All of their pattern has been
First of all, to be sure of my feelings towards them
Rather than showing their feelings to me, if they had any,
And then test over and over again in the same belief that I might have stopped feeling anything,
And still not being courageous enough to show their own vulnerability.
Trust me, I am realizing this now, I have never wanted such cowards in my life, not at least in the matter of love.