Faking happiness to make others jealous??
Who needs to do that when they can burn with the truth??
Faking happiness to make others jealous??
Who needs to do that when they can burn with the truth??
You will move a mile
And think that you ran hundred
When you don’t have a yardstick to measure what you are doing.
People read and study a lot
Not for no reason,
It helps in knowing how much you know
How much you need to imbibe and learn
What you need to eliminate from your mind,
You can think that you have created something exceptional
Until you know that it’s already available, tested and dead;
Reading, studying and learning is so important
It eliminates the IGNORANCE dread.
(Getting the already existing knowledge, it’s opposition to test its veracity and the results that came out and the conclusions drawn is so important. People generally think a lot on their own and then feel that they know a lot, like they have found something exceptional, they keep those ideas with them for years, struggle to make them a reality, only to end up in knowing that the same ideas were carried out in the past and failed miserably. It’s not bad to carry on with the same or similar ideas again as there is still possibility of their success due to changed circumstances but thinking that they surely will end up in success, specially when the independent variables are uncontrollable, those ideas prove to be just utopian views. That’s why knowledge of what worked in the past and what did not is really very important, be it regarding any field or realm.)
A part of me feels guilty for being this much privileged,
A part of me really grateful for the same,
A part of me wants to be of immense service to others,
A part of me too emotional
In search of love fulfilment,
digging all the parts’ grave.
Imagine somebody takes you out of your home, murders you, takes out your skin, cuts your body into tiny pieces and then fries you.
That’s what happens to animals when you eat non-vegetarian food.
It’s still okay if the animal has died naturally and you are using its body. But killing animals particularly for your taste buds is more inhumane that you can imagine. Similar is about using animal products. Just imagine somebody killing you only for your skin or teeth or bones.
Animals are not as intelligent as humans but humans really take advantage of their only exceptional virtue, otherwise we are quite similar.
If you cannot stop using animal products altogether, at least, reduce their intake to their good extent so that the their demand reduces in market and thus the need for its supply. Otherwise, animal cruelty has reached heights (you need to watch a few videos about how they live peacefully just before their killing and are shredded to pieces mercilessly thereafter).
Jealousy shows in that when you want to compete even at the hint of somebody initiating something new.
Jealousy shows in that when in something you are already doing well and still cannot see the other person growing.
Jealousy shows in that when you try to become what somebody already is.
Jealousy shows in that when you try to copy somebody and then expect yourself beating in their own area of expertise.
Jealousy shows in that when somebody’s goodness irritates the hell out of you.
Jealousy shows in what you want to show, more than in what you want to be, though what you show is what you want to be.
Jealousy is having a high competitive streak against a particular person, despite that person not participating in it.
Kindly read it; you will get a lot of insight about your own behaviour. 🙂
Obssessive-Compulsive Disorder of Perfectionism is a real thing. Read the article in the link provided, you will get an insight into the issue.
First of all, your question must be what OCD is.
OCD is a psychological disorder, a very common one; both diagnostically (cases in millions) and otherwise.
It refers to Excessive thoughts (obsessions) that lead to repetitive behaviours (compulsions). Obsessive-compulsive disorder is characterised by unreasonable thoughts and fears (obsessions) that lead to compulsive behaviours.
People have OCD about different patterns, for example, cleanliness, orderliness, success, looks, a particular project (of which a broader and deeper OCD has to be looked into). Some people have it about losing others. Some go through it regarding perfectionism.
Now, let’s talk about the deep seated reasons behind it. The reasons vary from person to person but the common factor behind its preliminary invocation is the formulation of a pattern regarding something important to a person. For example, a person A wants to be a successful football player. He works really hard to get selected in his school football team. He is putting all the efforts into it. But just like any other thing, there is uncertainty of his selection which keeps him afraid of not being selected in the team. Whenever he started practicing, he had his ups and downs as usual, but meanwhile he started noticing that whenever he wore a particular pair of socks, he did hit the goal, at least more often than while wearing the other pairs of socks. With time, he began associating that pair of socks with his success in his game. Gradually it became a pattern in his mind. After that, he could not think of having the courage to wear any other pair of socks because of the fear of failure during play. Here, wearing that pair bacame a part of his OCD.
