Companionship can be as simple and as beautiful as this picture is..💙
I cannot tell how much I feel the need to know new people, some good and lively energy. The people among whom you can set your own worth standards and they actually meet them; people with whom you can talk freely about anything and everything, and even silence feels very comfortable; people with whom you can roam around freely not having any hard and fast rule about what “kind” of place you like or not; people with whom you can go for meals in your night suit or maybe cook one together; people with whom you don’t feel judged for being completely yourself as weird, strange or awkward; people to whom your history doesn’t matter but those who still consider past and future and do not be fickle by staying only in the “now” or “in the moment”; people who know the meaning of real reciprocity, and do not only brag about what they do for you rather be acknowledging and thankful for what you do for them as well; people who love to learn and are curious to learn to love are my kind of people that I am so eagerly waiting for.
-25th July, 2020
I tried to switch off intuition
and now I am all perplexed,
I do feel the things in a certain way
trying to grasp the ‘why’s of everything,
Even while moving through the ruffled waters
I know where I am going
my intuition guides me my lane,
Now when I have switched it off I am feeling so low,
Feeling things, not vibes, in a confused way,
I don’t know what’s going where, like I am driving myself insane.
I think I turned against the nature,
Putting off something that makes the basic me,
That’s why the nature is punishing me,
The need is not to not feel things I am getting this now,
The need is to feel and be guided by my intuition and still be rational somehow.
(First published on 9th Jan, 2020)
A lone wolf is my spirit’s drive,
Embracing my wilderness,
Claiming my authenticity,
Silent, calm and compost and scarcely seething angry,
Working all alone,
I am sure some day I will meet the one,
Honest, righteous and success hungry,
Whose frequency matches with my vibe,
I will meet the one from my own soul tribe.
(First published on 5th March, 2020)
I hope you understand me by listening to your inner voice
Like I did for you
Without paying any heed to any outer noise.
EID AL FITR.. One of my most favourite festivals, a day n night bestowed with harmony, prayers and every pious feeling of oneness with the universe maker (you call him Allah, I just don’t use any word being apparently atheist). This festival has such feel good, peaceful vibes. Oh ! Not to forget to mention the feast. Last year we made sewaiyan (vermicelli cooked in milk n condensed milk alongwith dry fruits etc.) with other things (don’t want to mention).
Moreover, the importance of moon in it just raises the spiritual vibe to a whole new level.
Sadly, this year we could not celebrate due to a familial sorrow. But I hope that you celebrate it by heart and stay blessed.
“And now begins the game of Triangulation.”
I was wrong to call a pure narcissist a toxic empath when I can see clearly all the aspects of narcissism in the same person. Triangulation means comparing two people in which the one who is praised is used by the narcissist to demean the other person when that ‘other person’ does not adhere to the stupidity, toxicity and malicious behaviour or demands of the narcissist. This is done to lower the self-confidence of one of two people compared. You will mostly see a narcissist jumping from one person to another, praising highly one person one day and when that same person gets to know about the narcissist’s malice and call out about it or expose that behaviour, then that person is met with the Tactic of Triangulation.
They did not listen,
They never could..
Not that they were deaf
Their hunger was more important
They ran together in hundreds
Having no hearth to live in
Didn’t strike their mind what they could
And keeping a distance from their brethren
Was what they should.
Grief of death was big
Grief of living was bigger to contain
You live in beautiful houses
Spending time in luxury
You can understand that perception
It’s hard to feel their pain.
what’s on going
I know life wants me to keep enjoying
Every impulse I gain
Not wanting me to numb down
Needing me to love everything
Like, love, loss and pain
Stigmatic as I could be
About being so psychic
I know nothing like intuition now-a-days
Feeling free from that heavy load
I am stunned with the sensory relief
Though I am feeling everything
I am unburdened of intuitive grief.
Oh..Now I understand what I am feeling,
And why I am feeling it today,
Exactly an year ago we met for the first time,
I in red and you in black,
I was happy, really happy to see you
Quarter past five was the time,
Your first words were Pi Hi,
“Oh so rhythmic” I thought 😂
Trying to gulp my laughter in a nick of time,
And then that cute cuddly hug,
I loved your friendly way,
Not finding any place in the cafe, so crowded,
You found some other place to reach,
Driving oh so slow intently,
Gleefully n gay,
Trust me, I love high speed driving
I was getting irritated but it was too awkward to say 😂
But how you were doing it, loud music, slow pace, goggles on, I simply loved your swaggy way,
And then you started testing my knowledge,
I knew the answers,
You wanted me to speak up but I hardly had anything else to say,
Let me digest that we have finally met
One year four months after chit-chatting n flirting
“Really this long??” My mind got to sway.
You were really really sweet,
A bit testing, opinionated and sensible too,
Why so like me? I just don’t say things and you do.
You and your black coffee,
I read the disappointment on your face
When I didn’t exchange our different coffee to taste,
I did it on purpose,
I wanted to test how you handle a disappointment,
Pretty good in that too,
I got it you don’t behave in haste.
I know you thought I was nervous
More than I could infer,
Though I was not and never with you,
My thoughts were running around observing you silently,
I was liking you so much
And your talk
And your smile in between was a comfort.
Ah..Then came the time to say goodbye,
First you on purpose, then me on purpose,
Insisted you to drop me at my place 😂
Dirty thoughts in your mind on the way,
And lots of laughter due to that in my headspace 🤣
“Yay.. nothing’s gonna happen,
What’s up in store about it after this,”
Was what was ruling my mind,
“Let’s not get intimate so early,
I don’t want this relation of that kind.”
But when the time came to part ways,
Right in front of my door,
And you just hugged and kissed me
Sweetly yet out of a sudden;
Oh man, did you evoke something in me,
I can’t describe it, that fire,
First meeting, sweet beginning, turned into something hot and me rudden.
But you remained a gentleman all throughtout the meeting,
And I did have to behave like a lady,
Yeah.. We had to,
Because there was nothing else we could do, not that we could never,
We could but not that day,
That day I didn’t know
But I got something for you,
Something to stay with me forever. ❤