FIRST MEETING..

Oh..Now I understand what I am feeling,

And why I am feeling it today,

Exactly an year ago we met for the first time,

I in red and you in black,

I was happy, really happy to see you

Quarter past five was the time,

Your first words were Pi Hi,

“Oh so rhythmic” I thought 😂

Trying to gulp my laughter in a nick of time,

And then that cute cuddly hug,

I loved your friendly way,

Not finding any place in the cafe, so crowded,

You found some other place to reach,

Driving oh so slow intently,

Gleefully n gay,

Trust me, I love high speed driving

I was getting irritated but it was too awkward to say 😂

But how you were doing it, loud music, slow pace, goggles on, I simply loved your swaggy way,

And then you started testing my knowledge,

I knew the answers,

You wanted me to speak up but I hardly had anything else to say,

Let me digest that we have finally met

One year four months after chit-chatting n flirting

“Really this long??” My mind got to sway.

You were really really sweet,

A bit testing, opinionated and sensible too,

Why so like me? I just don’t say things and you do.

You and your black coffee,

I read the disappointment on your face

When I didn’t exchange our different coffee to taste,

I did it on purpose,

I wanted to test how you handle a disappointment,

Pretty good in that too,

I got it you don’t behave in haste.

I know you thought I was nervous

More than I could infer,

Though I was not and never with you,

My thoughts were running around observing you silently,

I was liking you so much

And your talk

And your smile in between was a comfort.

Ah..Then came the time to say goodbye,

First you on purpose, then me on purpose,

Insisted you to drop me at my place 😂

Dirty thoughts in your mind on the way,

And lots of laughter due to that in my headspace 🤣

“Yay.. nothing’s gonna happen,

What’s up in store about it after this,”

Was what was ruling my mind,

“Let’s not get intimate so early,

I don’t want this relation of that kind.”

But when the time came to part ways,

Right in front of my door,

And you just hugged and kissed me

Sweetly yet out of a sudden;

Oh man, did you evoke something in me,

I can’t describe it, that fire,

First meeting, sweet beginning, turned into something hot and me rudden.

But you remained a gentleman all throughtout the meeting,

And I did have to behave like a lady,

Yeah.. We had to,

Because there was nothing else we could do, not that we could never,

We could but not that day,

That day I didn’t know

But I got something for you,

Something to stay with me forever. ❤

HARD LESSON.

I have learnt one thing in life,

The real victim will always be dying for the truth to come out,

The culprits will always have a group to hide it behind.

Those girls.

If you ever think that only guys play games in relationships,

You are so wrong,

I have seen girls in my life

Who have stalked the hell to the T

Just to keep an upper hand over me,

So that whenever it gets inconvenient to them,

They can use their weapon of emotions,

Showing one thing here, another there,

Living their life to the full,

Not letting the guy go anywhere.

EGO-BREAK.

Some seem like having a brutal heart-break,

Don’t be confused,

It can only be an EGO-BREAK,

Many symptoms are quite similar,

Don’t be fooled.

Commode.

I am in this habit

Of sitting in toilet for as long as it becomes unbearable the stink

So that I realize for how long I have been sitting on shit

And that it’s not the place to keep sitting on

Flush it off

Move out

The same in life be it.

Dark plans-1.

My mind works as an ultimate planner,

My deepest desire to die as young as possible

To get rid of that shit filled world

To get out of this worldly chaos

People inflitrating others’ life

just to give them a hit on the head or on their psyche a hold

I plan in my headspace to go on

An adventure to turn into a misadventure

Solo flying high for one last time

Not opening the parachute

And then deep in the ocean with the last dive,

Feeling my every breath leaving my body

Suffocating myself to my last breath of this suffocating life

Ending every kind of strife

Feels so good my ultimate plan to die.

A positive thought. ❤

You know the fate is on your side,

When good people are on your side,

When even strangers care,

You are gaining abundance I swear.

To my Karma..🙏

Oh my darling Karma,

I have learnt my lessons really well,

If you are going to indulge me with the same old strife

Just to make the pending karma of others with me gel,

I request you to make them eat their own shit

I am sure they have of it a big deep well

Not interested in taking any friend guised foe in my life again,

Even if it’s written by you they have to pay for my pain,

Throw them far away

Don’t indulge them in my life again.

Why man..why? 😂

You become both happy and afraid even at the hint of me having any feeling for you or when you know I care..Should I laugh or get angry at that? Why so afraid?

And then I think, “Nevermind. Keep moving. This condition has no end or aid.”

Who cares?

You’d say you care,

I’d say I don’t,

Still when the reality hit the thought,

I’d care

And you won’t.

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