State of despair.

When your life has been a big depression

Average normal mental state feels like too much to achieve

And better than that even scares you

Bringing on unknown anxiety that somebody or something will ruin it all

And generally your fears come true

So you fall in the pit of depression all over again

Staying in that loop

While those who ruin it all

Stay unaffected

Maybe it affects them for a day or two

Or at most a week will do,

I don’t know if it’s destiny or what

But if there is anything like karma

Why doesn’t this shit stop for me and others that I relate to,

One extra shithead with a hell load of darkness n snarky crap always jumps in

And all of my efforts, good will n love go to the bin.