MINE 💜

Kill or be killed for you

Kind of a person.

(Original publishing date: 05 Dec, 2020)

Miss__communicated.

Honestly, I am more disappointed with myself rather than disappointed with him for taking him as having good intentions at last, despite knowing the reality of his character for years.

Some dynamics stay the same,

Don’t blame the events,

When energy can be nothing but the same,

Forgiveness is a good virtue

Not for those having no sense of accountability

Or who just like to slip away

without any apology

They are toxic

No matter if you wanted to keep them close

Or if you did let them stay away.

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My sleeplessness and nightmares are in constant battle

Of ‘which state is painful more.’

Commode.

I am in this habit

Of sitting in toilet for as long as it becomes unbearable the stink

So that I realize for how long I have been sitting on shit

And that it’s not the place to keep sitting on

Flush it off

Move out

The same in life be it.

Him and I, From a wolf tribe.

A lone wolf is my spirit’s drive,

Embracing my wilderness,

Claiming my authenticity,

Silent, calm and compost and scarcely seething angry,

Working all alone,

I am sure some day I will meet the one,

Honest, righteous and success hungry,

Whose frequency matches with my vibe,

I will meet the one from my own soul tribe.

Dark plans-1.

My mind works as an ultimate planner,

My deepest desire to die as young as possible

To get rid of that shit filled world

To get out of this worldly chaos

People inflitrating others’ life

just to give them a hit on the head or on their psyche a hold

I plan in my headspace to go on

An adventure to turn into a misadventure

Solo flying high for one last time

Not opening the parachute

And then deep in the ocean with the last dive,

Feeling my every breath leaving my body

Suffocating myself to my last breath of this suffocating life

Ending every kind of strife

Feels so good my ultimate plan to die.

To an unknown soul.

I know you are getting attracted to me,

Way too much,

Just like I am,

Craving for your touch.

Not a difficult one..

I am not difficult

I have just learnt it the hard way that

People make you do things

Then blame you for doing the same things.

So, I just don’t mend my ways to their demands,

May they consider rude my reprimands.

Silly though, they don’t know what they themselves want,

But want you to adhere to their wishes..

Not sorry, I say not obliged to your demands.

Judgements.

When their judgements don’t stop about your thoughts,

You have to stop your thoughts about their judgements.

A positive thought. ❤

You know the fate is on your side,

When good people are on your side,

When even strangers care,

You are gaining abundance I swear.