Twin-flames love feels right..

We are so similar in many ways,

We can’t hurt the good ones, sometimes even the bad get the good side,

but won’t mind hurting anyone by hitting them with the truth or be distant to protect our sanity,

We have our reasons that we keep from the world,

We hide our emotions, emotions run deep but logic rules behaviour to stay away from others’ insanity,

Affectionate with the right ones, self-respect on top,

I show my sensibility to the whole world, hide my childlike nature,

You show your childlike nature to the world, hide your sensible nature,

We say what we mean and mean what we say,

straight to the point,

no mind games,

Wild at heart, mind dark and twisted,

Persona full of spark with the right ones and trusted,

Passion, anger, lust and love, the similar kind,

And that thirst for knowledge,

Must have been called wierdos by many

Who couldn’t understand,

Wanderers, unaware and not afraid of the uncertain,

Neither liking to control others, nor wanna be chained,

We just show and hide our natures differently,

Still too similar,

I think this is what is Twin Flames named.

That connection was not wrong,

That bond being natural thus right,

We are sentimental,

For understanding each-other we don’t have to fight.

I don’t care if the future is dark or bright,

I will still love you without expectations

Because I know this love is right.

(17th Jan, 2020)

Why so dark?

Colours brightened all over the sky

Make me wonder why

If life is limited

as it really is

Why darkness is so deep rooted.

(27th Nov, 2020)

Switched off intuition and confused myself..

I tried to switch off intuition

and now I am all perplexed,

I do feel the things in a certain way

trying to grasp the ‘why’s of everything,

Even while moving through the ruffled waters

I know where I am going

my intuition guides me my lane,

Now when I have switched it off I am feeling so low,

Feeling things, not vibes, in a confused way,

I don’t know what’s going where, like I am driving myself insane.

I think I turned against the nature,

Putting off something that makes the basic me,

That’s why the nature is punishing me,

The need is not to not feel things I am getting this now,

The need is to feel and be guided by my intuition and still be rational somehow.

(First published on 9th Jan, 2020)

My personal obsessions.

Do you have strange attractions or obsessions for certain things/objects??

I have a few of them apart from the water bodies, mountains, sky and nature in general. Here is the list,

1. Different kinds of money notes- From Rupee one to any amount of any currency, I feel like having all kinds of notes.

2. Buttons– I just love fancy buttons; colourful, sparkling, glittery, smooth, coarse (I mean different textures). The more diverse, the better.

3. Gems, Crystals and stones- Almost all kinds of gems; more than that crystals and crystal crockery is love. Stones generally which can be found on the river bank or sea shore, having different textures and colours. Transparent ones are the most attractive. I don’t like sea-shells though (eewwww, why would you carry a part of an animal with you??).

4. Sparkles– The stationery glitters and sparkles. I guess many people love that.

5. Colours– Not on anything but powdered colours, as simple as that. The more diverse, the more brightly hued, the better.

6. Flowers and herbs– All kinds of flowers are lovely, red roses are my most favourite though. I want to have my own botanical garden having a varied amount of herbs and flowers in it.

7. Stationery products– Honestly, it’s hard to stop myself from buying a stationery product whenever I go to the market or anybody from my family goes to the market. How can I not like a beautiful eraser, pen, pencil or notebook?? I have had a lot of notebooks and I still have this obssession of using a new one for writing something new.

8. Schedulers– I love to manage time and I love to have a few different kinds of schedulers for all of my activities. They range from exercise and food to work and study, in terms of days,calculating everything in terms of hours,days, weeks n months. I am literally obssessed with planning, organising and managing time and energy.

9. Lights– Be them colourful or white, I just love lights and lighting instruments, from simplest ones like a lamp made of mud to the fanciest ones like a big chandelier full of crystals.

Couldn’t think of other obssessions yet.

Oh yeah..Obssessed with my partner, in case I have one. 😜

(First published on 15th June, 2020)

Dark plans-1.

My mind works as an ultimate planner,

My deepest desire to die as young as possible

To get rid of that shit filled world

To get out of this worldly chaos

People inflitrating others’ life

just to give them a hit on the head or on their psyche a hold

I plan in my headspace to go on

An adventure to turn into a misadventure

Solo flying high for one last time

Not opening the parachute

And then deep in the ocean with the last dive,

Feeling my every breath leaving my body

Suffocating myself to my last breath of this suffocating life

Ending every kind of strife

Feels so good my ultimate plan to die.

To my Karma..🙏

Oh my darling Karma,

I have learnt my lessons really well,

If you are going to indulge me with the same old strife

Just to make the pending karma of others with me gel,

I request you to make them eat their own shit

I am sure they have of it a big deep well

Not interested in taking any friend guised foe in my life again,

Even if it’s written by you they have to pay for my pain,

Throw them far away

Don’t indulge them in my life again.

Why man..why? 😂

You become both happy and afraid even at the hint of me having any feeling for you or when you know I care..Should I laugh or get angry at that? Why so afraid?

And then I think, “Nevermind. Keep moving. This condition has no end or aid.”

Who cares?

You’d say you care,

I’d say I don’t,

Still when the reality hit the thought,

I’d care

And you won’t.

I create, don’t hate.

I create and create,

They think I hate,

That must be some anger

For the numbing tragedies of my fate

Whereas I know only how to love

I am profoundly peaceful to others

Though you might hold its symbol dove.

To the reader.

Whosoever is reading this,

Whosoever is feeling over-whelmed,

I own my feelings,

I am into an emotion,

I am very strong

I have loved with devotion,

If it irritates you or makes you feel over-whelmed,

I am not sorry for that,

Maybe more than me,

You need to have caution,

For I have lived

What you have just read

If you cannot bear that

You think I can stop my flow in its motion??

I feel things not once in a while

Just like you

That resides in me that humanly emotional sanity,

In case you have other world view,

Still don’t look at my feelings as profanity.