OCD is a pattern that arises out of deep fears, which even if the person recognizes within oneself, is, most of the times, unable to get rid of unless and until that fear gets eliminated from that person’s mind which is highly likely that it does not go away until the root or substance of that fear has gotten eliminated out of his/her life completely.
In the given article, the ways to tackle with the OCD of Perfectionism have been described well. Kindly read it at least once if you have a fear of failure or fear of what other people think about you or being any less than perfect in front of the others or yourself or fear of making mistakes in general.
Personally, I have had OCD of cleanliness, organisation, loss of people, perfectionism and that related to failure. I have gotten rid of four of them to a good extent and it happened when I faced those fears. I tried to not be too clean all the time. I tried to be messy for days. I lost people. But this fear of failure and perfectionism is something I still need to tackle with and heal. I am sharing about my own OCD because I want you to know that if one person can do it, others also can; also, if it can be tackled with in one sphere of life, it can be done so in other spheres as well.
I, mostly, used Cognitive Behavioural Therapy on myself. I know that it sounds strange but it can be done. You can talk to yourself. But I would prefer consulting a counsellor or psycho-therapist, whichever suits you because one cannot reach the right solutions on one’s own in psychological problems and is much more likely to fall into the abyss of chaos of thoughts rather than detangling that stuff and adopting a cause and effect approach rationally. I have gone for therapy also but that was for some other reasons years ago but due to that I can tell the difference.
In case you need to know how I did it, you may contact me. And, in case you have tackled with it, you are more than welcome to share your ways and story. It might help somebody. Like I am half there, it’s okay to be half there as well. Feel free to share.
When you pick yourself up
also remember to lose everyone who can bring you down,
You have seen good in people more than they deserved,
You have seen bad in life more than you deserved,
Maybe you have to learn how to make people meet at your own level
although doing it by being rudely stern,
Maybe the standards you have created about your own behaviour
is all they have to see and learn.
I can’t create anything anymore,
I am feeling stuck in the similar patterns,
Trying to come out of the marshy waters,
I try to push through the mud with limbs n cry,
But all in vain,
Then an idea striking my mind,
Rather than getting out of it,
I shall stay quiet and calm,
I will slide through this as well,
Feeling free in the air of happiness,
Even after all this pain.
Do you ever feel like you have totally changed?? Like something died inside of you and something else is being born. You feel so weak for months and then day by day you start realizing that you have grown stronger than ever. You can bear a lot but at the same time you won’t allow anyone to hurt you, deceive you, betray you or make a fool out of you. You still have those good values that believe in humanity, brotherhood, integrity, etc. but you have become so dignified that almost nobody can shake you?? You don’t feel needy anymore. You don’t crave anything anymore. You don’t have care about what bad intentions anyone can have towards you. You just don’t care. You don’t care about who is thinking what about you, who is misunderstanding what about you, who is trying to figure you out, who is trying to mislead you, who is trying to guide you in the right direction, who is leaving you, who is trying to tarnish your image; you simply don’t care about anything. Literally about nothing and nobody. You don’t know where you are going but still in your heart and soul you can feel that you are going somewhere very beautiful; towards a very peaceful, successful and love-filled future. Something that feels very powerful, very transformative. You start crying out of nowhere, your body shakes and shivers out of nothing, you feel empty, you feel all the emotions at the same time, anxiety kicks you so hard, your heart keeps breaking over and over again, you feel mentally disturbed a lot, you feel like nothing is working and then when you really hit the rock bottom and feel like you have lost everything like your life has ended, it has no meaning, you are useless, you don’t know what to do, you have your plans but still you don’t work for them, you start remembering all of your traumas and count all of your failures and remember all the lives you have lost in your life, and then suddenly you go silent, completely silent. That silence guides you. It makes you flow with the universe. It works as a form of surrender. But then you begin to send affirmations to the universe about what you want, how you want it, and exactly at what time you are going to get it. And, it starts happening. You suddenly begin to work on yourself. You don’t even care if you are depressed, happy, angry, sad or whatever, you just don’t care. You become so strong mentally that you begin to think that whatever will happen I will handle it.
You are born to learn a few lessons at different points in your lifetime, thus you may go through all this every single time. The stronger and older your soul, the harder your lessons will be.