how much heaviness you feel mentally because of such ignorant and immature behaviour?? I cannot describe enough how much helpless you can feel in such a situation when they create a whole bunch of problems and mental anxiety and depression in you which would not have happened just in case they would take care of themselves like a Normal Person does because really, they do not even have any physical incurable ailment. It’s all because of their fucking reckless behaviour that they spoil their life and yours as well.

What if they have been specially warned to take care of themselves by an astrologer because their time is not right whole of the year and you are concerned and extra cautious for that as well??

Despite that, they will still give no fuck or change their habits or behaviour even a bit.

Why?? Most probably because they have nothing good to do in life rather than creating a mess out of completely controllable circumstances. Is it too much to ask someone to take care of their health properly or let you take care of it?? I don’t care if you agree to me or not, but it is a form of Mental Cruelty.

One-directional control freak DUMBFUCKS.

Nothing annoys me more than the people who think that only one thing/one perspective exists just because they are MENTALLY BLIND to other perspectives or are doing those wrongs themselves to which they appear to be mentally blind, And then the same people sell their one directional thinking everywhere in the form of quotes and limit the thinking of other people too. Moreover, a few DUMBFUCKS think that they can influence someone’s independent and multi-perspective thinking with those quotes and through a few pages.

Do you really think that you can control someone with your limited SHIT who can think about more than ten perspectives for the same situation??

WHERE ARE THE BOUNDARIES??

COPYRIGHTS RESERVED BY PREET

When I wanted to get clicked wearing this set of clothes, I could see a huge disappointment and panic on my bua (paternal aunt’s) face. I guided her how to to click this picture (the exact place where she had to keep the mobile in hand) and just tap on the button. She was hugely annoyed to even look at me, spare clicking the picture. I asked her “what happened” although I was known to the answer already. She said “from where have you learnt wearing these clothes and clicking these pictures??” to which I replied that these days many people wear them. There’s nothing wrong in them. They are casual clothes. She went a step further and said, “nobody cultured wear this. Only sex workers/sluts wear this, that too, not from India, negros wear this.”

If I was dealing with her 3-4 years ago and listened to these words, I would have left the house (saying this very seriously as I had tried once in 4 years ago), but now, having her as a responsibility to me, I cannot do that or even think about that. Instead, I said, “You are very backward, biased and narrow-minded. Look around you, and see how much the world has progressed from this backward mentality” and then carried on with sharing the picture on instagram. After that, she was like “you are ruining your dead father’s name. You do this kind of stuff. (Mare hoye peu da naam khraab kri ja ese kamm kar kar ke)” I think this was quite a big another trigger for me usually, but I am glad that I still kept my cool and told her “nothing like that happens. You are over-reacting for no reason and anyways, he’d tell me in my dream if he’d be disappointed. And I am an adult, you have no right to question what I wear and what I share anywhere.” Seriously, she was still looking at me like I did some crime, although she had been saying utter bullshit all the while. She went onto saying “I never prohibited you from wearing anything or meeting anyone.” Well, that was quite a LIE. She always panics whenever I go onto meeting any person. She even used to panic when I met a female friend, meeting a male friend or going on a date was like making her understand the whole idea of the meeting, details in advance and repeatedly telling her “it’s just a meeting. You must be thinking I am going to have sex.” because it was always about my father’s reputation according to her; and honestly, it was never that she let me wear anything I wanted, it was always a hell lot of drama from her side about my clothes (uptil my good age of 24 years she even had a problem with me using any kind of make-up). Soooo, again, I kept my cool and told her “see, you just made a big issue out of my clothes right now and you never let me meet anyone peacefully ever, you always did fight about that. Just accept that you are socially backward, not cultured or traditional and stop thinking that I won’t do what I want to do.”

The point: Sometimes what you see is not true. The one who seems rude has become so when that person had no other option left and the one who seems to be very protective and caring is just an immature energy vampire who sucks on the mind and energy of that ‘rude one’ without any limit making that person to react really rude or cruel as a result. Some people, be it a family member or a friend or an outsider break one’s boundaries way too much just because that person made them comfortable in doing so, by not standing up for one’s own rights. I did that a lot in my childhood, adolescense and adulthood as well. I always thought about the comfort of my family, their wishes about how I should have lived, just so that they could not have any mental or emotional issue because of me. BUT I realised over time that I made them way too comfortable in interfering in my life. Initially, I used to get triggered badly by such comments from them, but I am glad that I learnt handling the situation, calmly, over time.

Honestly, I am feeling guilty sharing this because it feels like I am bringing my family’s issues here on a platform where people do not need to know about it but on the other hand, I think and feel that it is crucial to share such incidents. I used to be held back, depressed and not myself for years because of such nagging, controlling and biased behaviour of my own family members, and never shared a thought with anyone faking it that everything was perfect whatever was happening and how-so-ever I was being treated.

It does not mean that they don’t love me. They can even die for me if the need arises, to save me, but, the main problem is that they never let me live either. I never feel mentally, emotionally and socially content and safe. I have become really tough and walled because of strong boundaries, but I really feel that just in case, they had gotten some counselling from an outsider professional, they might have had a better mindset and behaviour, that could as a result let them and me live freely without any fight on very menial and personal stuff like make-up, clothing, and being social.

Divine Timing.

Many things are falling into place after so long,

Those who are meant to stay, are coming together,

Those who are meant to be away, are falling apart,

And that which hasn’t happened yet is about to happen,

It’s just about the right time,

Confessing, waiting and looking for the right time is truly a heart’s art.

REMINDERS FOR 2021 FOR AT LEAST THE WHOLE DECADE.

I keep repeating many things over and over again and it doesn’t seem to go in the mind of a few people. This is the last time I am confirming anything.

If we ever fell off as friends AND I am not following you on any social media, It’s a 100% guarantee that it’s over. This is for those who never became more than a friend, but became quite lesser than that with time.

If I love someone and he is interested in me too now AND he knows about my side but keeping silence about his side. I am not guaranteeing anything for the future.

I am in no way interested in detecting anyone’s vibes, specially outsiders, whom I have never considered even a friend. It will be good if a known one would talk to me directly rather than through old stupid ways using other people’s accounts. Or don’t take me as the rude one for my response.

Remember, if you try to play me in any single sense, Karma is always there. Don’t repeat patterns. That shit is way too dumb for me now, and as I said earlier, I am not bearing DUMBSHIT this year.

Last but not the least, I AM NOT INTERESTED IN ANYONE’S DRAMA. SOME PEOPLE ARE TOO MEANINGLESS AND USELESS FOR EVEN A SECOND OF ATTENTION FOR ME. THEY MIGHT THINK THAT THEY IMPORTANT BITCHES, BUT THEY ARE NOT.

I Am Way Too Fed Up Of Explaining The Basics Like This. But some of you seem to waste your life, and seem to try to waste my time and energy as well. These reminders are no joke, they are my FIXED HEALTHY BOUNDARIES. Respect them to earn respect. We are not dealing with losers now.

Self-control..

Self-control so good that I may have love and lust for someone so much that I want to rip off his clothes and make the hottest love, and still won’t talk to that one.

Self-control so good that I will observe a few people’s stupidity for years and won’t say a thing.

Self-control so good that even if the hottest guy be dancing nude in front of me and I won’t be caught ever for getting physical with him, I still won’t do a single thing.

Self-control so good that I can buy a dress and not wear it for 7 years even for once.

Self-control so good that if I am on my desired strict diet, you may have a lavish feast in front of me for days and I won’t take a bite.