Lonely

I like it when you are lonely. That is my favourite place for you. When we first meet if you make mention of feeling lonely, or send a self-pitying tweet decrying your loneliness then I am straight on to you. You may as well have taken a knife to your chest, slit it open […]

Lonely

The exact thinking of a narcissist. I have not seen a single victim whose friends or family have not been reached by a narc or whom narc did not surround with his own friend circle. You can actually visualise a normal innocent person standing inside of a circle of a narc’s friends, unable to escape ever. The boundary of the enclosure is adjusted according to the behaviour of the victim. If the victim acts according to the narc, giving him all the narcissistic supply, then the area of the circle is widened, so that the victim can feel like having freedom. But be wary, it is just a false sense of freedom, the victim just doesn’t know where the boundary is set by the narc but slowly and steadily (which may take years) the victim starts feeling that something is wrong, like somebody is pushing triggering buttons and pulling emotional strings when the victim does anything with a free will. Some victims never get to know who that person is. Those who get to know are then discarded by the narc in ways incomprehensible and shocking ways (a different topic) to the victim like a rug got pulled out below the feet. If the victim is impressive to everyone but meek, coy and obedient to the narcissist, this is the perfect dynamic to the narc. If somebody does not show off or others do not know about their achievements, then discarding happens instantly. If somebody is impressive to others and the narc as well, then Love Bombing (a different topic) begins in the initial stages to attract the victim; in the later stages, to pull the victim back into that enclosure of narc and his flying monkeys. Beware, some so-called flying monkeys do not even know that they are being so. Some may be genuine people intricately manipulated by the narc and his similar narcissist allies (different topic). The victims do not get to know from where they are being attacked mentally, emotionally and sometimes physically as well, that’s gaslighting (different topic). Gaslighting the victim inside that enclosure is the perfect dynamic in which either narc can control the victim completely by giving a little bit of attention or affection by himself or by his flying monkeys here and there; or during devaluation the victim is called “crazy” or “psychopath” or “anti-social” or will be called names whatever can work to hit the psyche of the victim to make the victim feel lonely, that too, IN WAYS IN WHICH ANY THIRD PERSON CANNOT KNOW THAT IT’S THE NARC WHO IS SAYING ALL THAT (Hiding his identity during all the criminalistic and psychopathic activities is a narcissist’s biggest trait), and then all those flying monkeys are pulled back in order to make the victim that there is something wrong in their behaviour and to make the victim feel lonely. Even if the victim asks a few of the allies of narc on suspicion of something wrong happening, they try to shun off the victim’s voice and ask “WHAT’S WRONG WITH YOU??” No wonder the victim will be called crazy for hundreds of times, but Never Publically because that will actually spoil the Fake Image maintained by the narcissist and those who have been helping him under the guise of his fake image will stop helping him for controlling the victim. The whole idea is to control the victim anyhow so that due to loneliness, the victim runs to the narcissist most of the times for support (or to his flying monkeys).

ADVICE:

●Take the cues of being manipulated. Observe when some of your near and dear ones begin to act out of their character that you used to know before.

●Observe keenly before and after what action of whom you get to have reactions from whom and with what tone.

●Observe who jokes in what tone at what time and who questions you about which things (what is unacceptable to you is the key here).

●VERY IMPORTANT: Talk to a trusted family member, as well as a friend, and if possible (which is the best option) talk to a psychotherapist ept in behavioural therapies and who knows about narcissism as well.

●Talk about it openly. Break the chain/circle created by the narcissist around you. Do not trust anyone unless and until somebody tells you the truth that you want to know. Test them by asking about things that you already know and you know that they also know, then you’ll know who is lying and is a part of that circle.

●Do not care about your image. They are still a very few people who maintain a fake image, and you are real. The world is quite big, you will find your tribe some day.

●Once you know who is the culprit and who are the allies, do not change your mind of removing those people from your life. The narcissist never changes as it is an incurable mental disease. Some fluctuations may occur with time and circumstances but that’s about it; the allies are either narcissists themselves, not that much to you though and even in case they are not narcs, they are not your well-wishers, they are narc’s friends, and those who became his allies under the guise of his innocense cannot be trusted as they can be easily manipulated by anyone and as a result can help anyone in manipulating you as well.

