I cower under the influence of my own love
That I turn out to be so fearless as a result
Fearless in loving you
Fearless in fighting with myself to not to love you,
It’s insane
That I always lose
But my love always wins.
(First published on 19th Aug, 2020)
A few people think that I am over-qualified whereas I still feel under-qualified, and it’s not because of any outsider; actually, my father was a highly-qualified scholar. He had 3 graduation degrees that were in science, arts, and law, each, n 3 post-grad degrees, in physics, english, and political-science, each. He also wanted to do post-grad in law, with me, but destiny had other plans and he succumbed to throat cancer, and thus, I also couldn’t carry on with my studies for the next one year. But then, I started with post-grad in political science as it was the only options left for me at that time and I was quite interested in it as well. After that, I am still studying, although I had a gap of one and half year in studies due to lockdown and changing areas of research.
Coming back to my father. He was studying law when he had 2 kids and was performing his official duties as well as he was doing job at that time. I mean, how could he manage everything so effortlessly. So much of hard-work on his part stayed unrecognized. He was too humble to believe and many people usually under-estimated him because of that, although those who actually knew him had a blind trust on him and his capabilities, and that’s what he actually deserved. Not to forget to mention, his level of knowledge, both static and current. Asked him about anything, he had the right answers most of the times, in the age when there was no internet, google, wikipedia.. Actually, he used to read 2-3 newspapers first thing in the morning, right after refreshing, Aaaaand books in the fields of novels, ayurveda, science n tech, astrology, etc. AND how can I not mention his talents?? He was really (I mean REALLY!!) good in cooking, sewing, carpentry in terms of repairing any furniture, sketching, gardening, playing musical instrument..in which sketching was truly exceptional as he could draw any still life object within 2-3 minutes with fast and light-strokes and all he needed was any paper and any kind of pencil..
Whole of my life I saw him doing things and asked myself where do you stand?? Yeah.. kind of inferiority complex I could have but instead, he proved to be an inspiration for me to always do and learn more and more.
Life is not forever, but the legacy you leave as a learner and doer is indefinite and forever.
It’s frustrating to think about some really witty stuff to post and forget it the next day. Now I need to attack someone on a mental and emotional level to satiate my desire to be funny. I mean FUNNY !! funny, not haha funny.
You can take it either as desire already satiated or as a confession. I won’t explain in reply, either perception. Though I am not meany mean, yet I might have a median about it.
😂🤣
(PS- It’s just a sarcasm, intending to portray myself as a bad person, and I actually did not intend to attack anyone. 🙊😛)
When they say “save yourself from an evil eye”, they do not lie. You may think that why would anyone be jealous of me or my healing or happiness?? I am getting better, it’s a blessing. People may get good energy from me if I share my good vibes openly. But it’s not true. No matter how good n positive you are, some dark, evil n envious ones always put their negativity onto you and then you may fall ill physically n mentally out of the blue. I was doing well for one week quite positive, but since a day before yesterday I got fever, severe headache n kind of depressive cantankerous mood. People really are so disgusting that they want to bring down anyone down who has the ability to rise above their shit. I really don’t get it why some people are so envious by nature that they cannot see the other person ever doing well in life if that person does not want to carry their burden, even if that person doesn’t ask for their help or be a burden herself. TRULY SICK PEOPLE !!
(25th oct, 2020)
-When you try to do Kamasutra but instead you need to do some kaam(work) according to her dictated sutra(scripture)- Lust turned into marriage
-Who else does HURRAY !! YE WALI BHI GYI, WO WALI BHI GYI.. ABB SHAYAD MERA EK-DEDH SAAL MEIN CHANCE LAGG JAYEGA..(THIS ONE GONE, THAT ONE GONE..PROBABLY I’LL HAVE A CHANCE WITH THEM NOW IN A YEAR OR AROUND)- Crushed Nuts
-BF should be BEST FRIEND, GF should be GREAT FRIEND..OKAY??- Best BF-GF
-As much as love, Covid was in the air, and 2020 made us all sick either way-2020 Diaries
-We all know that one person who can balance out the extremities very well while never being in the middle-Come On, You All Know Me 😉🤪
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(Written on 2nd March,2021)
To a hater,
BEWARE !
The stability of my mind may kill you !
Everything you are trying to affect me, you are failing at it all !
With deep concern,
A person who gives no shit.
(A few hours later, you already have had a fit. 😂)
Aaaaand the fits of the psycho continue till date.. Get treated BITCH 🤣 (16th march,22)
(First published on 26th Jan, 2022)
You may as well,
To save yourself from drowning in marshy waters,
Want to learn to fly.
💞
(Originally posted on 6th jan,2021)
It’s a good feeling when people don’t know you anymore. They can’t take advantage of what they don’t know…..
(Originally posted on 3rd Jan, 2021)
Do what sparks a fire in your soul,
Not what peaks your ego,
You will never regret your ways of life this way.
(Published: 18th march,2021)
I Think For All 