Too much love.

There is never ‘too much love’

You just don’t know how to feel and appreciate it yet.

Did you say ‘go with the flow’ and acted different? (Read carefully)

https://yourchoicestlifestyle.com/2021/02/06/go-with-the-flow-an-eye-opening-monologue/

It’s not good that you try to change other’s permanent decisions based on your own temporary feelings and emotions that keep on fluctuating; If you are doing this, you are just trying to control someone just because you lack in self-control.

Animal lovers..Know the difference.. 😌

Always be kind to animals; they cannot talk about their needs to you..

But remember, not to be kind to human guised animals, who keep shitting on others, for their needs, and on you..

Just a dream.

My maths class was about to get over. It was raining heavily. I missed getting myself marked present in class. I went to staff room and requested the professor that I was solving a maths problem, so just missed my roll call. Professor was adamant at not marking me ‘present’ at first but finally marked so.

I was enjoying watching the rain, pouring down heavily thumping at the ground, from the corridors of the first floor. He was not present today. I don’t know why but it was a disappointment. I usually love it when he is present the days I come to school as then I get to see him. Anyway, it’s okay, I thought. I untied my hair as it was the last period of the entire session and it was, in a way, quite relieving. I was reminiscing the good times I spent in the place and planning on how to study for the final exams. Nothing was wrong but something was missing, really missing. There was quiteness in the corridor as most of my fellow students had left. I didn’t realise that I was standing there for about fifteen minutes by now. Then, came a classmate to me in a hurry and said “come with me downstairs, he is waiting for you”. It was perplexing at first as I was not used to this kind of behaviour in school. I never hurried before this. But this time, it didn’t feel wrong, infact, it felt like something was so right. I didn’t even ask him who he was talking about, I just ran with that fellow to go downstairs. And then, there he was..yes, it was him ! for whom my my eyes n soul were searching.

…..After this what happened, I really don’t want to even write. It was everything I could wish for…..

Influence is subliminal here..

You can sense what influence I have on people by seeing how many of them try to copy or compare with me even when I don’t indulge myself in that kind of wastage of time. And then the same people call themselves savage n shit, despite being quite stupid actually. But, they will never accept this fact.

Ego issues.

Ego is something that won’t let you enjoy something and when you lose that thing it makes you regret not enjoying when you had the chance to do so.

People should say “Go ego go” 😪

YOU THINK??

We were supposed to be as one

The joke of the year or life??

What did you do for that

Apart from running away from me

And being thankless for all of my love

For getting some crumbs from other

And ending up with nothing from there..

Now you gotta put it all on me??

Ameer-greeb.

Paise aate-jaate rhenge,

Tum ho ya to pyar dene wale

dil se ameer,

Ya chaen chheenne wale

Dimag se tang

Dil se greeb.

Cheating.

Sometimes generally,

But particularly for the demixesual,

Emotional cheating always equals physical,

Only if you did not share a bed

Doesn’t matter

Giving those emotions to someone else for a long time

You lead your relationship to end dead.

Something constant.

I don’t need reasons to be happy, I need reasons to be sad or depressed and I never go on looking for those reasons. That’s why I avoid most people. I am a happy, productive and entertaining person basically but outside energy always (and I really mean ALWAYS) become a block or a shadow over my positive n optimistic personality, and then I cannot get rid of it for weeks or months. I have traumas that I still haven’t talked about to a single person on earth (literally nobody even if a few of you know many of my secrets, still there are some things I never tell anyone; neither family, or bestest of friends in the past or even a therapist) but I know really well how to give it my all to my future rather than sulking in the past. Attachments happen but I can easily get rid of it, basically being a detached person. Failures happen but I usually have 2-3 more plans after that. My life flows generally as I expect it to. But outside energy always happens to be a block or a shadow over my positives. If I keep any person away, he/she has directly or indirectly added blocks in my life. Why would anyone think that I’d like to invite the same kind of energy in my life again??? I really am not interested in Jumping in the mud or letting people throw it at me and then waste my time n energy in cleaning myself of it whereas the best option always is to look at it, ignore and avoid it and move forward. I don’t know how other people’s mind work, but if they don’t get this basic thing, then it’s completely their problem. I want to keep somebody close who can be equally positive, clear-minded and productive, provided I have not seen the otherwise in them in the past, although everybody can change into the former kind but probability is uncertain to me, and I avoid uncertainty now. I don’t want somebody to give me anything or to add anything to my life, be it happiness or love or anything materialistic. I just want AN EQUAL who knows how to take care of himself, can be happy on his own, manage well his possessions, be productive most of the time, love by heart n soul, has got rid of his past traumas or wounds and related defence mechanisms (although more or less those defences always stay there but it can be dealt with sensibly) and is very clear about what he wants from me, from himself, his career n life in general, so that we can thrive together rather than any of us being a burden on the other. PURE PARTNERSHIP, NEITHER OWNERSHIP NOR PARENT-CHILD DYNAMIC.