Why she has to stand tall,
She has learnt it the hard way.
She knows no tireness,
She knows no emotions,
She knows no relations,
She knows no remorse,
is all they think or say.
They see the obvious no doubt,
She chooses to show this side,
How indignant she felt at their thoughts,
She mostly chose to hide.
The times she showed remorse,
It was swayed with jestly innuendo;
The times she showed any emotion,
It was numbed with somebody else’s illusive emo-crescendo;
The times she showed tireness,
She was deemed to not rest but grind;
The times she valued relations,
She only got disappointments and no one of her kind.
(22nd nov, 2019)
When you get a classy, sassy, loving yet a bit bad assy, with a lot of sexual appeal n fantasies, mind deep enough to drown you, and soul dope AF, trying to give you everything material and abstract, love, attention, affection, assurance, trust, friendship, loyalty, encouragement, empowerment and a secure future….
And you still want to stumble upon literally anyone willing to provide you not even half and sometimes nothing…
What should I take it as?? A SIGN??
Should I look for some temporary pleasure??
Let me tell you, my love is unconditional but access to me cannot be. I find it insulting and confusing when I express my true feelings and intentions to you, you tend to run away, and when I try to move you, you come back and try to chase, still not knowing what you want..
Try something different this time. Let me handle you this time my way. Try to let me be vulnerable with you. Try to calm down into the peace of your soul. Try to just stay.
I mean to share my life with you. I mean to grow with you. You can have your space. I also need my own. You can grow individually, we can grow together. You will never lose your realness with me, I promise, I never intend to control. Two completely free souls connected treading towards something beautiful, rising in every sphere of life rapidly and with breaks in between, that’s what I want with you.. I know you are a freedom lover.. So I am.. I know how exhausting it is to be controlled by anyone in any way and you hate it honestly.. But there are many things that I can’t write here, they are too personal to share openly. So, I just want you to open up your own heart towards it and then see what we can be.
(Published on 5th March, 2021)
We are so similar in many ways,
We can’t hurt the good ones, sometimes even the bad get the good side,
but won’t mind hurting anyone by hitting them with the truth or be distant to protect our sanity,
We have our reasons that we keep from the world,
We hide our emotions, emotions run deep but logic rules behaviour to stay away from others’ insanity,
Affectionate with the right ones, self-respect on top,
I show my sensibility to the whole world, hide my childlike nature,
You show your childlike nature to the world, hide your sensible nature,
We say what we mean and mean what we say,
straight to the point,
no mind games,
Wild at heart, mind dark and twisted,
Persona full of spark with the right ones and trusted,
Passion, anger, lust and love, the similar kind,
And that thirst for knowledge,
Must have been called wierdos by many
Who couldn’t understand,
Wanderers, unaware and not afraid of the uncertain,
Neither liking to control others, nor wanna be chained,
We just show and hide our natures differently,
Still too similar,
I think this is what is Twin Flames named.
That connection was not wrong,
That bond being natural thus right,
We are sentimental,
For understanding each-other we don’t have to fight.
I don’t care if the future is dark or bright,
I will still love you without expectations
Because I know this love is right.
(17th Jan, 2020)
When your heart shatters into a zillion pieces,
When it still doesn’t make any noise to the outside world,
When you can’t hear your own screams,
When you silently own every single broken piece in your existence’s hold,
Know that there will be someone who will make it easy for you;
Someone will make easy the love for you,
The love you give and their love for you,
Someone will make the life easy for you,
The way you want to live it,
doing the things you love to do,
Someone will make it easy for you to smile,
The real unfiltered blooming out of innate happiness they give to you,
And until you meet that special someone
Cherish everything that you are
Find depth in your hollowed heart
Find solace in your solitude
Find heights increasing in your strength
For living alone this way is truly an art.
(First published on 17th jan, 2021 on my other website http://www.yourchoicestlifestyle.com )
I am moving in a way lately, that even when you have enmity against me, you are going to support me.
Hard-work and Gratitude never go in vain.
Not made to shirk away from
or give up on the right things,
I’ll lose my mind in anger
only when I’d put it on the wrong swings.
(First published on 12th oct, 2020)
This post is just to thank everyone here who stays patient with me. Sometimes, I cannot interact via comments because I feel shut down due to personal reasons n find it difficult to talk to anyone. Sometimes, you all have to deal with my negative posts involving anguish described in anger n rage. My family as well has to deal with my furious nature. Although, it has reduced drastically in comparison to the last year but still I feel that nobody else than me deserves to deal with those vibes. The darkness should stay with the person to whom it belongs and be released too in a healthy way. I find writing and painting as the mediums to release the negativity that engulfs me, from which I am unable to release it through Art as I can only paint good stuff. It’s only through writing that I can release my worst of dark emotions, and it’s really very important for me to release anger, otherwise I get sick physically as well (fever n low immunity). So, I just want to thank you all (including my family) for being there in my lows as well, and not only in the times I write something good having some good vibes in it, full of love and beauty. You all are Amazing Ones..
Love and Blessing to You..💜💖
They say “Date them all until one of them shows you he is serious”,
I say “Brozone them all until one of them shouts “I want to be your fucking husband !!”
*chaos versus clarity*
Crazy but it works 😜
You are not having a bad day,
You are surrounded by evil people who want to see you having a bad day and a bad life,
There is a difference.
I Think For All 