Note to self.

Don’t go back to your old ways,

Try to get out of that mud,

There is love and light for you to grow,

You are still an about to bloom bud,

Hands folded, head held high,

You have to forget your heart’s cry,

When something and someone is pure,

It is rewarded for sure,

Let the times be obscure,

You have to hear past the tumultous,

The sound of nature,

It bestows the real things the strength to endure;

Even if your heart is breaking into a billion pieces,

Just let the rivers of pain flow,

Because days and nights keep shifting,

But always after the darkness,

We feel the sunrise’s glow.

(First published on 17th Jan, 2020)

High vibrations

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Shun all the negative voices,

they will stay forever in dismay

how could you be abusive to them

Having a positive unique way !

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(7th dec, 21)

Photography-symbolic

Companionship can be as simple and as beautiful as this picture is..💙

Destiny.

A li’l cliche but it’s true,

Nothing and nobody can take away

What and Who is truly meant for you.

Heartfelt ❤

A good heart can recognise a good heart.

A LETTER TO MY FATHER..

Dearest and The Best Papa,

I wish so badly that you were still here. You were such a great guide to me, A guide, friend and philosopher; and such a beautiful human being, so helpful, knowledgeable, intelligent, disciplinarian, understanding, selfless and humble and most of all, an examplary father. I cannot praise you enough. I tried to imbibe a lot of your traits, though unsuccessfully. You are still an epitome of strength to me and your absence will always feel like a big hollow in my heart and void in my soul. Surely, we are connected by soul but your humanly wisdom is what I miss a lot and most of all, your quite presence that always encouraged me to do better n better every single time I looked at you. You were my inspiration. Despite having so many hardships in life, you always had a smile on your face, depth in your eyes and hustle in your body and mind and not giving up in your spirit. I used to gain strength just after having a look at you, and if not that, you used to push me to do better and never give up. I know life was not fair to you. It never was till your last breath. Also, I want to apologize to you for not standing upto the mark.

I can never forget the day when I did not have the book during one of my last semester exams ‘law and medicine’, you did not let me know that you were out there in the markets of mumbai walking here and there for hours under the scorching heat, despite having cancer, not having eaten anything whole day, just to find that one book that was unavailable. That day I felt so helpless because I knew you’d do anything for me and I was never doing enough for you. I still feel helpless for that reason that I could never do anything good enough for you except studying, and I know that you also wanted me to do that but the responsibilities any child can take for his/her parents I could never take that. The time I could do that, you died; and that will always feel like a big incapacity on my part.

The thing you wanted the most for me, because I wanted that, I am quitting on that too. I guess, you will understand that too but I wish you were here to guide me better, I am sorry I am being selfish here but I really need you. I miss you so much that I cannot describe it in words. Sometimes I even feel like dying just to meet you. But I will try to be happy because I know you are always around and it makes you happy too, and it’s going to take long for us to meet in the same realm. Nobody can understand me better than you, I can say that without a doubt, we had silent agreements and logical disagreements. Many people say that I am just like you, I feel proud to listen to that but I am nothing near to you, some of your friends even called you a saint, I wish you could know (I think you heard them) and I cannot agree more.

In the end, I only want to say that I got blessed with a father like you and got cursed with your absence, but truly, you have been the best person I have even known. I wish I could tell you all this when you were alive but I know that you know what and how I feel about you and I wish we could spend this day together for several more years.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY.. ❤

-Your proud daughter.

Corona phase irony.

The nature sent it to make them learn the lesson of equality,

They exaggerated disparity even the more,

Where the rich are enjoying their filthy riches,

The poor are facing more misery,

They are not deemed more than a score,

No matter what lesson nature brings,

Human race always ditches.

(First published on 30th March, 2020)

Paradoxical feelings.

I feel entertaining yet bored because I feel the need to entertain others.

I feel self-love yet lack of love because I feel the need to love and be loved.

I feel educated yet ignorant because I feel the need to teach others what I know about and learn from them in return.

I feel whole yet incomplete because I feel the need to connect with somebody like me.

I feel efficient yet inefficient because I know how much I still need to learn and how much there is that I do not even know exists to be learnt.

(First published on 10th october, 2020)

Wholesome Beauty

Beautiful by mind,

Beautiful by soul,

Love in the heart,

Gratitude makes me feel whole.

Nature Love 💚❤

I love the rainfall

And am more in love with the dew,

I love the fog

And am more in love with the snow falling new,

I love the full moon night

And am more in love with the sunset n sunrise’s breath-taking view,

I love red roses

And am more in love with flowers of every hue,

I love every tiny thing every big aspect of nature

Anything I don’t love in it, if any,

Are very few.

(Originally posted on 6th november,2020)