My personal obsessions.

Do you have strange attractions or obsessions for certain things/objects??

I have a few of them apart from the water bodies, mountains, sky and nature in general. Here is the list,

1. Different kinds of money notes- From Rupee one to any amount of any currency, I feel like having all kinds of notes.

2. Buttons– I just love fancy buttons; colourful, sparkling, glittery, smooth, coarse (I mean different textures). The more diverse, the better.

3. Gems, Crystals and stones- Almost all kinds of gems; more than that crystals and crystal crockery is love. Stones generally which can be found on the river bank or sea shore, having different textures and colours. Transparent ones are the most attractive. I don’t like sea-shells though (eewwww, why would you carry a part of an animal with you??).

4. Sparkles– The stationery glitters and sparkles. I guess many people love that.

5. Colours– Not on anything but powdered colours, as simple as that. The more diverse, the more brightly hued, the better.

6. Flowers and herbs– All kinds of flowers are lovely, red roses are my most favourite though. I want to have my own botanical garden having a varied amount of herbs and flowers in it.

7. Stationery products– Honestly, it’s hard to stop myself from buying a stationery product whenever I go to the market or anybody from my family goes to the market. How can I not like a beautiful eraser, pen, pencil or notebook?? I have had a lot of notebooks and I still have this obssession of using a new one for writing something new.

8. Schedulers– I love to manage time and I love to have a few different kinds of schedulers for all of my activities. They range from exercise and food to work and study, in terms of days,calculating everything in terms of hours,days, weeks n months. I am literally obssessed with planning, organising and managing time and energy.

9. Lights– Be them colourful or white, I just love lights and lighting instruments, from simplest ones like a lamp made of mud to the fanciest ones like a big chandelier full of crystals.

Couldn’t think of other obssessions yet.

Oh yeah..Obssessed with my partner, in case I have one. 😜

Toxic feminism.

Bravo to the toxic feminism and toxic feminists !

You are bound to be praising them all the time,

Not critizing a degree of any sick behaviour,

Even if you stand for your valid rights,

Speaking and showing up

For what you think

And what you want,

You are their enemy, women hater, you can’t raise your voice,

Nope ! You can’t !

Right when it hits the nerves of one,

It’s bound to make each one of their stomach churn

With ego and rage

Off to be shown on stage,

“We the women power

Out of men’s atrocities

Still bound in the biased mental cage.

We won’t let a woman talking out of the group,

Will try to shun her voice,

And show our toxic mentality

At the slightest hint of out-group activity on or off stage.”

Pioneer of my own life.

I cannot explain this enough

how much I hate to be defensive

And explain my actions

As well as inaction..

Assume whatever

But keep it to yourself;

This is for whosoever

I came or will come into interaction;

I repeat

I owe nobody any explanation

For what I do

Or feel the need to show it off,

Although I may do it in fraction,

But I do everything to my standards’ satisfaction,

I steer my life in my own way,

I know what I did, doing and will do,

I don’t need from anybody else a single direction.

Amphan affected villages news broadcasting agencies- Have some sympathy !

What I don’t get about news channels is that they show you that a village inhabitants lost their homes and hearth and did not get even food for days, etc. but they do not show even the courtesy of making them the food available for even one time???? “Get out of your hypocracy. Government is good to be blamed but you neither have any humanity. What’s so difficult in providing food to about 40-50 people when you carry loads of your cameras, machines and other bulks alongwith your whole team in big vehicles?? You reach them before anybody else for channels that earn millions of bucks, cannot you lend a helping hand even for a small fraction of neccesity?? Get paid later on by the government but don’t be that shallow..”

And hats off (sardonically) to both the central and the state governments for not having good enough disaster management skills.

EID MUBARAK TO ALL ❤

EID AL FITR.. One of my most favourite festivals, a day n night bestowed with harmony, prayers and every pious feeling of oneness with the universe maker (you call him Allah, I just don’t use any word being apparently atheist). This festival has such feel good, peaceful vibes. Oh ! Not to forget to mention the feast. Last year we made sewaiyan (vermicelli cooked in milk n condensed milk alongwith dry fruits etc.) with other things (don’t want to mention).

Moreover, the importance of moon in it just raises the spiritual vibe to a whole new level.

Sadly, this year we could not celebrate due to a familial sorrow. But I hope that you celebrate it by heart and stay blessed.

Creepy authoritarians.

China is the most sickening nation,

Quite literally,

Mentally as well as physically.

Their leaders know only bloodshed,

From the red revolution

To the almost dictatorial yet so called democratic one party rule,

From the first international recognition grant

To the back-stabbing at the same nation (india),

From the high ideals remarked in panchsheel

To abusing the boundaries time and again,

From taking control from imperialist forces

To becoming itself an imperialistic force,

From fake products, fake promises, fake agendas,

To covid-19 and military attacks,

China is sickening to the core.

Spill the beans.

You cannot have any secret

intense enough

to shake me.

Heights of anxiety-Part 1

When in a video, they cut the centrally chocolate filled volcano cake on a small plate and the chocolate just reaches the edge of the plate,

Do they have any idea how much anxious it makes one feel??

*irresponsible behaviour*

The difference.

Whole of my life I used to be afraid that if somebody would understand me, they will take advantage of me;

Now I think if somebody would understand me, they would run to the hills before trying to take advantage of me.

Anyone else??

Is there anyone else who ends up doing what they hate to do and master skills that they don’t even want to begin with ever??

I just want to find people like me.