Do you ever feel like having a very open conversation with someone from your past(5 yrs) about why you could not let them come close to you.. ? why did you hate them.. why can’t you ever trust them? what dark secrets you are hiding from everyone.. ? almost everyone..but you cannot tell.. because that one will blame you again for everything or maybe spill the beans to a group or two or maybe will loathe you whole of your life about those secrets secretly…..
And somehow those secrets make you hate yourself but they were the reason behind all that for you; because you were not in the mind to choose better behaviour for yourself that time??
I hope one day you get somebody to whom you can open up your heart and mind like that completely.