Daaaarkkkkk Empaaath 😈

I am a dark empath,

You will never get out of my claws,

Emotional manipulation,

And superiority complex;

I am too good to be true

with what I show you

Devoid of any flaws,

I know when you need me

I really know when you do,

With the facade of a help

I am encaging you

from where I want you to see me n only me

Or into a lonely abyss you will see no one else found

I am your one n only saviour, friend n philosopher,

My innuendos n wording you take so profound,

Stay under my control

You can shine with my sementic prowess

Or I will pull your strings,

Suck n eat away your energy

Hampering your independent progress.

(What do you think?? Isn’t this really a dark empath talking?? The words they never say loud but you can feel it..)

Meaningless life.

Sometimes I feel what if I die tomorrow

What have I ever achieved??

Are all of my goals chased, dreams fulfilled??

And then I wish that I die tomorrow

Life is meaningless..

I inspire and motivate myself daily

Just to be pushed down again by the circumstances,

I know my strength

But I am fed up n afraid

Where dying feels better than living,

I wonder maybe I’ll get everything I want in another life

What’s the point in living anymore??

Nightmare of Helplessness-Interpretation required.

This is a paragraph that I have found as a dream interpretation. I don’t know why I see some horrible dreams full of helplessness. I need some more clues or clear interpretation as to what actually they mean.

So, today I saw one such dream, or I say, a nightmare. Dream was quite long but I am writing about only that part that is bothering me the most.. My father and I were in a marketplace and he had an argument with a wholesale merchant about the price of some products, which he denied to buy, started going down a lane in the open in frustration. I was following him. I was a kid. I heard the merchant calling some men for attacking us. My father was walking with a good speed, I was lagging behind. I was trying to speed up as he was not listening to me when I was trying to tell him what I heard. Suddenly, a group of four-five goons came, held him and did beat him so mercilessly. They broke his that arm completely whose elbow was broken in real. He was drenched in blood. He initially tried to fight but all in vain. It all happened within seconds. They kept on beating him, and finally he died. I was at a distance, some people held me and I screamed like never before out of innate helplessness. Then I woke up.

Once in a while, I see such nightmares of immense helplessness in which always a group is attacking, mostly I see myself being attacked by mob, stabbed with knives, or killed in some ruthless ways. Fights, Bloodshed and death by a group or mob is the main theme of most of my nightmares. This time it was related to my father, which increased my intensity manifolds, that too about which I could not do anything. This was the feeling of helplessness like never before.

Is there anyone who can interpret dreams/nightmates and their symbols paychologically or throw some light?

Can you move with integrity against a narcissist??

Moving with integrity against a narcissist takes a toil on you, both mentally n physically.

When you are offended, that too without a fault of you or provocation, you feel like beating the shit out of the offender.

You know you have lost a lot, not for your own faults, but because of the same offender’s manipulation tactics.

And nobody can understand your anguish, only you can because you have had to bear the loss. The biggest loss being of your love, that you cannot bear.

And when you speak up about it, that psychopath would either take the turn next in offending you again or would try her best to be the loving n impressive person, which is actually the fake n temporary behaviour that is a trademark of narcissists, to behave very lovingly, politely and impressively after offending others or doing wrong to others in order to save oneself from the criticism or deserving hatred or other consequences. It actually happens because the narc has put her shit (mental filth) over the other person for the other to suffer mentally from it when the psycho knows that that other person will not take revenge.

The anger stays in the person offended which makes that person to talk negatively incessantly, depresses mentally and makes ill physically and when that happens, the narcissist rises again as the harmonious, loving and kind person to impress others who is a piece of shit from the core.

Filthy fake freaks.

Those who love to see you on your lowest

If you are not with them

And at your best

Only if you are with them

Are a few of the worst creatures born on earth,

They fake goodness when a third person is observing or is involved

Otherwise it’s just filth from them being shed upon you that you can sense,

And it continues every time you reject them for their fakeness.

Loads in depression.

Sometimes, your biggest achievement is to talk while you have no mental energy to even speak a word,

do all of your works of the day while you have no physical energy either,

And to smile when all you feel is emptiness,

To have hope while all you want is to scream and cry out loud not knowing what to do about what’s bothering you.

(Originally posted on 12th june,2020, when I was in severe depression)

Tactic of Triangulation used by narcissist.

“And now begins the game of Triangulation.”

I was wrong to call a pure narcissist a toxic empath when I can see clearly all the aspects of narcissism in the same person. Triangulation means comparing two people in which the one who is praised is used by the narcissist to demean the other person when that ‘other person’ does not adhere to the stupidity, toxicity and malicious behaviour or demands of the narcissist. This is done to lower the self-confidence of one of two people compared. You will mostly see a narcissist jumping from one person to another, praising highly one person one day and when that same person gets to know about the narcissist’s malice and call out about it or expose that behaviour, then that person is met with the Tactic of Triangulation.

Well played.

You have played your game really well,

But I am glad that

Even after losing a lot because of you,

I am free.

Every person that I have lost was yours

And yours only,

Now go fuck yourself,

Or your karma will do.

You hate, but fake goodness for me.

I know how jealous you are subliminally of the way my mind works,

It’s not the first time I have noticed it,

It’s since the time we started talking,

You always try to attack my

Intellect, intelligence and level of introspection,

Dude, what problem do you have??

Why so fucking jealous??

I have tried to ignore this ‘N’ number of times by now,

But you seem to never stop.

Your opinions about me depend on your mood,

When you observe me doing anything according to your liking

You judge me and articulate good stuff about me to others,

When things go against you

I am a dull person, unremarkable, bookish massiah and even bully..

Why the fuck don’t you get treated

About your own fakeness, manipulation, narcissism and stupidity??

I used to take you as a blessing years ago,

But you are a bloody curse on my life,

You show yourself as a helper, guide and well-wisher,

But it all depends on your own emotions, what you want to show others, and what you want to take from me,

By being a fake influencer in my life,

Just to control me.

Right from the beginning your motto has been

“I can handle you.”

“I know everything about you.”

Nope,

You still know nothing about me,

And it’s impossible for somebody like you to handle me.

Even if you try to fake help me,

Know that I don’t need it from you and never will do,

Because whenever you do something, it ends up in my disadvantage,

I try not to hate you but you bring me to this point every single time,

Why don’t you get lost completely from my life??

I so want it

And I so mean it.

The misery you feel in your own mind,

Subliminally you want to see it in my life,

So that you can be that fake sympathetic massiah who took me from the filth and raised me into something I could not have imagined.

Dude, stop that crap.

I am and will always be incharge of my life.

Take that you cannot manipulate me,

Though you have manipulated a lot around me,

Not anymore.

Commode.

I am in this habit

Of sitting in toilet for as long as it becomes unbearable the stink

So that I realize for how long I have been sitting on shit

And that it’s not the place to keep sitting on

Flush it off

Move out

The same in life be it.