Sickened.

The most sickening part is, after constant triangulation, he still comes back to me Begging me for some attention.

Pitiful existence.

It’s true that those whom you consider dead be trying to get attention from you the most, either by abusing you or trying to copy/compete with you. For example, someone whom I had known from many years was begging me for some attention by sending me obnoxious sexual images on instagram, despite being married. Another example being of my so-called best friend (during 2013-2018) who helped many people, who had enmity against me, to frustrate and/or compete with me, so that I could not live peacefully.

Of course, nothing about such people, whom I have already considered dead, matters to me when their character and vibe is dirtier than shit itself. But, sometimes I really sympathise with people who deal with such psychopaths and their partners who have to stay by their side just because those psychopaths tricked them with their manipulation.

I really think sometimes what a punishment it is to have an existence like that. WHAT A PITY !!

To a known narcissist.

How poor in karma one has to be

that you are eaten up by your own envy

trying to get me under your control

each time failing miserably

and then trying to be god

to someone n anyone who has the same ill-will against me

to make them stand in competition

despite knowing fully what it entails to you in the end

it’s nothing

yet your ego binge eats on my life

by being obnoxiously competitive burning with envy

still failing

staying in your incurable narcissistic misery.

Convincing my mind- Speaking Up.

A lot of the times, I have to make my own mind convinced that those who have not studied Law, don’t get the Principle of Things as much as those who have studied it, and those who have not studied psychology really cannot understand the tactics of manipulation, realness and worn mask for Image Maintenance; And those who have studied both, really know the means and effects of PROVOCATION.

So yeah, people can Bitch about me behind my back, take the wrong side all the time or be toxic to me despite me suffering the dirty mind games of someone else, Still, in the end, I find contentment in that my Character is much much stronger than anyone’s fake image.

Anyone who has studied n has experience in both of these can straight up tell the difference.

And, coming onto social and peer pressure, I am an acer at standing alone and against the crowd who doesn’t get the principle of things.

If even after me suffering from mental turmoil and offended boundaries and being Provoked continuously, anyone is going to call me Toxic for reacting to the Shit a Bitch was throwing at me, those who Bitch behind my Back are also the same Toxic Bitches, they never know better and are only happy in their own Delusioned Little World of Fake Ass Shit !!

Nevermind ! I know how to handle such Bitches who first waste my time and energy and then ACT like the Goody-Good to gain validation and sympathy only, when I try to return their Trash Energy. ALAS ! returning that toxic shit is too Taxing on my mental n physical health. I am sure that such a Bitch has nothing important to do in her life, but My Every Single Minute Is Valuable as only I know what it entails to me.

(Original posting date: 20th april,2021)