●Stay strong. It’s okay to be alone than being in a bad company. Weak people are often found in groups. Even if your precious time got ruined in the narcissistic cycle, it’s still better than ruining your whole life by going back to the same people undeserving of anything from your side.

(First published on 27th sept, 2020)

Jealous Ugly Aunty

Posted on a page I follow on fb to provoke me.

It’s always that one Ugly Aunty (ugly by face 🤮 and uglier by soul 🤮🤮) who thinks that your pictures are edited just because that Bitch is burning with envy. Oh..that ugly aunty is a male by nature’s fault.

“Keep burning. I can’t change my face to match your shit-ass ugly face. 🤢🤢 Nor I am going to give any proof in the form of a new click to accept or contradict your toxic provocation. Stay A Bitch. Nobody gives a Fuck. 🤡”

Loud is mostly a reaction, real abuse and provocation is mostly secret, silent, and in the cues..

(20th April, 2021)

If your happiness relies on this one thing..

If your happiness depends on someone else’s life’s events, actions n reactions AND what they write or do on social media, you are really fooling yourself. People do and say anything to get others engaged with their profiles. You be thinking that they have put their whole life n reality on social media accounts, whereas the reality may be completely the opposite as well as something that you can never apprehend.

Also, if you are happy just because someone else wrote something negative and/or some sad words, trust me, nobody is more pathetic and narcissistic than you, because it means that you love to suck others’ good energy and find pleasure in their bad/low times. Even if it satisfies you for a short-term, for the long run, you won’t get anything good and substancial in life, and you are actually and inherently a very miserable person.

(21st Dec, 2021)

Low Vibrational Bitch

You can feel yourself getting physicaply weak and ill whenever you get affected by a Low Vibrational BITCH. Your energy drops drastically with constant triangulation but that non-deserving narcissistic bitch who still wants to enter your life somehow even after putting you down just because of innate envy of why are you living peacefully without that piece of shitm It’s a dynamic of 4 years by now in my life.

How come you got to know about it??

A toxic bitch who owns a page named W…g…o…c..l be always stalking me on this website and my quotes page and says something obnoxious every now n then, And if I write something about it or even if not directed at that, that bitch uses a Failed manipulative tactic of turning the table by saying “My posts are not directed at anybody but if the shoe fits you.. Wear it Cindrella.”

How come she always come up with this quotes after I react to her bullshit??

“I don’t try to fit in your useless shoe, I slap your ugly face with that shit..YOU CINDREFUCKING HOE ! Now take it n shove it up your arse..🖕

AND That’s it for now n forever. Read it and carry on with your miserable mind n miserable life. I know you’ll read it. 😉

(NOTE: I apologize to the other readers of this post for the language used..Some toxic people deserve it. I am not fond of this kind of posts but when it goes over the top, I do have to shut those psychopaths up ! Kindly co-operate.)

Convincing my mind- Speaking Up.

A lot of the times, I have to make my own mind convinced that those who have not studied Law, don’t get the Principle of Things as much as those who have studied it, and those who have not studied psychology really cannot understand the tactics of manipulation, realness and worn mask for Image Maintenance; And those who have studied both, really know the means and effects of PROVOCATION.

So yeah, people can Bitch about me behind my back, take the wrong side all the time or be toxic to me despite me suffering the dirty mind games of someone else, Still, in the end, I find contentment in that my Character is much much stronger than anyone’s fake image.

Anyone who has studied n has experience in both of these can straight up tell the difference.

And, coming onto social and peer pressure, I am an acer at standing alone and against the crowd who doesn’t get the principle of things.

If even after me suffering from mental turmoil and offended boundaries and being Provoked continuously, anyone is going to call me Toxic for reacting to the Shit a Bitch was throwing at me, those who Bitch behind my Back are also the same Toxic Bitches, they never know better and are only happy in their own Delusioned Little World of Fake Ass Shit !!

Nevermind ! I know how to handle such Bitches who first waste my time and energy and then ACT like the Goody-Good to gain validation and sympathy only, when I try to return their Trash Energy. ALAS ! returning that toxic shit is too Taxing on my mental n physical health. I am sure that such a Bitch has nothing important to do in her life, but My Every Single Minute Is Valuable as only I know what it entails to me.

