I talked to my bua (paternal aunt) about it and she said,
“If he wanted you that much, he would have said it clearly directly and not through other’s accounts, and if you wanted him that much, you would have met him.“
That’s some serious mature advice. I am proud of her. Sad but still..that’s practical..
Whenever I really need some serious advice in which I need to be talked Out Of Emotions, I talk to her. I am still emotional, but thinking practically at the same time, and this time the credit goes to her only..