If your happiness relies on this one thing..

If your happiness depends on someone else’s life’s events, actions n reactions AND what they write or do on social media, you are really fooling yourself. People do and say anything to get others engaged with their profiles. You be thinking that they have put their whole life n reality on social media accounts, whereas the reality may be completely the opposite as well as something that you can never apprehend.

Also, if you are happy just because someone else wrote something negative and/or some sad words, trust me, nobody is more pathetic and narcissistic than you, because it means that you love to suck others’ good energy and find pleasure in their bad/low times. Even if it satisfies you for a short-term, for the long run, you won’t get anything good and substancial in life, and you are actually and inherently a very miserable person.

(21st Dec, 2021)

Pitiful existence.

It’s true that those whom you consider dead be trying to get attention from you the most, either by abusing you or trying to copy/compete with you. For example, someone whom I had known from many years was begging me for some attention by sending me obnoxious sexual images on instagram, despite being married. Another example being of my so-called best friend (during 2013-2018) who helped many people, who had enmity against me, to frustrate and/or compete with me, so that I could not live peacefully.

Of course, nothing about such people, whom I have already considered dead, matters to me when their character and vibe is dirtier than shit itself. But, sometimes I really sympathise with people who deal with such psychopaths and their partners who have to stay by their side just because those psychopaths tricked them with their manipulation.

I really think sometimes what a punishment it is to have an existence like that. WHAT A PITY !!

Masked..

Sweet from the outside,

Poison in heart n mind..

Friendly n fake from the front

Envy n enmity in cues I find..

21 things you probably couldn’t know from my ex.

Things my ex might have never told you:

1. I parallel park the car well.

2. He was not sapiosexual. He actually once said that he did not want this much intelligent girl like me for marriage.

3. I am quite spontaneous when it comes to dates. Wherever you want to go, I am ready to go there even in the middle of a cozy date.

4. I stay anxious for the first 5-10 minutes no matter how many times I have met you or how much comfortable I am with you.

5. I never told him ‘I love you’ in real, or say, face to face. [I have actually never said these words to any single person in real. Just couldn’t.]

6. Non-consensual foreplay doesn’t mean sex. Yup, I never did it. Doing only this much n this way was his definition of sex, not mine, it’s not even considered so generally. And yes, I didn’t even want to do that n he knew it. It was a mistake n there were deeper emotional reasons behind it related to someone else. I was not in love with my ex. I had moved on long before that.

7. I pay equally on dates.

8. I love to give gifts on special occasions.

9. I am too good at pampering my partner. (Sadly, which never got reciprocated).

10. I am a really (and I mean REALLY) good kisser.

11. His friends liked me. My friends never liked him.

12. He used to get more nervous than me while meeting me.

13. He could barely look into my eyes, seriously, never more than 2 seconds. I could see deception in his eyes easily sometimes. AND it was hella irritating to me when he couldn’t talk by maintaining eye contact for even a few seconds. It always hampered communication between us as I cannot talk without looking into someone’s eyes.

14. He was never loving or affectionate towards me. It was only one sided.

15. I tried to make him feel accountable for his wrongs n fought more than I did with anyone else.

16. He wanted to have sex with me, so that I could not be with someone, I fell in love with, after him. He knew about it. I had told him clearly about it. He just wanted to stay as the only one in my life even after treating me like the most worthless person of his life.

17. There was no love for him from my side after I told him that I had moved on (about 4 years ago).

18. We started off being good friends. And he ditched me even as a friend in the first 3 months of friendship only.

19. I am intimidating as fuck in real when I confront someone.

20. He had a lot of inferiority complexes soothing which I downplayed myself a lot and ended up boosting his ego a lot. He always underestimated my capabilities, I over-estimated many of his.

21. He was lowkey proud that I loved him and still made me feel worthless. PSYCHOPATH.

The point of sharing this is that if somebody’s ex tells you shit, you should confirm all that from that person unhesitantly. Why do you think that somebody becomes an Ex if they know someone really well n never lied??

Experience against a psychopath.

If a psychopath has a crush on me, I am not the problem at all.

Psychopaths do have unattainable goals be it any person; it aggrandizes their fragile ego in case they succeed in getting that person and to get that high/reach that peak, they keep chasing that person hiding the agenda from everyone and even using their own so-called friends without even letting them know and those poor fellows innocently do everything on the whims of that psychopath.

I have strong intuition. Most of the times, as I have judged anyone, it has proved to be true with time and sometimes it has begun being obvious to others as well. So, definitely, my mind works really well, it’s only an envious psychopath who tries to twist things about n around me so that others find me as the problematic one.

LOGICAL PRESUMPTIONS.

If you are happy on somebody hating another,

You are stupid; (none of them has anything to do with you)

If you are jealous of somebody loving another,

You are weak; (one of them has definitely nothing to do with you)

If you are envious of somebody’s self-love,

You are an undiagnosed psychopath. (Nobody has anything to do with you)