When my goodness is not acknowledged
Rather toxicity is made to look like it won
My anger explodes in ways
I am not very proud of
And which can make an onlooker shun.
Things my ex might have never told you:
1. I parallel park the car well.
2. He was not sapiosexual. He actually once said that he did not want this much intelligent girl like me for marriage.
3. I am quite spontaneous when it comes to dates. Wherever you want to go, I am ready to go there even in the middle of a cozy date.
4. I stay anxious for the first 5-10 minutes no matter how many times I have met you or how much comfortable I am with you.
5. I never told him ‘I love you’ in real, or say, face to face. [I have actually never said these words to any single person in real. Just couldn’t.]
6. Non-consensual foreplay doesn’t mean sex. Yup, I never did it. Doing only this much n this way was his definition of sex, not mine, it’s not even considered so generally. And yes, I didn’t even want to do that n he knew it. It was a mistake n there were deeper emotional reasons behind it related to someone else. I was not in love with my ex. I had moved on long before that.
7. I pay equally on dates.
8. I love to give gifts on special occasions.
9. I am too good at pampering my partner. (Sadly, which never got reciprocated).
10. I am a really (and I mean REALLY) good kisser.
11. His friends liked me. My friends never liked him.
12. He used to get more nervous than me while meeting me.
13. He could barely look into my eyes, seriously, never more than 2 seconds. I could see deception in his eyes easily sometimes. AND it was hella irritating to me when he couldn’t talk by maintaining eye contact for even a few seconds. It always hampered communication between us as I cannot talk without looking into someone’s eyes.
14. He was never loving or affectionate towards me. It was only one sided.
15. I tried to make him feel accountable for his wrongs n fought more than I did with anyone else.
16. He wanted to have sex with me, so that I could not be with someone, I fell in love with, after him. He knew about it. I had told him clearly about it. He just wanted to stay as the only one in my life even after treating me like the most worthless person of his life.
17. There was no love for him from my side after I told him that I had moved on (about 4 years ago).
18. We started off being good friends. And he ditched me even as a friend in the first 3 months of friendship only.
19. I am intimidating as fuck in real when I confront someone.
20. He had a lot of inferiority complexes soothing which I downplayed myself a lot and ended up boosting his ego a lot. He always underestimated my capabilities, I over-estimated many of his.
21. He was lowkey proud that I loved him and still made me feel worthless. PSYCHOPATH.
The point of sharing this is that if somebody’s ex tells you shit, you should confirm all that from that person unhesitantly. Why do you think that somebody becomes an Ex if they know someone really well n never lied??
You will always see a wrong doer/criminal/psycho doing something impressive right before and after doing something sneaky, so that nobody believes the victim or the consequences of the exposure of reality can be softened. It does not happen because the culprit has changed, it happens just to avoid the feelings of shame and punishment. It does not happen because the wrong was done in innocense, it happens because the culprit is clever and evil to put a veil on everything or anything wrong done to others.
Sorry for those who cannot see reality clearly,
Sorry for those who believe the glitters put over shit.
Softening up or having empathy for the culprit is indeed one of the ways to create injustice against the victim.
Keeping your eyes closed to the sickness will not vanish the sickness,
it always needs some medicine to be cured,
and unrecognized sickness can kill,
Both the sick one and many other innocent ones in the end if left uncured.
I hope you understand me by listening to your inner voice
Like I did for you
Without paying any heed to any outer noise.
Bravo to the toxic feminism and toxic feminists !
You are bound to be praising them all the time,
Not critizing a degree of any sick behaviour,
Even if you stand for your valid rights,
Speaking and showing up
For what you think
And what you want,
You are their enemy, women hater, you can’t raise your voice,
Nope ! You can’t !
Right when it hits the nerves of one,
It’s bound to make each one of their stomach churn
With ego and rage
Off to be shown on stage,
“We the women power
Out of men’s atrocities
Still bound in the biased mental cage.
We won’t let a woman talking out of the group,
Will try to shun her voice,
And show our toxic mentality
At the slightest hint of out-group activity on or off stage.”
I Think For All 