(Original posting date: 20th april,2021)

OFFENSIVE AND DRAINING NARCISSISTIC, INEFFICIENT AND TOXIC WOMAN.

I have Ideas, Stamina and Courage in Abundance,

But toxicity of a narcissistic crap drains me like nothing else and is intolerable.

(I had made the video of my digital artwork and had uploaded it on my youtube channel today morning, and one reels on instagram in the evening of a different artwork, THE IDEA which has been DIRECTLY COPIED by a Toxic Woman. You may think that I am complaining, and yes, I am, and it is because IDEAS ARE PRECIOUS. Ideas make patents and copyrights. MY IDEAS BEING STOLEN, that too, in ARTWORK, which is considered A Unique Area, is outrightly OFFENSIVE. That woman, Kritika, wants to Offend many of my Boundaries, that too, to annoy me and seem like a Better One Subliminally. But, ENCROACHING UPON MY IDEAS IS OUTRIGHTLY AN OFFENCE. I Could Use Filthy Words As Well But That Woman And Her Mind Is A PURE FILTH On Its Own, No Matter How Much She Fakes Her Behaviour, Her Disgusting Mentality Is Quite Obvious To Those Whose Boundaries She offends And To Those Who Can Observe Objectively.)

DIGITAL PAINTING VIDEO ON YOUTUBE

INSTAGRAM REELS LINK

These two are the proofs that I did it first and the ideas have been stolen somehow.

Who is toxic and victim player??

AND ON THE TOP OF IT, if you complain or expose them, they say that you have been playing the victim and are the toxic one because you have created a scene and have been talking shit.

Here, you are not ‘playing the victim‘, YOU ARE THE REAL VICTIM which a NARCISSIST WOULD NEVER ADMIT TO.

The SHIT you are talking about is actually THE SHIT THE NARCISSIST IS AND THE SHIT THE NARCISSIST DID TO YOU.

The TOXIC ONE is the NARCISSIST who did that toxic shit to you sneakily and you just talked about the TOXICITY. Talking about toxicity does not make anyone toxic.

Last but not the least, when you bring out about the toxicity of a narcissist to others, you are bound to be called the toxic one and the victim player and the negative, crazy one. But remember this thing, a narcissist will always be the last one to look crazy. It’s always the victim who looks crazy but actually it’s the narcissist who is doing everything crazy behind the scene. AND when you look crazy to everyone, the narcissist will behave like the victim telling everyone that you have always been toxic because now he knows that everyone has seen your crazy side and nobody has seen his toxic side, and thus it’s very easy for him to actually play the victim.

ILLUSTRATION: think about a criminal who did hurt or committed grievous hurt to someone and started calling the victim a criminal who is playing the victim just because the victim complained about the criminal and is angry and crying and exposing him in front of everyone.

Now, take that criminal in the civil settings and the hurt or grievous hurt as the psychological one. YES ! NARCISSISTS ARE PSYCHOLOGICAL CRIMINALS SOME OF WHOM ACTUALLY ARE ALSO THE REAL CRIMINALS WHO HAVEN’T GOTTEN CAUGHT YET.

Stance with a third party in my so-called relationships.

Some women (the other party in case of a guy) be always thinking that they be winning in getting him, being completely oblivious to the fact that how relieving it has always been to me to get rid of such a nasty burden from my life. I have never competed with any such woman. I never compete in and for relationships. “The guy who is a psychopath, makes you feel once in a while like he gave himself (as a Trophy) to you, in a competition created by him, so that he can take advantage of you and the reason here is that he knows how weak you are mentally and how much you need validation even from a piece of shit like him. Thus, he keeps you tied to his little finger, pushing you n pulling your emotional strings, whenever he desires as he knows how weak you are who can dance to a tunes of his stupidity, over-cleverness n psychopathy. I may be exasperated for the fact that he be still hovering in my life directly or indirectly to influence my mind, either trying to connect back to me or just to get some attention (if not positive, then negative) or to spoil my life in any way so that he can win in his self-created one-sided competition. That exasperation which is actually due to the reason that he doesn’t get out of my life is portrayed to you that I want him but he is coming back to you, to make you look like the winner all the while thinking that you are a bloody foolish woman who is dancing to his whims n caprices or he may make you feel like his Queen/wife/love only for a short time (a very short time) until he gets another woman target or gets one back from the past who left him.”

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