Kisi aise Ch***ye ko life mein importance di hai jisne sbko tumse dur kar diya ho fir khud nikal gya tumhari life se bina kisi guilt ke??
Sabak lelo.. Jo tumhare aas-paas ke har friend, best friend, crush se jealous ho shuruaat mein hi, wo tumhe unn sabse dur karke hi rhega, wo bi tumhare hi dwara, apni jhooti dosti aur pyaar dikha ke aur apne matlab chhupa ke.
Just in case, any of you know something about my personal life that I need to know, now afterwards, please inform me about it straight away, so that I can do better, rather than beating around the bush, because seriously, I usually have no idea who is doing what generally and when I get to know what I needed to know back a day or two or maybe more, I feel a little shattered. You believe it or not, I don’t stalk others as much as you think that I do. I feel like I have better things to do than putting my energy into strangers with whom I have nothing to do. They may be very much into knowing each and everything that I am doing, but I am not interested in that stupidity and toxicity. And when a few of you behave weird/strange/awkward around me (which is usually not possible except than on social media), it just strikes me that maybe I should know something and I admit that after that I do stalk (only readily available information on somebody’s account), but I am not a freak about stalking like many others going to the point of having criminalistic stalking tendencies. This last hour was one such time where I diverted my mind from my usual to something I was finding uncomfortable about others behaviour.
PS- You people are too bad at controlling your reactions, good at beating around the bush and still unable to say anything directly. Hell ! Please be direct to me. I don’t bite !
It’s okay if you go crazy after a couple of day over and over again. Your mental illness needs to be addressed. You do not need to fake anything just to look like the stable one. People have your back and you know that, right? You need to share everything wrong you did in the past with a psychotherapist because you or any of your friends may not be a professional, so, won’t be of much help to you. Also, avoid talking to a personally known therapist, you may again fake everything. It’s crucial to be authentic while releasing the past from the mind.
I have to write this here because you have been giving me hints of your craziness indirectly. Or you may talk directly to me about your issue if you do not want me to write here.