Their completely unreasonable behaviour making me feel helpless-Family Frustration.

Do you ever feel completely annoyed and helpless because of your own family?? What if anything if ever you ask them to do is take care of themselves properly?? If one of them is unwell, that one does not allow you, (I mean it, DOES NOT ALLOW YOU) to take care of them, although you know they are unwell because they appear to be so and they themselves tell you that.

They do not change their ways. They will do Completely unnecessary physical work like going to the park at the noon time when it’s quite dry n hot weather, although they may have been going through dehydration. They do not eat properly, nor take nutrition supplements, and say that it’s hard for them to eat as their stomach(digestive system) is not allowing them to eat anything, AND still do not seek medical help from any good doctor. They do not drink water properly. They do not take proper rest staying at home, NOPE, staying at home is a big issue for them, no matter how caring you become or how lovingly you tell them to take proper rest and nutrition.

It is stubborn AF behaviour. They do not consider your life at all. They do not even think once how much stress it gives you, probably to the point of severe depression after which you just become occupied mentally with their well-being only, and cannot do what you need to do about your own life, although they do the dramebaazi all the time that they love you. I don’t think that they love you at all, all they seek is they be considered an unsung hero who lost their life for you, loving you only immensely and never cared about their own health, despite the fact that it’s you who has always been concerned about their health and take care of yourself properly so that they do not have to go through any such mental pressure or depression.

Upon confrontation what they say is “do not care about me”. You think that it is possible that whom you love, you would not care about them or their health?? Can you think how much heaviness you feel mentally because of such ignorant and immature behaviour?? I cannot describe enough how much helpless you can feel in such a situation when they create a whole bunch of problems and mental anxiety and depression in you which would not have happened just in case they would take care of themselves like a Normal Person does because really, they do not even have any physical incurable ailment. It’s all because of their fucking reckless behaviour that they spoil their life and yours as well.

What if they have been specially warned to take care of themselves by an astrologer because their time is not right whole of the year and you are concerned and extra cautious for that as well??

Despite that, they will still give no fuck or change their habits or behaviour even a bit.

Why?? Most probably because they have nothing good to do in life rather than creating a mess out of completely controllable circumstances. Is it too much to ask someone to take care of their health properly or let you take care of it?? I don’t care if you agree to me or not, but it is a form of Mental Cruelty.

Divine Timing.

Many things are falling into place after so long,

Those who are meant to stay, are coming together,

Those who are meant to be away, are falling apart,

And that which hasn’t happened yet is about to happen,

It’s just about the right time,

Confessing, waiting and looking for the right time is truly a heart’s art.

Self-control..

Self-control so good that I may have love and lust for someone so much that I want to rip off his clothes and make the hottest love, and still won’t talk to that one.

Self-control so good that I will observe a few people’s stupidity for years and won’t say a thing.

Self-control so good that even if the hottest guy be dancing nude in front of me and I won’t be caught ever for getting physical with him, I still won’t do a single thing.

Self-control so good that I can buy a dress and not wear it for 7 years even for once.

Self-control so good that if I am on my desired strict diet, you may have a lavish feast in front of me for days and I won’t take a bite.

Notice yourself more.

Before commenting on anyone’s diet or body, remind yourself that you need about 10-15 cosmetic/plastic surgeries on your face that you never even notice.

Love Passion Lust..

It seems like you have cast a spell on me,

How can I not stop thinking of you even for a second??

The flow of my blood

Singing some feelings for you

Thumping in my heart

So hard

So loud

What the f I am craving for

Confessing that I am not so proud.

Locked forever..

As much as I am trying to liberate my mind,

I am still locking the truths of my heart.