Missing You..

Missed you beyond measure

But as always

You met me in my dream

Like you were never gone away

Hugged me so tight

My soul felt your every inch n your energy,

On waking up

I couldn’t tell the difference

If it was a dream or reality

But yes,

It felt like a real treasure..

I missed you

And it felt

Like I was missing myself

I miss you beyond measure.

Missing You..

Missed you beyond measure

But as always

You met me in my dream

Like you were never gone away

Hugged me so tight

My soul felt your every inch n your energy,

Upon waking up

I couldn’t tell the difference

If it was a dream or reality

But yes,

It felt like a real treasure..

I missed you

And it felt

Like I was missing myself

I miss you beyond measure.

Reminiscing my nature.

I can’t even explain how I think. Many live in and for experiences. I really don’t seek them. I don’t seek events to make memories about them. I don’t think that we are what we create or some experiences can create us (ok particularly me here). How I take experiences is purely the mental stimulators or catalysts for different thinking. As far as I remember nothing has changed me much. Those who know me now or at whatever period of time they might have known me may think that I have changed a lot. But that’s not true. They have only seen my behaviour for a short period of time n for a few events or so on but my basic nature has always been like this only.

I was always quiet in front of the outsiders (school, college, relatives functions, strangers etc.) and quiet in my own home maybe for eternity.. but.. whenever I wanted to socialise I was one hella fun person. I was always the one who organised family functions to the T (not the labour part, ok). I was always sporty whenever anyone came to the house (n got comfy in the family) to play a game or two. I made jokes whenever I observed something laugh-worthy in the surroundings. I was analysing situations, people’s behaviour and dynamics of different kinds right from my very childhood (like since the age of 6-7 years old). I always observed a lot. Like really.. I can very confidently say that I filter about 95-98% of things that I observe just because I find them quite useless including people who think that they can always sneak, tresspass, abuse n escape.. “Nope ! You didn’t. I did let you because you are not important at all.” If you think that I have become angrier, that too, is in my nature by birth, though the outlets have changed. I used to store it all or tended to flush off that energy by playing cricket for two hours daily in the evening (though with my brother n father only). It was really a good release of energy then. Now I feel like not storing any shit in my mind n release it all through words. If we talk about confidence. I always had a very good amount of self-confidence but I was always quiet about it because I was getting regular recognition about my capability through professors n results etc. Now I have to show it in other ways because of the wake of social media as in this era if you don’t verbalise or show your capabilities, then you are considered not to have them at all and those who are ept at showing off, become successful, though they might have half of your capabilities.

The point is.. I was always more or less similar..Not much has changed.. Neither my nature, nor my strength.. It’s just that those who have started to know different sides of me or my deeper layers, they think that I have changed a lot; they actually never knew me. Really.. Never..

Strangest thing about me: I do the things, I hate to do, the most. This one I still cannot understand why. Sooner or later, I end up doing things that I really hate.

Strongest point about me: I really, and by this I mean REALLY, I don’t give a fuck about who thinks what about me.

Weakest point about me: I won’t actualise something until I have done it to perfection, exactly the way I visualised it, and even after reaching that point I keep polishing it so that it can reach a point to my utmost satisfaction.

The best thing I find about my life: No matter how filthy situations, events or people I deal with, my bounce back game is strong AF, stronger than many, and I don’t mean it by the show off part, I mean it about things considered valuable.

(Originally posted on 28th Dec, 2020)

Calming simplicity. ❤

Just feeling like

going to a farm-house,

surround myself with at least 10 puppies,

sip on a cup of coffee,

While reading a book

under the shade of a spring tree

And if I may imagine a bit more

The love of my life will be holding me in his lap

While in between kissing me

Together us

Feeling the bliss

From all the hustle-bustle of city life

For at least a few days, completely free.

(Originally posted on 4th March, 2021)

Adage of current unwillingness.

Parsimony on affection

Inattention to winsome love,

Bygone, a few years adieu,

We may carry the baggage

with memoirs of the lost time and youth

In which we could cherish the beauty of life

And conquer the world together

In unison, me and you.

