When you break somebody’s big ego, he/she will do anything in his/her capability to strengthen it again. No stone will be left unturned. Every fiber of that person’s being will call him/her to retaliate with anything and everything possible. Physical qualities, mental capabilities, charm, social influence, even misery will be displayed. This is the power and reaction of a fragile ego.
But it does not know the strength of self-respect. Self-respect does not compete and one cannot lose what one doesn’t compete for. Self-respect does not break, it is such a little part of one’s personality yet so strong like a diamond that it cannot be broken. Self-respect does not do anything to bring itself back to normal, it doesn’t actually need to because it’s unshakeable, calm and compost. And last but not the least, self-respect is so strong that it can break the biggest and strongest of ego.
Why she has to stand tall,
She has learnt it the hard way.
She knows no tireness,
She knows no emotions,
She knows no relations,
She knows no remorse,
is all they think or say.
They see the obvious no doubt,
She chooses to show this side,
How indignant she felt at their thoughts,
She mostly chose to hide.
The times she showed remorse,
It was swayed with jestly innuendo;
The times she showed any emotion,
It was numbed with somebody else’s illusive emo-crescendo;
The times she showed tireness,
She was deemed to not rest but grind;
The times she valued relations,
She only got disappointments and no one of her kind.
Stars and sky make me feel why
You’re gone to dusk
Any light, illuminating earthy life
appreciates slumber to you
Dark and daunting, to anybody is haunting
is your life’s greatest treasure.
Darkness in the souls
Needing shine of the sun to bathe in
Find slumber in the dusk.
When you seek the light
you know darkness has it
though faraway, in the farthest skies
You see through it,
like free-flowing soul, through the universe
there in the night skies lies shining bright light.
Reality wants stark nakedness,
Its foes want it to be poise,
The poise being another tact,
So that truth couldn’t make a noise.
They urge control on it, needing it to slumber,
shackling it in an unseen corner of mind,
It has the purity, the depth, and the calmth,
to be unheard and still thrive in its purest kind.
They were breathing love,
with the calmness of the night ocean.
Their feelings like free birds,
were guiling every boundary.
Beknown of everything but the fate of love,
feeling the rain of every emotion;
not taking the vows of world absurd,
reigning thoughts of the otherwise, coming secondary.
He had his own reasons,
that he didn’t let me know.
The trust he could have in me,
he could never stow.
I know him but never let him know,
He knows me but the level of depth
he has reached in me though.
He could bestow me with the truth
but chose to leave in chaos,
that’s the stand that I could never uncross. He anticipates me full of love, withering himself away from that art.
I understand him in my heart
but those unsaid rumblings work as dart.
The one who never came,
Beseeched my soul.
With a few unasked questions,
He thought he never made a foul.
I needed freedom,
Freedom, with him, to be bound.
An unquenched thirst,
Whose elixir I haven’t found.
We often run after things that are difficult to get. That’s a basic human instinct. Grow a little more spiritually and enjoy things that you presently have because in the past you didn’t have even that and when you will get things that you are running after, you won’t be satisfied again.
You left me like I didn’t matter!!
You miss me like I do??
Whatever is confusing me,
is only because of you !!
You made me love, you made me wonder,
You made me shiver, like you were a thunder..!
You loved, you kissed
and then, you left me and missed !!
I tried and cried,
I gulped all my ego and pride !
You made me yours and then left me on my own,
and now you think you don’t deserve any frown??
My feelings were only for you,
but they are no more;
because you treated me
like a yet another score !!
I couldn’t lose you,
but I lost..
That feeling that you gave me,
made me frost !!
Only thing now I feel I have lost is,
to know how to trust..
Still, I have faith in love
and that I must !!