If my tears ever mattered,
You wouldn’t have let me cry,
If my smile ever mattered,
you would be here,
If my happiness ever mattered,
You wouldn’t have acted ignorant,
If I ever mattered,
You wouldn’t have left.
(Written in 2018 published on 6th sept, 2020)
Love will drift your mind to new places
Self-love will bring you to those places.
(Written on 2nd dec,2020)
5th feb,22- Some people never grow up. They stalk me, be in their onesie competition, and always think I am stalking them, whereas I literally do not give a shit. Her husband sending me hearts in comments on my blogs n stalking my fb, insta n website till date. And the whole group of dumbfucks still thinking that whatever I write or do is about AT. SERIOUSLY, WHAT THE FUCK?? GET A LIFE !!
24th march, 21-I literally never called her a BITCH before this, but it’s true that she is a Goddamned INSECURE BITCH who keeps on competing with me sneakily as well as openly just because her BoyFriend doesn’t like her that much and keeps on coming towards me from time to time.
“BITCH, I DON’T GIVE A SHIT TO YOU and I didn’t get close to him TO SAVE YOUR UNWORTHY RELATIONSHIP. If you two are really about to get married that you said last year’s feb, why are you so fucking insecure about yourself and your relationship that you always have to keep an eye over what I do, and then Compare just to have some ATTENTION??
Have some self-respect ! Either leave him completely, so that he can go to whom he actually wants, OR STOP YOUR LOW STANDARD INSECURE SHIT.
I have seen very few LOSERS LIKE YOU, saying this very disrespectfully, who keeps one man in loop in a committed relationship, flirts with another one by being sympathy-seeker, and tries to get praise and attention from other in whom someone (I) got interested, being highly envious of me.
Stop keeping an eye on and trying to get validation from everyone who is related to me just because you are AN INSECURE BITCH !!”
This post is just to thank everyone here who stays patient with me. Sometimes, I cannot interact via comments because I feel shut down due to personal reasons n find it difficult to talk to anyone. Sometimes, you all have to deal with my negative posts involving anguish described in anger n rage. My family as well has to deal with my furious nature. Although, it has reduced drastically in comparison to the last year but still I feel that nobody else than me deserves to deal with those vibes. The darkness should stay with the person to whom it belongs and be released too in a healthy way. I find writing and painting as the mediums to release the negativity that engulfs me, from which I am unable to release it through Art as I can only paint good stuff. It’s only through writing that I can release my worst of dark emotions, and it’s really very important for me to release anger, otherwise I get sick physically as well (fever n low immunity). So, I just want to thank you all (including my family) for being there in my lows as well, and not only in the times I write something good having some good vibes in it, full of love and beauty. You all are Amazing Ones..
Love and Blessing to You..💜💖
All the things I had to do for you
All the things I had to say to you
Have now stayed in my heart forever,
And I can’t blame only you
Because it’s true
That we could be many things
But we both chose to make it
Sweet from the outside,
Poison in heart n mind..
Friendly n fake from the front
Envy n enmity in cues I find..
Nothing annoys me more than the people who think that only one thing/one perspective exists just because they are MENTALLY BLIND to other perspectives or are doing those wrongs themselves to which they appear to be mentally blind, And then the same people sell their one directional thinking everywhere in the form of quotes and limit the thinking of other people too. Moreover, a few DUMBFUCKS think that they can influence someone’s independent and multi-perspective thinking with those quotes and through a few pages.
Do you really think that you can control someone with your limited SHIT who can think about more than ten perspectives for the same situation??
Many things are falling into place after so long,
Those who are meant to stay, are coming together,
Those who are meant to be away, are falling apart,
And that which hasn’t happened yet is about to happen,
It’s just about the right time,
Confessing, waiting and looking for the right time is truly a heart’s art.
You get on nerves of your haters even if you talk about love. They are energy vampires. They just want to suck the life out of you.
They bullshit on everything you think out loud or do.
They cannot see you being you.
They have no reason for hating you.
They just do.