(First published on 12th March, 2021)

Wear Your Confidence-Digital Art

Now she wears her confidence with style,

The part of her making a statement

that was hiding behind their opinions for years

with an unnatural smile- Preet

This is the digital painting that I had created more than a week ago. I am intending to sell my digital artwork, the details of which I will complete when my money transaction formalities will be complete (I guess it will take some more time). Till then I want to know from you what amount will be suitable to ask for this piece of art. I just want to get an idea from the viewers and reader, of what worth this kind of artwork is in terms of money (any currency). If you don’t want to guess or write about that, that’s perfectly fine. But your feedback is valuable as always 🙂

(Note: This digital artwork and words are copyrighted work of the author. Please do not copy or download the same without explicit consent and don’t forget to mention my website in case you decide to share the post. Thank you. ❤)

Digital-Art: Stone-heads..

Two stone strong heads,

Desiring hearts to melt,

Waiting for the other to take the first step

For what they felt.. -Preet

This is the digital painting I just created. Hope anyone can guess it must not have taken me much to get this idea. The point is, ideas are precious, be it in writing or creating art. The original the better.

Apart from this message, do tell me if you find any other perspective looking at this digital painting.

(Note: Please do not copy the words or download the picture without written consent of the author. All the copyrights are reserved by the author. Thank you. ❤)

An advice for Alpha females for marriage..

I want to give an advice to young women/girls who want to get married at some point in their life. Actually, there are many points that I want to discuss under this topic and you may also find many advices online as well as offline regarding marriage. But there is one point that I want to put some light on which is often ignored while considering a life partner.

If you are a woman who is ambitious, takes her own decisions, works her ass off, is a go-getter, and is a provider, in short, the one who has most of the qualities of an Alpha Female, you need to see the family structure of the man if you are interested in him for marriage or life partnership or relationship. I am saying this because I have seen this pattern a lot in society that when and if the females of the family in which a man has grown up, did not work in office, and were by nature-submissive, coy, and silent, that man is going to want the same from his life-partner sub-consciously. It doesn’t matter how much educated or modernised he became, the years (decades) of mental training he got from his family sub-consciously is not going to change even if he finds the otherwise for himself consciously. He would want you to be the same meek and coy woman. Your boundaries will be aggressive to him. Your desires and ambition will make him feel insecure and he would like to impose his dogmatic thinking upon you just like his family’s females were pressed upon and taught to abide by the thinking and orders of the men in his family. He cannot comprehend that you can Think and Do better than him. His insecurities will start acting up whenever you will point out at his flaws, even if done politely. He may even be envious of your work and power because he was conditioned in his psyche’s developmental stages that women are not the Alpha and are meant to be protected and guided only. He may point at your frankness as rudeness. For him, submissive silence is elegance and speaking your mind will be needed to be in a controlled manner according to his dictates.

There will be, most of the times, power struggle between you two because you are an Alpha female and he may feel powerless because of that, so he will try to over-power you to soothe his ill-conditioned mind, and then there might be fights, manipulation and even separation between you two.

What do you think-is it better not to engage with such a man or is it better to engage and then be forced to leave in the end?? Or you can be ultra-submissive just like his family’s females and give upon your own power and capabilities and ambition to soothe his fragile ego??

(PS: Don’t come here with your feminist or anti-feminist mentality regarding this post. It’s about a particular kind of a man. The propositions may be relative to patriarchy but I did not point out at that. This advice is solely for alpha females who also love with whole of their being, so, kindly, do not come with the contention that love is adjustment and all. Those are different topics. I intended to write exactly about a very small fraction of possibilities.)

Thank you for reading. 🙂

Very proudly, the difference is certain.

I can say this with full confidence that there are more than 15 people who have grave enmity and envy towards me for no reason else than I am being myself and pick myself up from anything that they never could do for themselves, people whom I don’t even consider existent now and whom I helped the time(s) when nobody else did and to whom I was kind to when nobody else was. But here lies the difference between low-vibing fake ones and high-vibing someone.

(From 31st march,2021)

Gap in blogging..

A gap of two years really puts you far behind where you could be in blogging. I had started the blog in the second half of the year 2017, and just after writing 4-5 blogs, I left the website untouched for about two years and began writing again in oct-nov, 2019. I had started writing on this website just because I wanted to try something new and blogging was one on my bucket-list at that time. I used to think that one could just write something like poetry or interesting blogs and leave it as that only. I had no idea that to progress in blogging one has had to be interactive with the fellow bloggers, until recently. But I have a dilemma regarding this. Does it really matter how much you interact or communicate with others on your blogs or you can let your blogs speak for you specially when you are not a talker?? The gap really did put me far behind where I could be by now, but apart from that, am I doing it the right way or not, this question really strikes me hard sometimes. I really want to enhance my blogging skills while not wanting to be occupied with it for a good amount of time, as even now, this is not my first or even 5th priority.